Ok Ladies, I know many of us are getting cranky in our last few weeks. Even for those that aren't in their last few weeks and want to vent... Let it go!
This is really petty. SO was trying to be supportive I think, but I felt like it was a guilt trip. Last night he looks at me and says "I'm really ready for her to get here. I want my drinking buddy back, my sex buddy back" Now, mind you its not like we are huge drinkers, and I know what he meant. Now that the weather is nice he wants to sit on the deck and have a beer with me while we unwind from the day like we use to. And the sex thing? Excuse me? I have been following you around like a b!tch in heat for MONTHS and you want nothing to do with me!! So now I feel guilty that I have been a boring partner......grrrrr He is entitled to be "over it" too. But, geez. I want my body back, I want my bladder back, I want to sleep, I want to be able to sit comfortably, I want to be able to bend over, walk....the list goes on and on.
My DH has been extremely supportive this pregnancy, BUT the other day he looks at me out of the blue and says, "Your boobs are getting smaller." Ummmmm......trust me they aren't. My bras hurt me unless they are the sports bras. It's called a baby growing. It's all in proportion!
It is probably WAY too early for me to be so cranky...but I am anyway! I still have 10 more weeks, but I am SO over my swelling! I can't wear anything but flip-flops, can't bend my fingers in the morning, had to ditch my rings, have to wear wrist splints at night, and just plain feel huge. I need to clean my house, but my hands go numb when I keep them in any position for a certain period of time. I'm not really sure how I will survive the next ten weeks, especially since it is now getting up to 90 in the late afternoons...UGH!!
oh gawd since my last MD apppointment I don't know what happened to me. I had only gained 10 lbs and now I have somehow gained about 5-8 since my last visit on May 6th. I really thought my scale was broken. That really pissed me off because I haven't pigged out at all and realized it must be from all the swelling or think that. Ugh, so lazy and have growth US today.
I can relate to KimB in this confession. I miss my life with my DH that was the fun party, choosing premium wine and sipping all night with great friends. Now I'm the prego one who'll "Just have water thank you"! Arrgggg. My Fri. wine was wonderful. Soon enough I suppose. On a different note...I feel like a fat-ass. I have always worked out and kept in good shape. Now, I'm a balloon and I'm only 15 weeks along. By 35+ weeks I'm gonna' look like a blob. I hate this part of pregnancy. Why do I care so much? But I do. I hate rejection and the comments I get about being so big. I need to find a way to deal with it but it just SUCKS. I'm already in Large maternity clothes....I will probably have to go to XXL at Target (Booooo)! And...sleeping on my side is so irritating. I miss tummy sleeping. Ok...I feel better. Happy Friday??
with the sun starting to come out (which is rare in Seattle - it's been a looong winter), I'm really missing riding my motorcycle. It's easy, convinient, free parking, HOV lanes....and it makes my brain feel GOOD!! it's therapy for me in a way.
And I'm really having a hard time NOT going for a ride. I really really really want to. I've talked myself into and out of it 12 times a day...
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Not sure why I said this to my SO, but I said, I hope you're appreciative for what I'm going through to have this baby, and his response was, men go through the same thing, it all equals out. I gave him this look like he had three heads. I said, remind me of that when I'm spread eagle trying to push this kid out, and while you're sleeping comfortably through the night and I have to get up to use the bathroom several times and not get comfortable. Oh yeah, and did I mention the distortion of my body.
Equals out...whatever. He realized his comment pissed me off and said, I guess you have a point, but I know he didn't really mean it.
Equals out...whatever. He realized his comment pissed me off and said, I guess you have a point, but I know he didn't really mean it.
For the next couple nights, when you're in the bathroom in the middle of the night, call out his name, loudly and with just enough panic....after a couple nights of this, have a conversation about 'what he's going through'
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Equals out...whatever. He realized his comment pissed me off and said, I guess you have a point, but I know he didn't really mean it.
For the next couple nights, when you're in the bathroom in the middle of the night, call out his name, loudly and with just enough panic....after a couple nights of this, have a conversation about 'what he's going through'
I second this
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I hate hate hate my mother and being reminded of motherhood through pregnancy has made me love myself more and hate her more. I hate when people assume I dislike her because of petty or stupid reasons and tell me to try.
