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Krissimarie · May 2011

Hi ladies! Finally recieved a positive this morninn. A little back story--I have been thinking that I'm pregnant since my last true AF was April 8, and May 10 was the next scheduled AF and nothing for a week, then spotting for a few days, and a negative test. SIL is a nurse pract, at the local clinc, and I told her what was going on and she said I could still be pregnate, and to retest. With all the hecticness here for the last 2 weeks (power outages, flooding) i haddnt given it much though. H was dissapointed when the test was negative (ok, i was so upset i started crying). After everything our family has been going through this past spring, I had my heart set on getting pregnant before June 13 (i know, i was a little emotionally crazy). My little brother was diagnosed with cancer (dr's project a full recovery even at the stage he is in)and will be going through chemo(currently on a chemo bag) and radiation for 9 weeks starting June 13 at the Mayo clinic, and my dad just had sugery to replace 2 vertebra in his neck in April. My little brother didnt want anyone to put their lives on hold for his sugery, even threatening that if my dad did not have his sugery he wouldnt do chemo. H had mentioned to a mutual friend that we were going to quit trying just till all the stress ended, and my little brother was mad because we were "putting our lives on hold for him." He and I havent really talked since, other than texts and when he is at my parents my mom will call me and I go over there to see him. I texted him this morning that I will be over at lunch to talk to him, and H and I will tell him the news then. He is going to be a Godfather in January!!! I know it is just the emotions, but I still feel guilty for being this happy with him so sick.