DH is leaving for Paris on Tuesday, and won't be back until Sunday. I don't know how I'm going to survive that many days alone with DS, particularly first thing in the morning.
DH travels all the time, but usually leaves Tuesday and gets back Thursday, and we have a good rhythm for that. But it's usually domestic or to Canada, so we don't have to deal with the time zone difference, and I feel like somehow, were an emergency to happen, he could be here within a half day. This time, I feel really alone.
The thing that makes this needing to be FF? DS will be in school every day until 3:30, and on Wednesday and Thursday I have gigs that mean a babysitter will be coming. I'm honestly just nervous about 2 things: (1) getting through Friday at 3:30 until Sunday at 3:30 with a toddler who hates to play alone and who is very 2.5 right now, without losing my mind; and (2) dealing with mornings when DS gets up at 6, because our deal is I, a night person, get up with him for any night wakings, but then DH, who is a morning person, takes DS from when he wakes until 8, so I can sleep an extra hour and get ready on my own. Without that hour, I am *veryveryveryvery* crabby.
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I'm really looking forward to a night of champagne and chocolates at my neighbor's house, and it's something I ordinarily would so not be into. She runs a jockey clothing business and she's having this party for past clients and party hosts (I'm neither, but I'm going to a party on Sunday, so I may soon be one) and ordinarily get togethers with people who only have that in common would be a big in my book, but the idea of getting out of the house where there is bubbly alcohol involved is so enticing! I'm debating whether to let DH put the two kids down by himself tonight and get there on time or help out and get there a bit late. Hey - I had to do bedtimes alone two days this week... While the thought of sipping a cocktail across the street while he's dealing with our kiddos seems a tad mean, I may just do it!
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I'm not sure if this qualifies as FF but it's all I can think/scheme about today. I'm looking forward to DH being gone all day tomorrow. He cleaned the house last night - which I'm grateful for, don't get me wrong, but he has never gotten used to our ecofriendly cleaners and somehow he managed to find a bottle of CLR and a bottle of Pledge last night and cleaned the whole house with them. GAAAAAAAAAAWD. Holy fumes. I could have yelled at him. Instead I decided to go through all the nooks & crannies of our house tomorrow and purge the toxic crap that I've never gotten rid of but thought I did. I don't even know how he finds the stuff still, I think he buys it when he does the shopping, thinking we're just out of those supplies, when really I haven't bought that stuff in 5+ years! Drives me crazy!!
he managed to find a bottle of CLR and a bottle of Pledge last night and cleaned the whole house with them. GAAAAAAAAAAWD. Holy fumes.
I hear you. DH is on board with the EF cleaning materials, but we STILL have some brand of knock off dusting spray that he insists on using up. Lord knows where we got it, as its not a brand I'd have purchased pre EF days, either. Whenever he dusts with it, the smell drives me absolutely insane! Ish!
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So MH was home with DD as his responsibility all day except for two feedings.
And I LOVE that at the end of the day he had gotten absolutely nothing done except diaper laundry.
Not that he's admitted it's hard as hell and he admires me for being able to do all I accomplish four days a week when I'm alone with her, but I could see him thinking it every time I emerged from the office to pee.
Mine is probably semi-related to pregnancy hormones - but my DH is 99% sure he's got a new job as a police officer about an hr away (I commute the same distance in the opposite direction 3x/week). Right now he's a sheriff's deputy 25 minutes away and gets to drive his police cruiser home (so no gas on our part). He works Mon, Tues, Fri, Sat, Sun one week, then only Wed, Thurs the next week. I love it. I can easily adjust my schedule around it when teh baby is born so we ahve as little childcare as possible. BUT he hates his current job - it's stressful, they single him out, etc. etc - and they pay is crap, and I get that - I don't want him to be stressed out more than necessary.
This new job is 5 nights a week - 7pm to 3 am - but he'd be gone 5:30pm to 4am or so. We have my SD every other week - and I work 3x week from 5:15 am to 9pm (that's how long I'm gone). So 3 days a week they'd go to the sitter from 5:30pm until 9pm. Then I'd have to come home after being on my feet ALL day as a registered nurse in a super busy hospital and get both girls ready for bed - be up at night with the baby, and still have to function. Right now I have it pretty easy - and I'm nervous I won't be able to handle late nights and both girls But I want him to have a less stressful job. Oh - and with him having to pay for gas to commute to the new job 5x a week - the added income will pretty much disappear.....
