I'm scheduled to start work on Wednesday

I'm really dreading leaving Lily... I really think she is attached to me.... It's happened with DH and my mom where I leave her with them and when I come home she is crying but stops as soon as I hold her (this makes me feel all warm and tingly inside LOL) I'm not going back full time, only 30 hours a week, so everyday I will work from 11-5 with no lunch, this still means I'm going to have to leave her for SIX HOURS!!!! Here's the other thing... I'm only going back to work for a short period of time... While on maternity leave I decided I'm going to become a SAHM, but I'm not telling my employer right away because I need to keep my job until Lily and I have other health insurance than the one provided through my work (if we get it through DH's work it is ridiculously expensive, more so than if we buy it on our own). i must admit that I'm also afraid that once I go back, I might get used to it, and actually enjoy going to work
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Re: I really have no room to complain, but it's still stressful...
Hugs, Mama.
This will be me in 2 weeks or so.
It's not bad to enjoy going to work. Sometimes you need to do something outside of being just a mom and that's ok. You don't HAVE to be a SAHM if you change your mind, don't feel guilty. I'm not trying to convince you not to be a SAHM, just that it's ok if you don't want to do it anymore once you go back to work.
Please don;t feel guilty or bad. You are experiencing being a mom....somedays I miss my children when they are at daycare so much I feel guilty, then after 10 minutes of chaos I can;t wait for them to go back. Working reduced hours may be just what you need but being a SAHM may be for you; and with each additional child your thoughts will change about this. The most important thing to do is be where you are....I know this sounds very yoga (and in some ways it is) but you can enjoy and be more productive if you work at work and give your children and DH their all when you are with them.
Good luck.
by the 4th week i was ready to go back to work for some sense of normalcy. i needed a schedule and to do more than sit and watch daytime tv (i do enjoy it but 30 days straight was doing something bad to me). i miss addy a lot but i'm glad to be at work. she's usually up when i get up to go to work so i get to change and maybe even feed her then smother her with kisses and go to work.
good luck to you
I went back to work yesterday. Like you, I was DREADING it, but it hasn't been that bad. I think the anticipation was worse than actually being back.
However, I will say that since I'm a teacher and school gets out for summer in a few weeks, being back has been easier because I know I'll have full days home with DS again soon. I think it would be harder if it wasn't for that.