NBR, but if you can spare some prayers for my Gram, I would appreciate it. She will be 86 on Tuesday and was admitted to the hospital this morning with lower right lobe pneumonia and chest pains.
She is getting good care, but she wants to die and has wanted to for a while. She and I had a conversation about this last year and said our... goodbyes but it is still really hard. I am the oldest grandchild, the closest to her, and even lived with her for about 12 years. She talks all the time about how she wants to die and brought her DNR to the hospital.
I was really hoping she could be here to meet the Baby, but now I am not sure this will happen. I don't want to hold her here if she is unhappy and in so much pain, but... It's just a hard time. I guess I am asking for prayer for me, too, so I am able to let her go with grace if it is time and that I can keep stress low for the Baby. If we have a girl, it was never any question that we will name her Elli after Gram.
Thanks for reading this.
Re: NBR: prayer request
My thoughts and prayers are being sent to you and your Gram!
(((hugs))) I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through right now. My grandma raised me until I was 9 years old and she moved here to the US. I'm the closest grandchild to her also and we actually joke that I'm her youngest daughter instead of my aunt who is about 12 years older than me. I can almost imagine how heartbreaking it is to feel like you're on the verge of losing her. My heart breaks reading your post.
I can only pray that God gives you the strength to face whatever is to come from all this. Know and remember that He only gives you what He thinks you're capable of handling, however difficult or even impossible it may appear on the outside. There's always a plan and He's always in control. I've found that believing this has been the only way I can cope during the most trying times in my life. I pray that you stay strong for you and your little and the family you're starting!