I hate feeling like a bad mom because I can't help my daughter with special needs. She's 17 and doesn't want to be with us.. I can't help her.
I hate being judged for things I've already judged myself for way more harshly.
I hate that my convertible still is being fixed and I have a few more days to wait before I can feel the wind properly again.
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with the sun starting to come out (which is rare in Seattle - it's been a looong winter), I'm really missing riding my motorcycle. It's easy, convinient, free parking, HOV lanes....and it makes my brain feel GOOD!! it's therapy for me in a way.
And I'm really having a hard time NOT going for a ride. I really really really want to. I've talked myself into and out of it 12 times a day...
My convertible does the same for me. I understand about the therapy. It's not the same as a bike but it's damn nice I'd give you a ride if you weren't a billion miles away AND it was done being fixed
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Okay, since the beginning of this pregnancy I have not been in the mood for sex at all. I think we had sex like 6 times. DH has been pretty supportive. So this week all of sudden I just want to jump his bones all the time. Now he is like, no I don't want to do anything to hurt my son. Really??? -Your a doctor for crying out loud! I think he just freaking out now that I look pregnant. So yesterday, I had to go to the ER. It turned out to be just a bad case of gas. Anyway, I am not feeling good needless to say Sexy at all. I go to bed exhausted from my ordeal and DH says to me, "Do you want to have a quickie?" I looked at him as if he was a mental patient. R - U Kidding me? I turned around and farted! That was the end of that discussion. Good night!
Okay, since the beginning of this pregnancy I have not been in the mood for sex at all. I think we had sex like 6 times. DH has been pretty supportive. So this week all of sudden I just want to jump his bones all the time. Now he is like, no I don't want to do anything to hurt my son. Really??? -Your a doctor for crying out loud! I think he just freaking out now that I look pregnant. So yesterday, I had to go to the ER. It turned out to be just a bad case of gas. Anyway, I am not feeling good needless to say Sexy at all. I go to bed exhausted from my ordeal and DH says to me, "Do you want to have a quickie?" I looked at him as if he was a mental patient. R - U Kidding me? I turned around and farted! That was the end of that discussion. Good night!
Thanks for the laugh, your a good sport! Hang in there. I know they "think" they will hurt the baby, too funny because there isn't a penis big enough to hurt a baby in womb.
1. I was so frustrated with work, my DH, feeling uncomfortable and people in general that I ate almost an entire pint of Hagen Daaz Chocolate Chocolate Chip Ice Cream earlier this week..and if my day doesn't get any better I may do it again tonight.
2. Yes, I am due in August. No I am not having twins. Yes I know it will be hot and No it is not your business how much weight I have gained.
3. If you are not a friend or close family member..STOP touching my stomach!!!!
My convertible does the same for me. I understand about the therapy. It's not the same as a bike but it's damn nice I'd give you a ride if you weren't a billion miles away AND it was done being fixed
I have a couple of convertibles (mustang and VW cabriolet) but it's not the same - there's something about the concentration on the bike and the focus it takes to ride it...it's just good for me! But the sunshine is good and I have to focus on that! (Plus I don't think I FIT on the motorcycle anymore - at least that's what I keep telling myself)
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Okay, since the beginning of this pregnancy I have not been in the mood for sex at all. I think we had sex like 6 times. DH has been pretty supportive. So this week all of sudden I just want to jump his bones all the time. Now he is like, no I don't want to do anything to hurt my son. Really??? -Your a doctor for crying out loud! I think he just freaking out now that I look pregnant. So yesterday, I had to go to the ER. It turned out to be just a bad case of gas. Anyway, I am not feeling good needless to say Sexy at all. I go to bed exhausted from my ordeal and DH says to me, "Do you want to have a quickie?" I looked at him as if he was a mental patient. R - U Kidding me? I turned around and farted! That was the end of that discussion. Good night!
Thanks for the laugh, your a good sport! Hang in there. I know they "think" they will hurt the baby, too funny because there isn't a penis big enough to hurt a baby in womb.
