My EDD was yesterday. I had been anticipating it all week and thought DH and I would do something to commemorate it. Instead I was tired for my night shift the day before and anticipating another. I kinda let it just pass. I was afraid acknowledging it would make for a bad night at the hospital.
Today I'm cranky and grumpy and keep having awful thoughts creep in about this pregnancy. We listened to the baby yesterday and it sounded great but I'm still freaking out today. We usually don't listen more than every other day, but I think I'll need to listen tonight to stay sane. I keep thinking about all the what ifs- what if we did have that baby now, but didn't have this one. It's all so weird since I am much more attached this time around.
Sorry this is long... how did others mark their EDDs in ways that helped them grieve but also move on? Thanks ladies...
Re: EDD came and went...
We didn't do much- I had just gotten this BFP so I tried to (internally) celibrate and think of this LO as a gift from the one that we lost.
If we weren't selling the house I would have planted either a tree or a perennial (spelling? i'm not a gardener) to watch grow/bloom every year.
Sorry you're having a rough day, it's a tough one to get through. {hugs}
I'm so sorry. ((Big HUGS)) It's so hard to get through those milestones, especially right now.
My first EDD was 4 days after I got this BFP. DH took me out to breakfast, and then we went shopping at Lush so I could pamper myself a little bit. That afternoon we had a BBQ to go to, so that was a good distraction.
Take some time to pamper yourself and definitely listen to LO today.
BFP#1 - 9/2/10, EDD 5/14/11, Twins Hannah and Liam lost 11/7/10 @ 13w1d.
BFP #2 - 2/9/11, EDD 10/13/11, LO lost 2/13/11 @ 5w4d
BFP #3 - 5/9/11, DS born 1/13/12
~*~My BFP Chart~*~Our Story~*~
~*~Labor Buddies with Sweet Turnip - Welcome Baby Girl 2/23/12 & Aluenna - Welcome Ivy 1/6/12~*~
BFP#2 3/16/11, beta 138; 4/12 Baby/HB DS born 9/10/11 at 29w4d due to partial abruption and PTL
BFP#3 8/19/13 Another boy! 17P, modified bedrest and Nifedipine helped us have a termie! DS2 born 4/19/14 at 38w5d.
The brothers I Rule and OMG! with their faithful sidekickFootFoot.
My life has a superb cast but I can't figure out the plot.
On my EDD I had wanted to take a day of relaxation but instead we worked on finishing our basement instead. I think listening to the baby heartbeat tonight if it gives you peace then go ahead and listen to the heartbeat. Hugs
BFP #1 4/22/10 MC 5/5/10 (6w4d) EDD 12/25/10
BFP #2 10/19/10 CP 10/27/10 (4w6d) EDD 6/30/11
BFP #3 5/10/11 Lucas Abelardo born 12/29/11 at 37w3d
BFP #4 12/10/12 MMC 1/14/13 (9w3d) D&C 1/15/13 EDD 8/16/13
BFP #5 8/22/13 Lucia Elizabeth born 4/17/14 at 38w