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Just out of the woods...then I lost my Mom..

Mamaof3JadeMamaof3Jade member
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Just as it sounds. I suffered from PPD for months, and just lately have been feeling well enough to consider myself  "normal". I have been trying to pick myself back up and enjoy life again, and relive all that I feel Ive missed in this blur of depression. Unfortunatley, though, on the 2nd of this month I lost my Mom, my best friend. She died unexpectedly at home of unknown causes at the age of 44. I am lost. I dont exactly feel like my PPD is back, but am in such a blur that Im worried once my head wraps itself around all of this, I may have another battle. Im not sure what Im looking for here, maybe just support. She was my everything, next to my husband and children. We were so close, more like sisters. I am truly lost and confused, and worried that as I begin to soak all of this in, I am getting more and more overwhelmed by grief. I dont want my PPD to come back, I want to be there for my kiddos. They are whats keeping me so strong. I have to give them all I can, and I know that if depression comes now, I may never come out of it. I am going to see a counsellor very soon with my 12 year old sister who also just lost her mommy. I am just worried that it may not be enough, this is a huge loss for me.
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Re: Just out of the woods...then I lost my Mom..

  • shibby00shibby00 member
    I am so sorry for your loss Sad My Mom died very unexpectedly 2 years ago and grieving for her has been the hardest /most awful thing I have ever experienced.  I got married 4 months after she passed, and had my DD 10 months after getting married.  I had so many huge and life altering things happen in such a short amount of time that it really was no surprise to me when I got PPD.  Please go and talk to a counselor/therapist!  That is what got me through some of my darkest times.  Depression is not a life sentence, you can and will get through this and you will smile again.  Not a day goes by that I don't miss my Mom terribly, but life does go on!  Allow yourself to grieve and to feel whatever you feel.  It's ok to cry, it's ok to be angry, don't try and bottle up your emotions!  Again, please go talk to a therapist, it can only help!  GL.
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  • KelanneKelanne

    I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry you lost your mom. 

    (((( HUGS ))))

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