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Feeling like such a failure

I got my second BFP yesterday morning (first m/c was in February). I tried my hardest to not get excited this time.To not start visualizing this baby in my arms, in our home, and at big family events. But I couldn't help it.

Then the cramping started this morning and this afternoon the bleeding started. I guess a positive test then a loss so quickly is a chemical pregnancy? Whatever it is, I feel like a failure, like less of a person, and less of a woman. Twice now I have been pregnant, and twice now my body has not been able to carry it. I really hate this.


BFP#1 2/18/2011, EDD 10/18/2011, natural m/c 2/28/2011 @ 7 weeks
BFP#2 5/28/2011, EDD 2/1/2012, chemical pg
BFP#3 10/22/2011, EDD 6/30/2012, natural m/c 11/3/2011 @ 6 weeks
BFP#4 4/16/2012, EDD 12/24/2012, Beta #1 23 @ 10dpo, Beta #2 68 @ 12dpo, Beta #3 370 @ 16dpo, Saw baby and heartbeat on 5/11/2012.

It's a boy!
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Re: Feeling like such a failure

  • MrsJCMrsJC member
    I'm so sorry you're going through this. I just had my second loss, too.
    BFP #1 1/27/11, EDD 10/7/11, D&C 3/29/11 @ 12w4d
    BFP #2 5/19/11, EDD 1/20/12, Natural miscarriage 6/2/11 @ 6w6d
    Dx 2 copies of MTHFR reductase DNA mutation (C677T & A1298C) June 2011
  • Yes, it does sound like a chemical pregnancy.  I'm so sorry for your losses.  I can relate to your feeling of failure.  I'm sure you've already heard it, but I'll say it again: It wasn't your fault and you are not a failure.  I hope you are able to find some answers.
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  • It does sound like a chemical pregnancy. I am so sorry you are having to go through this. After one miscarriage I think the biggest fear is a repeat. Please take care of yourself. You are anything but a failure.
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. You are definately not a failure.
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