Equals out...whatever. He realized his comment pissed me off and said, I guess you have a point, but I know he didn't really mean it.
For the next couple nights, when you're in the bathroom in the middle of the night, call out his name, loudly and with just enough panic....after a couple nights of this, have a conversation about 'what he's going through'
I second this
I'm so doing this tonight!
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Today. I'm just grumpy & hating everybody & everything
DH's going to a funeral dismissal tomorrow in Mississippi. It's the funeral of a former colleague's, that he only worked a year with, mother, whom he's never met!
I really don't know why this bothers me so much, wait, yes, I do .. I finally got a fire lit after his ass to get/finish things done around the house! He started laying the mulch we brought LAST summer this past weekend & ran out, so the front yard is half finish. Our bedroom, as well as the nursery needs to painted in order for me to start setting things up for the LO.
My oldest is coming home from school tomorrow for the summer & while I can't wait to see her .. I just don't miss having her in the house! Don't get me wrong she's a sweetheart, but she'll be another presence in the house .. the house where I just want to sleep all day in & delegate to DH on what to do next!
*le sigh*
Edit: another thing .. as much as I want this LO here .. I don't want to share him with my MiL .. I feel like she's stealing my thunder!
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I have a couple of convertibles (mustang and VW cabriolet) but it's not the same - there's something about the concentration on the bike and the focus it takes to ride it...it's just good for me! But the sunshine is good and I have to focus on that! (Plus I don't think I FIT on the motorcycle anymore - at least that's what I keep telling myself)
Mine is a 1990 bmw e30... love that car. I couldn't stick with bikes due to stenosis in my spine, I tried to start riding but the one I loved (Ninja 250) was too hard on my back unfortunately, The car is a wonderful compromise for my commute. 1 1/2 -2 hrs. I just don't care and the world shuts off. Just me and my messy hair and my music. I am currently driving a gmc safari van... LMAO sometimes I open both windows and pretend my car's fixed.
Keep telling yourself that you can't fit... it's the only lie that'll keep you off it!
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Equals out...whatever. He realized his comment pissed me off and said, I guess you have a point, but I know he didn't really mean it.
For the next couple nights, when you're in the bathroom in the middle of the night, call out his name, loudly and with just enough panic....after a couple nights of this, have a conversation about 'what he's going through'
I second this
I'm so doing this tonight!
He left for a business trip but when he comes back next week, he's so getting it! Sometimes he wakes up when I use the bathroom and is like, not again (that I have to use the bathroom), I just want to pee on him!
Okay, since the beginning of this pregnancy I have not been in the mood for sex at all. I think we had sex like 6 times. DH has been pretty supportive. So this week all of sudden I just want to jump his bones all the time. Now he is like, no I don't want to do anything to hurt my son. Really??? -Your a doctor for crying out loud! I think he just freaking out now that I look pregnant. So yesterday, I had to go to the ER. It turned out to be just a bad case of gas. Anyway, I am not feeling good needless to say Sexy at all. I go to bed exhausted from my ordeal and DH says to me, "Do you want to have a quickie?" I looked at him as if he was a mental patient. R - U Kidding me? I turned around and farted! That was the end of that discussion. Good night!
Too funn!!! Oh this was such a good FFFC and I don't usually participate.
with the sun starting to come out (which is rare in Seattle - it's been a looong winter), I'm really missing riding my motorcycle. It's easy, convinient, free parking, HOV lanes....and it makes my brain feel GOOD!! it's therapy for me in a way.
And I'm really having a hard time NOT going for a ride. I really really really want to. I've talked myself into and out of it 12 times a day...
I think it's so cool that you ride. My two sisters ride and look so hot on a bike. My son keeps saying he's gonna get a bike and it scares the shyt out of me. He's such a dare devil and I'm worried he would get hurt. I would love to ride with a responsible person but SO is just as scared as me. LOL!
Equals out...whatever. He realized his comment pissed me off and said, I guess you have a point, but I know he didn't really mean it.
For the next couple nights, when you're in the bathroom in the middle of the night, call out his name, loudly and with just enough panic....after a couple nights of this, have a conversation about 'what he's going through'
I second this
I'm so doing this tonight!