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The job I work at is in my field, which is why I have it (it allows me to work from home most days). It is sort of like monkey work which is actually ok by me - I don't need to think hard these days, I have too much else going on. My reviewer just gave me a new type of case "because she doesn't want me to get bored." Yeah, its all boring to me, this is not my dream job. I don't want to have to learn something new, I want to do my monkey work.
This new job is 5 nights a week - 7pm to 3 am - but he'd be gone 5:30pm to 4am or so. We have my SD every other week - and I work 3x week from 5:15 am to 9pm (that's how long I'm gone). So 3 days a week they'd go to the sitter from 5:30pm until 9pm. Then I'd have to come home after being on my feet ALL day as a registered nurse in a super busy hospital and get both girls ready for bed - be up at night with the baby, and still have to function. Right now I have it pretty easy - and I'm nervous I won't be able to handle late nights and both girls But I want him to have a less stressful job. Oh - and with him having to pay for gas to commute to the new job 5x a week - the added income will pretty much disappear.....
That would definitely be hard, however I'm always amazed how when it comes to the kids you can function despite most circumstances. Any chance you could have the sitter one extra day a week so you can get stuff done and nap a bit to recharge?
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I'm kinda tired of thanking people on fb for telling me all the wonderful things about Oliver.
I am having a tropical fruit binge this week. Being pg had me craving bananas like no one's business, and I hadn't had imported fruit in years prior. Today alone I had 2 mangoes, 2 bananas, and a whole pineapple all to myself yesterday.
My mom bought O camouflage onesies [nms] that say "Mommy's best friend" and I don't know how to tell her he'll never wear it, so please stop buying thins like that.
I have to take Z in for a weight check next week and am pretty sure they are going to tell me I need to supplement. When I took him to the doctor last Friday, he had only gained 5 oz from last month. I don't know if I'm going to continue bf if they say we need to supplement and I feel pretty guilty about it.
This new job is 5 nights a week - 7pm to 3 am - but he'd be gone 5:30pm to 4am or so. We have my SD every other week - and I work 3x week from 5:15 am to 9pm (that's how long I'm gone). So 3 days a week they'd go to the sitter from 5:30pm until 9pm. Then I'd have to come home after being on my feet ALL day as a registered nurse in a super busy hospital and get both girls ready for bed - be up at night with the baby, and still have to function. Right now I have it pretty easy - and I'm nervous I won't be able to handle late nights and both girls But I want him to have a less stressful job. Oh - and with him having to pay for gas to commute to the new job 5x a week - the added income will pretty much disappear.....
That would definitely be hard, however I'm always amazed how when it comes to the kids you can function despite most circumstances. Any chance you could have the sitter one extra day a week so you can get stuff done and nap a bit to recharge?
Thats the thing - with my work schedule previously I just had to do 80 hrs in 2 weeks and it was super lenient - now its 40 hrs a week (can't do 36/44 or anything like that) - so I dropped down to 0.9 (36/week or 3 12hr shiftS) - which would mean the sitters 2 days every other week, and none the other weeks, so like 4 days a month.... now with his new job, it's 3 days EVERY week - and both girls every other week - so it's going to cost a lot more, and I'm not sure his income will cover it, not to mention the decrease in my income and increase in his gas consumption... I guess we just have to play it by ear... at least our sitter is relatively cheap and is willing to bathe SD and essentially have her in bed/ready for bed (and she'll deal with BM and CD for the new baby, so I won't complain (I bought her a stash of RaR for us to take back and forth for easy changes, lol). AND I forgot to mention he's off every weekend and major holiday.... ugh. I just feel so selfish for things wanting to change - but maybe once baby is here it'll all ease up. (I've never had a newborn before so I'm soo nervous already with everything).
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Nesties knew we were having a boy before my MIL/FIL. They were both at work and their cell was off so we couldn't even send a text. DH knowing how impatient I am (& my friends are ) let me tell the whole world
ETA: I'm SO behind on laundry that I really should work on it this weekend. I know if I can get it caught up again, I'll do better for a while but it's getting all caught up (cleaned, folded, put away) that's the hard part. I need to get my act together before the baby gets here or I don't know how I'll keep up with CD laundry.
Mom to: Miles (6 year old Maine C00n mix), Boots (5 year old Lab mix), Darla (4 year old GSD/Collie mix), Frankie (1.5 year old DSH mix), Peanut (15 months old - 09/11), and Bean (arriving Feb 2013).
