TTC After a Loss

*:*:*Remembering Our Sapphire Sweethearts*:*:*

This check-in is for women who had September 2011 EDDs.  We want to stick together during such a tough time.Here is the code for the badge.  Just make sure to take the * out that is after the first <<*a href="https://s1091.photobucket.com/albums/i390/tlneff0108/?action=view?t=September-Badge.png" target="_blank"><img src="https://i1091.photobucket.com/albums/i390/tlneff0108/September-Badge.png" border="0" alt="Photobucket"></a> Please feel free to post an update on yourself (TTCAL related or not) and there is a GTKY question below.GTKY:  If you had to choose three songs to be on the soundtrack of a movie of your life, what would they be? 

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Justin + Laura 10.18.08
TTC #1 09.10/Dx PCOS 12.10/BFP #1 12.29.10/EDD 9.10.11/Missed m/c 2.3.11/D&C 2.15.11
“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”-Kahlil Gibran
Cycle #1 4.2.11 + Clomid = BFN/Cycle #2 5.9.11 + Clomid + Trigger Shot = TWINS! 
Walter Allen and Eleanor Joan 1.15.12
Another baby on the way! 8.25.14


Re: *:*:*Remembering Our Sapphire Sweethearts*:*:*

  • Update: My first cycle with Clomid was a bust.  Those BFNs were heartbreaking.  This week has been extremely rough with BFNs+ Mother?s Day coming up + I just learned one of my pg co-workers is due on9.7.11 + my other pg co-worker is due 8.31.11 + seeing their baby bellies is turning into a constant reminder of what I was to have.  I got a progesterone shot yesterday, so hopefully my period will be here within the next couple days?

     

    On a more positive note, I made an appointment with a grief counselor for next Saturday.  I have been losing hope, becoming super bitter, and starting to isolate myself.  Those are all things opposite of my personality and life before the loss.  It hasn?t gotten better, so I decided to ask for help.

     

    GTKY: For the sad moments, Ripple by Grateful Dead.  For the happy moments, Dog Days are Over by Florence and the Machine.  For when I am dancing, Yeah! by Usher.  (I know I said three, but for romantic times I would choose Like Red on a Rose by Alan Jackson.)

     

    Edited for spelling and spacing...3x. :)  Make that 4x.  I just re-read this and the spacing is so weird!!  I copied and pasted from Word because I knew I was writing a novel. :)  Hope I fixed everything...


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    Justin + Laura 10.18.08
    TTC #1 09.10/Dx PCOS 12.10/BFP #1 12.29.10/EDD 9.10.11/Missed m/c 2.3.11/D&C 2.15.11
    “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”-Kahlil Gibran
    Cycle #1 4.2.11 + Clomid = BFN/Cycle #2 5.9.11 + Clomid + Trigger Shot = TWINS! 
    Walter Allen and Eleanor Joan 1.15.12
    Another baby on the way! 8.25.14


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  • I have no real update.  Just waiting patiently for time to pass so I can start TTC again.

    QOTD: This is thrown together pretty quickly, so it's what's in my head right now.  The More I Drink - Blake Shelton,  I Won't Let Go - Rascall Flatts,  Little Miss - Sugarland

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  • Update:  We are TTC this cycle (first try since our loss) I am currently waiting to O (using OPK's for the first time) and I last night and this am starting getting a very faint line...I was thinking I would O in the next 4-5 days...so maybe it'll be a little sooner!!

    GTKY: Eeeeks this is a toughy for me..

    *Sara Evans - Stronger / *U2 - Beautiful Day / *Jason Mraz - You and I

     

    BFP #2 7/20/11 ** EDD: 3/28/12: IT'S A BOY!
    BFP #1 12/30/10 ** EDD: 9/6/11** H/B stopped at 10w 6d conf on 2/22/11 ** D&C 2/24/11.
    Congrats to my Labor Buddy LoriJ11, baby Elise born 2/24/12
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  • Laura Good luck on Saturday.

    Update  Nothing new to report.  Last cycle was a bust and I am now on CD7.

    GTKY: "Purple Rain" by Prince, "Wish You Were Here" Pink Floyd and "Whiskey Lullaby" by Allison Krauss/Brad Paisley.

  • imageroadstar:

    Laura Good luck on Saturday.

    Update  Nothing new to report.  Last cycle was a bust and I am now on CD7.