He left for a business trip but when he comes back next week, he's so getting it! Sometimes he wakes up when I use the bathroom and is like, not again (that I have to use the bathroom), I just want to pee on him!
Exactly!!!! I am like to DH "I am so sorry Your Majesty"! Did not mean to interrupt your sleep! Really?? Next time I should just roll over and pee on His Majesty! Oy Vey he so annoying sometimes!! Wow, did really realize how worked up I am.. Thanks Ladies for giving me a place to vent.
I am already starting to get plump at only 9 damn weeks....not something I am used to. Hating the size of my butt. But I am usually ok in the morning and I get up and move on very easily to just go to work. I use my brain to block the over whelming desire to vomit on the idiot that decides to sit halfway on my lap while riding the damn subway to midtown from the Bronx. But today was another issue all together.
Mind you I have only been back in NYC since December and I have not seen a lot of people I knew from 5 years ago....but today.....oh lord....today I finally see one that I HATED (and I really do mean this) she was a girl that had a thing for my hubby for over 10 years but never had the guts to say anything to him about wanting to be with him but would always find a way to comment when he would talk about me being "the one".
So there she is....staring....I knew it was her....and she had the audacity to come over as fat as she has gotten and said in a catty a$$ tone...."well at least I dont have to feel bad for gaining so much weight now"
My reply was as quick as I can ever remember coming back at another person was "Oh ...well i'm carrying "blah's" child...what's your excuse??"
Needless to say her mouth dropped open and she walked away.
As if I need anyone telling me how fat I look after always being a little thing in their eyes. Not to mention the constant desire to projectile vomit on them when they snort when I take a seat on a subway and not surrender my seat to a child of 11 years old.
Okay. So. This is going to be a little obnoxious, but bear with me.
Food and I have a really healthy, friendly relationship, and always have had. I cook, I love fresh ingredients, organic when possible, from scratch most of the time. I don't eat bags of chips, deep-fried twinkies, or fast food. I have never counted calories, or carbs, or done a fad diet. I feel like I am one of maybe 12 girls in the country who never had an eating disorder. If I want a treat, whether sweet or salty, I frequently make it myself, and I never overdo it or obsess. I'm no longer the athlete I was 15 years ago, but I am moderately active, walk between 2 and 5 miles daily, and do yoga 4-5 times a week.
I failed my one-hour glucose screen, and am waiting on the results of the three-hour.
I am terrified that I am going to have to start counting carbs, or sugar, or whatever. I know, cry me a river, but seriously! I have never done anything like that, and the thought is actually repugnant to me! Am I going to have to sit and figure out the carb count of all the ingredients every time I make something? I don't use recipes most of the time, or measure! GNAH!
My reply was as quick as I can ever remember coming back at another person was "Oh ...well i'm carrying "blah's" child...what's your excuse??"
Needless to say her mouth dropped open and she walked away.
As if I need anyone telling me how fat I look after always being a little thing in their eyes. Not to mention the constant desire to projectile vomit on them when they snort when I take a seat on a subway and not surrender my seat to a child of 11 years old.
Go you! That's great, you waited a long time to tell her off! Keep sitting, you'll be amazed when you are really showing and people DON'T give you a seat.
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Well my freaking confession is that I started this thread at 7:30 this morning with the intention of adding my own post and it's now 4 PM before I've had two seconds to myself.
I'm 9 months pregnant and yet the people at work can't seem to get the concept that I need to TAKE IT EASY. Is the concept of NOT schedule meetings during the lunch hour so difficult? If you see my calendar booked back to back in meetings, maybe rethink the time or get by without me there?
I told a couple of people today that we're scheduling my induction on Monday and I think the real sense of dread finally hit them because you could hear them moan slightly to themselves in a distinct "oh *** what are we going to do it's really happening" manner.
You have no freaking idea how much I HATE having to sit on the toilet with a phone and headset in hand with the phone on MUTE peeing because nobody gave the pregnant woman enough time between meetings for bathroom breaks.