Eli self-weaned. I'm feeling guilty about weaning Evan in a major way. In some ways I feel like I should start back up when we get back from our trip but in some ways I'm ready to be done. I'm at a loss for what's right to do for him/us.
I'm also still feeling so guilty for leaving Evan to go to this wedding for 3 days. I kinda feel like I should feel worse about lleaving Eli but I'm relatively confident that he'll be just fine having fun with my mom.
My dad has cancer and my mom was super rude when our neighbor whom I talk to on a regular basis and played with her kids as a child and my son plays with her grandson (so known for over 20yrs) said she was sorry to hear about my dad. My mom infront of the woman said that she didnt want people to know and had only told family. The poor woman was so embarrassed and probably had her feelings hurt. I am MAD at my mom for never saying she wanted only family to know.
I mean if someone I have known my whole life asks how I am doing and I tell her stressed out. She is going to ask why. If my mom wants to set ground rules then she needed to speak up when this started.. not verbally smack us in the face like that.
I will suck it up though, because my dad is ill and has lots of appointments to go to. He will start chemo next week, and all this stress is not good for my mom who has outlived the doctors guess on her max years after her heart surgeries/stint surgeries.
Re: FFFCs - anyone?
DH is leaving for Paris on Tuesday, and won't be back until Sunday. I don't know how I'm going to survive that many days alone with DS, particularly first thing in the morning.
DH travels all the time, but usually leaves Tuesday and gets back Thursday, and we have a good rhythm for that. But it's usually domestic or to Canada, so we don't have to deal with the time zone difference, and I feel like somehow, were an emergency to happen, he could be here within a half day. This time, I feel really alone.
The thing that makes this needing to be FF? DS will be in school every day until 3:30, and on Wednesday and Thursday I have gigs that mean a babysitter will be coming. I'm honestly just nervous about 2 things: (1) getting through Friday at 3:30 until Sunday at 3:30 with a toddler who hates to play alone and who is very 2.5 right now, without losing my mind; and (2) dealing with mornings when DS gets up at 6, because our deal is I, a night person, get up with him for any night wakings, but then DH, who is a morning person, takes DS from when he wakes until 8, so I can sleep an extra hour and get ready on my own. Without that hour, I am *veryveryveryvery* crabby.
I'm not sure if this qualifies as FF but it's all I can think/scheme about today. I'm looking forward to DH being gone all day tomorrow. He cleaned the house last night - which I'm grateful for, don't get me wrong, but he has never gotten used to our ecofriendly cleaners and somehow he managed to find a bottle of CLR and a bottle of Pledge last night and cleaned the whole house with them. GAAAAAAAAAAWD. Holy fumes. I could have yelled at him. Instead I decided to go through all the nooks & crannies of our house tomorrow and purge the toxic crap that I've never gotten rid of but thought I did. I don't even know how he finds the stuff still, I think he buys it when he does the shopping, thinking we're just out of those supplies, when really I haven't bought that stuff in 5+ years! Drives me crazy!!
I hear you. DH is on board with the EF cleaning materials, but we STILL have some brand of knock off dusting spray that he insists on using up. Lord knows where we got it, as its not a brand I'd have purchased pre EF days, either. Whenever he dusts with it, the smell drives me absolutely insane! Ish!
I had a major paper due last night.
I needed all day to work on it.
So MH was home with DD as his responsibility all day except for two feedings.
And I LOVE that at the end of the day he had gotten absolutely nothing done except diaper laundry.
Not that he's admitted it's hard as hell and he admires me for being able to do all I accomplish four days a week when I'm alone with her, but I could see him thinking it every time I emerged from the office to pee.
Mother's Day, 2011
Mother's Day, 2011
Mine is probably semi-related to pregnancy hormones - but my DH is 99% sure he's got a new job as a police officer about an hr away (I commute the same distance in the opposite direction 3x/week). Right now he's a sheriff's deputy 25 minutes away and gets to drive his police cruiser home (so no gas on our part). He works Mon, Tues, Fri, Sat, Sun one week, then only Wed, Thurs the next week. I love it. I can easily adjust my schedule around it when teh baby is born so we ahve as little childcare as possible. BUT he hates his current job - it's stressful, they single him out, etc. etc - and they pay is crap, and I get that - I don't want him to be stressed out more than necessary.
