While I still have moments and days that are really hard, I am super glad to say that things are looking up! DH is still gone all the time, but now it's because he got a second job. It's easier to deal with knowing he's trying to help out the only way he knows how. I got a job, too. It has given me back the identity I didn't know I lost. I hate being away from DS, but it does give me time to breathe and miss him. I've finally fallen in love with my little guy.
Re: progress!