One is that I wish my MIL would go on and put my FIL in a nursing home where he belongs. He has vascular dementia and it's getting pretty bad. For example, she said she often has found him peeing in the tub even after she shows him where the toilet is. He's having difficulty with all of his ADL's (activities of daily living), has balance issues due to the repeated strokes (and has fallen so bad recently that he required 5 staples to the back of his head) AND he often has paranoia issues that center around her and I fear for her safety.
And then I feel bad for wanting that because I know if he is in a NH before the baby comes she can come actually be helpful for that time period. Whereas if he isn't, and she insists on dragging him 400 miles (one way) to come be here when the baby is born, I will have to insist that the kids not be left alone with them. It's just too much for her as my FIL loses any touch he has left with reality in present time when they come here.
And on top of that, my mom has Alzheimer's. I'm so f'ing tired of dementia. It sucks to have this reality in the midst of making and raising babies.
Sorry... today has been tough.
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I don't even know who to respond to first!! This was a GREAT thread today. I mean like, Tony the Tiger great!! We are a bunch of cranky pants and I LOVE IT!!!!! I am so going to fart on SO tonight!!!!! For all of us!!
I agree....I just want to HUGS ALL OF YOU! Pregnancy can be wonderful and so frustrating all at the same time. Society has it's own expectations about how we "should be" (e.g. the comments about not giving us enough time to do our job properly when we're about ready to pop, or judging our size immediately and making lewd comments). I'm so glad we have such a supportive community. Whether we're struggling with our screenings, our in-laws (out-laws?), SO's, DH's, children or friends...it's nice to know that we can relate to one another and feel a bit normalized for this time of amazing miracles (but also swollen ankles, and flabby butts)! YAY FOR ALL OF US!!!
Well my freaking confession is that I started this thread at 7:30 this morning with the intention of adding my own post and it's now 4 PM before I've had two seconds to myself.
I'm 9 months pregnant and yet the people at work can't seem to get the concept that I need to TAKE IT EASY. Is the concept of NOT schedule meetings during the lunch hour so difficult? If you see my calendar booked back to back in meetings, maybe rethink the time or get by without me there?
I told a couple of people today that we're scheduling my induction on Monday and I think the real sense of dread finally hit them because you could hear them moan slightly to themselves in a distinct "oh *** what are we going to do it's really happening" manner.
You have no freaking idea how much I HATE having to sit on the toilet with a phone and headset in hand with the phone on MUTE peeing because nobody gave the pregnant woman enough time between meetings for bathroom breaks.
I cannot wait to start maternity leave.
My work sucks too. The place is full of double standards. I get bitched at over the most ridiculously trivial crap, while my lazy coworker with the attitude does whatever he wants, including personal cell phone conversations right in front of patients, and NOTHING happens to him.
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It is probably WAY too early for me to be so cranky...but I am anyway! I still have 10 more weeks, but I am SO over my swelling! I can't wear anything but flip-flops, can't bend my fingers in the morning, had to ditch my rings, have to wear wrist splints at night, and just plain feel huge. I need to clean my house, but my hands go numb when I keep them in any position for a certain period of time. I'm not really sure how I will survive the next ten weeks, especially since it is now getting up to 90 in the late afternoons...UGH!!
Thanks for letting me vent!!
oh gawd since my last MD apppointment I don't know what happened to me. I had only gained 10 lbs and now I have somehow gained about 5-8 since my last visit on May 6th. I really thought my scale was broken. That really pissed me off because I haven't pigged out at all and realized it must be from all the swelling or think that. Ugh, so lazy and have growth US today.
with the sun starting to come out (which is rare in Seattle - it's been a looong winter), I'm really missing riding my motorcycle. It's easy, convinient, free parking, HOV lanes....and it makes my brain feel GOOD!! it's therapy for me in a way.
And I'm really having a hard time NOT going for a ride. I really really really want to. I've talked myself into and out of it 12 times a day...
Not sure why I said this to my SO, but I said, I hope you're appreciative for what I'm going through to have this baby, and his response was, men go through the same thing, it all equals out. I gave him this look like he had three heads. I said, remind me of that when I'm spread eagle trying to push this kid out, and while you're sleeping comfortably through the night and I have to get up to use the bathroom several times and not get comfortable. Oh yeah, and did I mention the distortion of my body.