This new job is 5 nights a week - 7pm to 3 am - but he'd be gone 5:30pm to 4am or so. We have my SD every other week - and I work 3x week from 5:15 am to 9pm (that's how long I'm gone). So 3 days a week they'd go to the sitter from 5:30pm until 9pm. Then I'd have to come home after being on my feet ALL day as a registered nurse in a super busy hospital and get both girls ready for bed - be up at night with the baby, and still have to function. Right now I have it pretty easy - and I'm nervous I won't be able to handle late nights and both girls
But I want him to have a less stressful job. Oh - and with him having to pay for gas to commute to the new job 5x a week - the added income will pretty much disappear.....
That would definitely be hard, however I'm always amazed how when it comes to the kids you can function despite most circumstances. Any chance you could have the sitter one extra day a week so you can get stuff done and nap a bit to recharge?
This is the most exhausted I have ever been.
I'm kinda tired of thanking people on fb for telling me all the wonderful things about Oliver.
I am having a tropical fruit binge this week. Being pg had me craving bananas like no one's business, and I hadn't had imported fruit in years prior. Today alone I had 2 mangoes, 2 bananas, and a whole pineapple all to myself yesterday.
My mom bought O camouflage onesies [nms] that say "Mommy's best friend" and I don't know how to tell her he'll never wear it, so please stop buying thins like that.
Thats the thing - with my work schedule previously I just had to do 80 hrs in 2 weeks and it was super lenient - now its 40 hrs a week (can't do 36/44 or anything like that) - so I dropped down to 0.9 (36/week or 3 12hr shiftS) - which would mean the sitters 2 days every other week, and none the other weeks, so like 4 days a month.... now with his new job, it's 3 days EVERY week - and both girls every other week - so it's going to cost a lot more, and I'm not sure his income will cover it, not to mention the decrease in my income and increase in his gas consumption... I guess we just have to play it by ear... at least our sitter is relatively cheap and is willing to bathe SD and essentially have her in bed/ready for bed (and she'll deal with BM and CD for the new baby, so I won't complain (I bought her a stash of RaR for us to take back and forth for easy changes, lol). AND I forgot to mention he's off every weekend and major holiday.... ugh. I just feel so selfish for things wanting to change - but maybe once baby is here it'll all ease up. (I've never had a newborn before so I'm soo nervous already with everything).
Nesties knew we were having a boy before my MIL/FIL. They were both at work and their cell was off so we couldn't even send a text. DH knowing how impatient I am (& my friends are
) let me tell the whole world 
ETA: I'm SO behind on laundry that I really should work on it this weekend. I know if I can get it caught up again, I'll do better for a while but it's getting all caught up (cleaned, folded, put away) that's the hard part. I need to get my act together before the baby gets here or I don't know how I'll keep up with CD laundry.
Miles (6 year old Maine C00n mix), Boots (5 year old Lab mix), Darla (4 year old GSD/Collie mix), Frankie (1.5 year old DSH mix), Peanut (15 months old - 09/11), and Bean (arriving Feb 2013).
I live in Utah.
Utah = Lots of mormons. DUH.
I am mormon but don't practice.
I am so sick and friggin tired of people who LIVE in UTAH complaining about mormons
You are an adult. If you don't like you life. Fix it. It isn't the state you live in, it's YOU. GAAH.
Eli self-weaned. I'm feeling guilty about weaning Evan in a major way. In some ways I feel like I should start back up when we get back from our trip but in some ways I'm ready to be done. I'm at a loss for what's right to do for him/us.
I'm also still feeling so guilty for leaving Evan to go to this wedding for 3 days. I kinda feel like I should feel worse about lleaving Eli but I'm relatively confident that he'll be just fine having fun with my mom.
I've never felt mom guilt like this.
Big E (6) & Little E (2.5)
My dad has cancer and my mom was super rude when our neighbor whom I talk to on a regular basis and played with her kids as a child and my son plays with her grandson (so known for over 20yrs) said she was sorry to hear about my dad. My mom infront of the woman said that she didnt want people to know and had only told family. The poor woman was so embarrassed and probably had her feelings hurt. I am MAD at my mom for never saying she wanted only family to know.
I mean if someone I have known my whole life asks how I am doing and I tell her stressed out. She is going to ask why. If my mom wants to set ground rules then she needed to speak up when this started.. not verbally smack us in the face like that.
I will suck it up though, because my dad is ill and has lots of appointments to go to. He will start chemo next week, and all this stress is not good for my mom who has outlived the doctors guess on her max years after her heart surgeries/stint surgeries.
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