A lot of our posts lately have been about struggles with our LO's and DH's. I sincerely hope everyone's weekend goes much smoother than this past week has been!
Aubrey is now on the opposite end of the growth spurt spectrum - yesterday she was sleepy and snacking, today she is wide eyed and a hungry hippo! My boobs are so empty they feel deflated. I tried pumping for 20 minutes and didn't even get 5ml no good! I will be at my moms house tomorrow at 7am for her garage sale and I will be there until 11:30 at night because my car is having issues so I'll be waiting for DH to get off work to pick me up. I love going to my moms house because she gives me a big break. Ugh, right now I am DIEING for a break.
Tonights question: Now that you are a mom, what do you feel is the biggest thing you gave up?
Other than the obvious answer of sleep, I feel like I have given up (and you can call me silly for this) my beauty. I never have time to do my hair or make up which, if you knew me, I'd never leave the house without doing either. I've gotten used to wearing spit up and the occasional pee or poop but the fact that I have no make up on or have my hair straightened bothers the crap outta me. Plus the whole jelly belly, dark dirty looking belly button and my deflated boobs are not helping me feel so great. Oh, and maybe if I could get a regular shower that would help...
June Siggy: Fave pic of Aubrey and me
Re: Roll Call
We had a pretty decent day. Amelia didn't want to eat much today, which kind of worried me, but she slept a lot, so maybe she's doing the growth spurt thing? We walked for a LONG time tonight at Relay for Life, and now we're getting ready to go to bed.
When I became a mom, I feel like I gave up spontaneity. On any other Friday night, DH and I would decide late in the evening what we would do - usually go to dinner and a movie or just drive around and talk. Now I feel like I can't do anything without it being perfectly planned around LO's sleeping and eating patterns. It's kind of depressing.
Adventures with Amelia
Ahhh..get out of my brain!
Adventures with Amelia
My horses. Yeah, I can go see them and say hi, but I can't just ride. It's disappointing because last summer I was pregnant, so I didn't ride. The summer before that I had a broken back so I didn't ride. And now, LO. Also, running outside. I can take LO to the gym and run on the treadmill because they have daycare. But road doesn't offer a daycare. At least these things are all temporary.
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BFP#3 "Pineapple" born 4/2013
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We've had a bad day as well. Patrick was awake at 6 am, and only slept in little spurts all day long. I bumped a ton to keep myself sane and awake. I don't know what's wrong, but he cried practically all day until this evening, when happy baby showed up. But, he's been asleep for 2 hours now, and BF is making pizza for dinner.
I gave up the ability to arrive for -anything- on time. I'm either super-early or late. I used to always be on time.
Quinn is like a little firecracker!! Her moods are all over the place...
What I lost is my sanity...I don't think I will ever get it back. 3u3 took it's toll on this momma
Today was a rewarding and settling day for me. I had to take LO to the doctor because I thought he had reflux and eczema. Turns out I was right. Ped. said he has silent reflux and what I had suspected was baby acne at first is definitely eczema now. Dr. is having us use the Enfamil AR (formula with rice cereal in it) to try to help with the reflux, if it doesn't work she gave me a prescription for Prevacid. For the eczema, I'm using coritzone 10 and vaseline to keep hold the moisture in.
So, I'm glad I got a few answers, and to know that I was actually right. On a brighter note, he is up to 10lbs 7oz! My little chunky monkey is growing too quickly.
I'm not sure what I think I've given up with Axton. I knwo I've given up the ability to just get up and go. W/ DD being 5, it was easy to go out and about and quick trips anywhere. I was also able to spend every waking minute w/ her and now I can't. I feel guilty about it sometimes, but I have been trying to spend extra time with her alone (We went to the circus just me and her last weekend). I also feel like I lost my beauty Kim. It takes me forever just to get the 2 of them fed, cleaned, dressed, and out the door, I don't want to start SUPER early just to do my makeup/hair. I've lost my ability to go out on the weekends whenever I want. DD is always making her own plans to stay overnight at grandmas, or her cousins house, so DH and I always got to just relax or go out whenever we wanted. Not so much anymore. But, despite all of it, I couldn't be more in love with my little man, and it makes me SO sad to see how big he's getting already. I just want him to stay little and cuddly =/
Sorry this got so long.lol
Good news: Carson has been a gem today and my pumping bra should be arriving tomorrow.
Bad news: Found out today while at the surgeon's office with DH that some moron at BCBS cancelled our insurance instead of adding DS. Since we didn't find out til 430 Friday afternoon, it will be Monday before I get any answers and probably a week from now before things are settled.
Spontaneity was my first thought as well. I don't plan my day around DS's schedule since there isn't much of one yet, but I can't just leave the house in 5 minutes, or even get everything out of the car in 5 minutes!
ETA: I MUST have 2 showers a day... my hormones are so insane I sweat all day long. Granted, I'm in FL, but I'm inside the house or stores all day! I also do my makeup daily and hair most days (every other is usually a ponytail). I just wait til he's asleep or just content to not be held, and stick him in the bouncer in the bathroom with me while I shower and get put together.
TheBump was down last night (for some reason), so I couldn't do this last night :-( We walked to the farmers' market, and I carried Liam in the Baby K'Tan, then we went to the local brew pub for dinner. There was a charity auction going on there to support our sister city in Japan, but we got a table after a little while.
Get ready to laugh. I miss being bada$$. Basically, there's a school of poetry called Outlaw Poetry or Outsider Writers, and I'm sort of considered one of those. Like poets who have a bottle of liquor or beer on the podium during their readings. Think of how Joan Jett was looked at in the 80s. That's how my reputation was as a writer. I think I lost that when I became a little round pregnant person. I hope to be able to be bada$$ again.
There's a Literary Underground encyclopedia online. Here's my entry for proof: https://theliteraryunderground.org/wiki/index.php?title=Shaindel_Beers
I want to be her again :-)
Mac and cheese lover!