Equals out...whatever. He realized his comment pissed me off and said, I guess you have a point, but I know he didn't really mean it.
For the next couple nights, when you're in the bathroom in the middle of the night, call out his name, loudly and with just enough panic....after a couple nights of this, have a conversation about 'what he's going through'
I second this
My confession:
I hate hate hate my mother and being reminded of motherhood through pregnancy has made me love myself more and hate her more. I hate when people assume I dislike her because of petty or stupid reasons and tell me to try.
I hate feeling like a bad mom because I can't help my daughter with special needs. She's 17 and doesn't want to be with us.. I can't help her.
I hate being judged for things I've already judged myself for way more harshly.
I hate that my convertible still is being fixed and I have a few more days to wait before I can feel the wind properly again.
My convertible does the same for me. I understand about the therapy. It's not the same as a bike but it's damn nice
I'd give you a ride if you weren't a billion miles away AND it was done being fixed
Thanks for the laugh, your a good sport! Hang in there. I know they "think" they will hurt the baby, too funny because there isn't a penis big enough to hurt a baby in womb.
1. I was so frustrated with work, my DH, feeling uncomfortable and people in general that I ate almost an entire pint of Hagen Daaz Chocolate Chocolate Chip Ice Cream earlier this week..and if my day doesn't get any better I may do it again tonight.
2. Yes, I am due in August. No I am not having twins. Yes I know it will be hot and No it is not your business how much weight I have gained.
3. If you are not a friend or close family member..STOP touching my stomach!!!!
I have a couple of convertibles (mustang and VW cabriolet) but it's not the same - there's something about the concentration on the bike and the focus it takes to ride it...it's just good for me! But the sunshine is good and I have to focus on that! (Plus I don't think I FIT on the motorcycle anymore - at least that's what I keep telling myself)
I know!! Exactly!! LOL!!!!
I'm so doing this tonight!
Today. I'm just grumpy & hating everybody & everything
DH's going to a funeral dismissal tomorrow in Mississippi. It's the funeral of a former colleague's, that he only worked a year with, mother, whom he's never met!
I really don't know why this bothers me so much, wait, yes, I do .. I finally got a fire lit after his ass to get/finish things done around the house! He started laying the mulch we brought LAST summer this past weekend & ran out, so the front yard is half finish. Our bedroom, as well as the nursery needs to painted in order for me to start setting things up for the LO.
My oldest is coming home from school tomorrow for the summer & while I can't wait to see her .. I just don't miss having her in the house! Don't get me wrong she's a sweetheart, but she'll be another presence in the house .. the house where I just want to sleep all day in & delegate to DH on what to do next!
*le sigh*
Edit: another thing .. as much as I want this LO here .. I don't want to share him with my MiL .. I feel like she's stealing my thunder!
Mine is a 1990 bmw e30... love that car. I couldn't stick with bikes due to stenosis in my spine, I tried to start riding but the one I loved (Ninja 250) was too hard on my back unfortunately, The car is a wonderful compromise for my commute. 1 1/2 -2 hrs. I just don't care and the world shuts off. Just me and my messy hair and my music. I am currently driving a gmc safari van... LMAO sometimes I open both windows and pretend my car's fixed.
Keep telling yourself that you can't fit... it's the only lie that'll keep you off it!
He left for a business trip but when he comes back next week, he's so getting it! Sometimes he wakes up when I use the bathroom and is like, not again (that I have to use the bathroom), I just want to pee on him!
Too funn!!! Oh this was such a good FFFC and I don't usually participate.
I think it's so cool that you ride. My two sisters ride and look so hot on a bike. My son keeps saying he's gonna get a bike and it scares the shyt out of me. He's such a dare devil and I'm worried he would get hurt. I would love to ride with a responsible person but SO is just as scared as me. LOL!
Exactly!!!! I am like to DH "I am so sorry Your Majesty"! Did not mean to interrupt your sleep! Really?? Next time I should just roll over and pee on His Majesty! Oy Vey he so annoying sometimes!! Wow, did really realize how worked up I am.. Thanks Ladies for giving me a place to vent.