    GTKY: "Purple Rain" by Prince, "Wish You Were Here" Pink Floyd and "Whiskey Lullaby" by Allison Krauss/Brad Paisley.

    Thanks.  I also love your song choice...especially Wish You Were Here.  So good!! 


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    Justin + Laura 10.18.08
    TTC #1 09.10/Dx PCOS 12.10/BFP #1 12.29.10/EDD 9.10.11/Missed m/c 2.3.11/D&C 2.15.11
    “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”-Kahlil Gibran
    Cycle #1 4.2.11 + Clomid = BFN/Cycle #2 5.9.11 + Clomid + Trigger Shot = TWINS! 
    Walter Allen and Eleanor Joan 1.15.12
    Another baby on the way! 8.25.14


  • imagewilliams4me:

    Update:  We are TTC this cycle (first try since our loss) I am currently waiting to O (using OPK's for the first time) and I last night and this am starting getting a very faint line...I was thinking I would O in the next 4-5 days...so maybe it'll be a little sooner!!

    GTKY: Eeeeks this is a toughy for me..

    *Sara Evans - Stronger / *U2 - Beautiful Day / *Jason Mraz - You and I

     

    Good choices!! 


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    Justin + Laura 10.18.08
    TTC #1 09.10/Dx PCOS 12.10/BFP #1 12.29.10/EDD 9.10.11/Missed m/c 2.3.11/D&C 2.15.11
    “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”-Kahlil Gibran
    Cycle #1 4.2.11 + Clomid = BFN/Cycle #2 5.9.11 + Clomid + Trigger Shot = TWINS! 
    Walter Allen and Eleanor Joan 1.15.12
    Another baby on the way! 8.25.14


  • imagejkfranklin:

    I have no real update.  Just waiting patiently for time to pass so I can start TTC again.

    QOTD: This is thrown together pretty quickly, so it's what's in my head right now.  The More I Drink - Blake Shelton,  I Won't Let Go - Rascall Flatts,  Little Miss - Sugarland

    I think the titles of all of those songs are perfect for you. :) (But I don't know any of the songs super well.)


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    Justin + Laura 10.18.08
    TTC #1 09.10/Dx PCOS 12.10/BFP #1 12.29.10/EDD 9.10.11/Missed m/c 2.3.11/D&C 2.15.11
    “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”-Kahlil Gibran
    Cycle #1 4.2.11 + Clomid = BFN/Cycle #2 5.9.11 + Clomid + Trigger Shot = TWINS! 
    Walter Allen and Eleanor Joan 1.15.12
    Another baby on the way! 8.25.14


  • This is a great post!

    We TTC'd last month, and BFN.  I think this cycle is annovulatory (see post above) and I am freaking out that something is wrong.  Currently on CD 41 and no O or AF in sight. 

    "We've only just begun" - The Carpenters

    "Save Tonight" - Eagle Eye Cherry

    "Babylon" - David Gray

    My Chart TTC Since Nov 2010 BFP 12.29.10, M/C 1.13.11 BFP#2 8/25/11 DD born 5/4/12
  • imagetweedle29:

    This is a great post!

    We TTC'd last month, and BFN.  I think this cycle is annovulatory (see post above) and I am freaking out that something is wrong.  Currently on CD 41 and no O or AF in sight. 

    "We've only just begun" - The Carpenters

    "Save Tonight" - Eagle Eye Cherry

    "Babylon" - David Gray

    Sorry to hear about an annovulatory cycle :( 

     I will now spend the rest of the day sing "We've Only Just Begun" in my head.

  • imageroadstar:
    imagetweedle29:

    This is a great post!

    We TTC'd last month, and BFN.  I think this cycle is annovulatory (see post above) and I am freaking out that something is wrong.  Currently on CD 41 and no O or AF in sight. 

    "We've only just begun" - The Carpenters

    "Save Tonight" - Eagle Eye Cherry

    "Babylon" - David Gray

    Sorry to hear about an annovulatory cycle :( 

     I will now spend the rest of the day sing "We've Only Just Begun" in my head.

    Ha! It's a good one!  Yes, this cycle sucks.  I'm ready to move on for sure!

