Still here...

vtmezzo · May 2011

At my appointment on Monday they were having a hard time checking me and informed me that my cervix is "high". This would explain why nobody is ever really able to judge any progress on me - they just can't reach it! They sent me over to the hospital for NST and everything looked perfect, but my doctor took that opportunity to try to talk me out of postponing my c-section and remind me of all of the risks of going beyond 41 weeks. Which I'm pretty much over hearing, I'm aware of them, and if the baby were showing any signs of distress, I'd be on the table in 5 minutes. I know they just want me done with so they can mark off one more healthy baby and mom, but I'm not ready to give in yet.

Here's the TMI - been losing my mucous plug since Monday mid-day and had contractions all afternoon/evening Monday, which went away when I went to bed. Had the same thing yesterday afternoon/evening, and then they went away last night. I'm just praying I'm not one of those people who has a 2 week prodromal labor, since they won't give me that kind of time. I'm just feeling emotionally exhausted at this point - if I didn't have this "deadline" looming, I'd be fine just relaxing and letting things take their course, but I just feel desperate. I need these contractions to come back and stay put!!

Thanks for listening. Hope all the other mamas to be are well!