I am already starting to get plump at only 9 damn weeks....not something I am used to. Hating the size of my butt. But I am usually ok in the morning and I get up and move on very easily to just go to work. I use my brain to block the over whelming desire to vomit on the idiot that decides to sit halfway on my lap while riding the damn subway to midtown from the Bronx. But today was another issue all together.
Mind you I have only been back in NYC since December and I have not seen a lot of people I knew from 5 years ago....but today.....oh lord....today I finally see one that I HATED (and I really do mean this) she was a girl that had a thing for my hubby for over 10 years but never had the guts to say anything to him about wanting to be with him but would always find a way to comment when he would talk about me being "the one".
So there she is....staring....I knew it was her....and she had the audacity to come over as fat as she has gotten and said in a catty a$$ tone...."well at least I dont have to feel bad for gaining so much weight now"
My reply was as quick as I can ever remember coming back at another person was "Oh ...well i'm carrying "blah's" child...what's your excuse??"
Needless to say her mouth dropped open and she walked away.
As if I need anyone telling me how fat I look after always being a little thing in their eyes. Not to mention the constant desire to projectile vomit on them when they snort when I take a seat on a subway and not surrender my seat to a child of 11 years old.
Okay. So. This is going to be a little obnoxious, but bear with me.
Food and I have a really healthy, friendly relationship, and always have had. I cook, I love fresh ingredients, organic when possible, from scratch most of the time. I don't eat bags of chips, deep-fried twinkies, or fast food. I have never counted calories, or carbs, or done a fad diet. I feel like I am one of maybe 12 girls in the country who never had an eating disorder. If I want a treat, whether sweet or salty, I frequently make it myself, and I never overdo it or obsess. I'm no longer the athlete I was 15 years ago, but I am moderately active, walk between 2 and 5 miles daily, and do yoga 4-5 times a week.
I failed my one-hour glucose screen, and am waiting on the results of the three-hour.
I am terrified that I am going to have to start counting carbs, or sugar, or whatever. I know, cry me a river, but seriously! I have never done anything like that, and the thought is actually repugnant to me! Am I going to have to sit and figure out the carb count of all the ingredients every time I make something? I don't use recipes most of the time, or measure! GNAH!
Whew. Thanks for listening.
Go you! That's great, you waited a long time to tell her off! Keep sitting, you'll be amazed when you are really showing and people DON'T give you a seat.
Well my freaking confession is that I started this thread at 7:30 this morning with the intention of adding my own post and it's now 4 PM before I've had two seconds to myself.
I'm 9 months pregnant and yet the people at work can't seem to get the concept that I need to TAKE IT EASY. Is the concept of NOT schedule meetings during the lunch hour so difficult? If you see my calendar booked back to back in meetings, maybe rethink the time or get by without me there?
I told a couple of people today that we're scheduling my induction on Monday and I think the real sense of dread finally hit them because you could hear them moan slightly to themselves in a distinct "oh *** what are we going to do it's really happening" manner.
You have no freaking idea how much I HATE having to sit on the toilet with a phone and headset in hand with the phone on MUTE peeing because nobody gave the pregnant woman enough time between meetings for bathroom breaks.
I cannot wait to start maternity leave.
One is that I wish my MIL would go on and put my FIL in a nursing home where he belongs. He has vascular dementia and it's getting pretty bad. For example, she said she often has found him peeing in the tub even after she shows him where the toilet is. He's having difficulty with all of his ADL's (activities of daily living), has balance issues due to the repeated strokes (and has fallen so bad recently that he required 5 staples to the back of his head) AND he often has paranoia issues that center around her and I fear for her safety.
And then I feel bad for wanting that because I know if he is in a NH before the baby comes she can come actually be helpful for that time period. Whereas if he isn't, and she insists on dragging him 400 miles (one way) to come be here when the baby is born, I will have to insist that the kids not be left alone with them. It's just too much for her as my FIL loses any touch he has left with reality in present time when they come here.
And on top of that, my mom has Alzheimer's. I'm so f'ing tired of dementia. It sucks to have this reality in the midst of making and raising babies.
Sorry... today has been tough.
***HUGS***
sorry you're going through all of this.