    My Chart TTC Since Nov 2010 BFP 12.29.10, M/C 1.13.11 BFP#2 8/25/11 DD born 5/4/12
  • imagePetraStonegirl:

    Update: I've had a pretty grumpy week. AF's unwelcome appearance, attendant cramps, and lack of a BFP is getting to me more than I would like to admit. So, I've been trying to see the humor in everything, to keep my spirits up. (witness 'drunk kitty' in my siggy, only temporarily replacing our beloved sapphire badge)

    GTKY: I think there should be links for this...

    1) Over The Rainbow/What a Wonderful World (Medley)- Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C9b3_1CcXtY

    Both half's of the melody are songs that ring true to my life, combined with a deep and unseverable connection to the Pacific in all it's incantations.

     

    2) Joy- George Winston

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-B-zfmgSJc

    This song is so much a part of me, that on any given day, you could listen in to the thoughts in my head and you would hear this playing in the background. My DH and I recessed to this song after our wedding ceremony.

     

    3) The Sunscreen Song -Mary Schmich/Baz Luhrmann

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJew4fxHl1U

    In all, this one is the most self-explanatory. But, at the same time, these are lessons I must learn over and over again.

     

    You know? I was feeling pretty sorry for myself when I started writing this response. But, now that I've listened to these three songs in a row, I think I'm ready to face my day and smile. Much love to you all. 

    I love how one of your songs is completely instrumental while  another one is mostly someone talking. :) 

    I had never heard Joy by George Winston...beautiful and very fitting for recessing after your ceremony.   And I totally forgot about the Sunscreen Song...I definitely need to listen to that advice, too!!


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    Justin + Laura 10.18.08
    TTC #1 09.10/Dx PCOS 12.10/BFP #1 12.29.10/EDD 9.10.11/Missed m/c 2.3.11/D&C 2.15.11
    “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”-Kahlil Gibran
    Cycle #1 4.2.11 + Clomid = BFN/Cycle #2 5.9.11 + Clomid + Trigger Shot = TWINS! 
    Walter Allen and Eleanor Joan 1.15.12
    Another baby on the way! 8.25.14


  • I love your Sapphire Sweethearts badge. I had Sept 2010 EDD. Everytime I see it, I want to steal it. LOL
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BFP-2/4/10 EDD-9/27/10 M/C-2/11/10 7w3d D&C and Methotrexate-2/19/10
    BFP-11/21/10 M/C-11/25/10
    Clomid Cycle #1-BFN
    Clomid Cycle #2-BFP-1/18/2011 M/C-1/26/2011
    BFP-5/18/11 Riley arrived 2/3/12 8lbs6oz 21.5in
  • imagemandy6418:
    I love your Sapphire Sweethearts badge. I had Sept 2010 EDD. Everytime I see it, I want to steal it. LOL

    Steal away Smile It doesn't specify which year - go for it!

  • No updates for me, except that I'm just really discouraged about the TTA process. It seems like every hour I'm having to refer to my (nonexistent) list of reasons why we're TTA.

    GTKY: I know this is boring, but I really have no idea...

  • imagetiffany119:

    imagemandy6418:
    I love your Sapphire Sweethearts badge. I had Sept 2010 EDD. Everytime I see it, I want to steal it. LOL

    Steal away Smile It doesn't specify which year - go for it!

    Really?? Maybe I will. Thanks so much!!

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    BFP-2/4/10 EDD-9/27/10 M/C-2/11/10 7w3d D&C and Methotrexate-2/19/10
    BFP-11/21/10 M/C-11/25/10
    Clomid Cycle #1-BFN
    Clomid Cycle #2-BFP-1/18/2011 M/C-1/26/2011
    BFP-5/18/11 Riley arrived 2/3/12 8lbs6oz 21.5in
  • imagemandy6418:
    imagetiffany119:

    imagemandy6418:
    I love your Sapphire Sweethearts badge. I had Sept 2010 EDD. Everytime I see it, I want to steal it. LOL

    Steal away Smile It doesn't specify which year - go for it!

    Really?? Maybe I will. Thanks so much!!

    Really, please! It would make me happy to see it in your siggy too!

  • Update: I was supposed to do another Clomid cycle this month, but my <5 hcg wasn't negative enough for the fertility center doc, so I had three more weeks of blood draws instead.  It's now FINALLY negative in their eyes, so after AF comes, I'll be good to go.  

    If anyone wants to chart stalk me, please do!  I don't really believe that I've ovulated this month, but I have dotted CHs.  I had some weird spotting earlier in the week, and things just seem weird with my body right now, so I don't know what's going on.

    Three songs:  Friday I'm in Love by the Cure, Flowers in the Window by Travis and Slide Away by Oasis. 

    dx: PCOS
    Clomid + Met = BFP#1 12/27/10, missed MC discovered 2/9/11, d&c 2/11/11, 10w3d
    Natural cycle (just Met) = BFP#2 6/3/11, Baby A arrived 2/16/12
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  • I'm right in the big middle of AF, it sucks!  But, I am happy that if it had to come, it was before our vacation.  Looking forward to the possibility of conceiving in Alaska!

    GTKY-

    Just going through my i-tunes-

    "You can't always get what you want"- rolling stones

    "I'll stand by you"- The pretenders

    "My life would suck without you"- kelly clarkson

    I'm not ashamed to admit the version I have of these are all Glee songs. :)

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  • xnbridexnbride member

    This cycle was a bust. Probably because I had two infections. Hopefully once everything is balanced out, I will have more success next cycle.

    There are some songs I sing everyday so I would say 

    "Here comes the sun" by the Beatles

    "Today is the greatest day" by the Smashing Pumpkins

    and then I would say that a song that describes my life would probably be a Brandon Heath song "He's not finished with me yet"

     

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    9 angels in heaven-3 in my arms and 1 in the NICU                                                                                                                                    
    Mono/di twin girls: Josephine born to heaven and Evangeline born Earthside at 25w

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  • xnbridexnbride member
    imagebadtzmaru22:

    Update: I was supposed to do another Clomid cycle this month, but my <5 hcg wasn't negative enough for the fertility center doc, so I had three more weeks of blood draws instead.  It's now FINALLY negative in their eyes, so after AF comes, I'll be good to go.  

    If anyone wants to chart stalk me, please do!  I don't really believe that I've ovulated this month, but I have dotted CHs.  I had some weird spotting earlier in the week, and things just seem weird with my body right now, so I don't know what's going on.

    Three songs:  Friday I'm in Love by the Cure, Flowers in the Window by Travis and Slide Away by Oasis. 

    It really does look like you ovulated! Did you have fertile quality CM alone with the spotting? Did you feel any O pains? the spotting is a bit weird because it lasted so long. Do you normally spot around O time?

    Are you taking progesterone (that can cause elevated temperatures). 

    Hopefully you Oed on your own though!!!! That would be wonderful. 

     

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    9 angels in heaven-3 in my arms and 1 in the NICU                                                                                                                                    
    Mono/di twin girls: Josephine born to heaven and Evangeline born Earthside at 25w

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  • I'm pretty much in limbo at the moment. Still no AF and my doctor has started me on a ten day cyle of Provera to jump start things. I'm on day nine and nothing yet. I'm totally frustrated but trying to stay positive. I just never imagined myself in this position ever. But I guess we're only given what we can deal with it.

     As for songs thats a tough one!

    1. In My Life- The Beatles

    2. At Last- Etta James

    3. Tequila Sunrise- The Eagles

    ~Birthmother to My little Liddybug 3/9/04~ ~Step-mom to Jack (6)~ BFP #1 1/4/11 Missed m/c at 8wks/1day 2/10/11 D&C 2/11/11 ~ BFP #2 10/4/11 *Stick baby, stick!*~ My BFP Chart. Daisypath Anniversary tickers Photobucket BabyName Ticker
  • imagetiffany119:
    imagemandy6418:
    imagetiffany119:

    imagemandy6418:
    I love your Sapphire Sweethearts badge. I had Sept 2010 EDD. Everytime I see it, I want to steal it. LOL

    Steal away Smile It doesn't specify which year - go for it!

    Really?? Maybe I will. Thanks so much!!

    Really, please! It would make me happy to see it in your siggy too!

    Maybe we should open the check-in/badge up to ALL women with a September EDD in whatever year...? I like that idea...the more the merrier!!


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    Justin + Laura 10.18.08
    TTC #1 09.10/Dx PCOS 12.10/BFP #1 12.29.10/EDD 9.10.11/Missed m/c 2.3.11/D&C 2.15.11
    “Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”-Kahlil Gibran
    Cycle #1 4.2.11 + Clomid = BFN/Cycle #2 5.9.11 + Clomid + Trigger Shot = TWINS! 
    Walter Allen and Eleanor Joan 1.15.12
    Another baby on the way! 8.25.14


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