Not sure if its the medication, the fact that im adjusting to my new schedule or what but i feel like yesterday was a break through for me. Both boys were in meltdown mode the place was destroyed and i was OK. I relaxed (no anxiety attack) and once they were both asleep on me looked around at the mess and thought...no biggie. The normal thoughts of "oh my gosh, i have to do XYZ, hurry up and go to sleep boys." was gone. Mark came home and asked if i wanted him to take a boy and i said, "no, im happy."
so he took a pic...
thanks for all your support ladies. Its still hard and i think im still struggling but i think im on the up and up (for now)
Re: i finally let go...
BFP #2 10/13/2009 on our 2nd Wedding Anniversary
Discovered TWINS during the 6w u/s - what a shocker!
Delivered on 5/19/2010 at 34 weeks due to pre-e and HELLP syndrome
The Bump MoM Recipe Collection
Doesn't it feel nice to let go? "Sometimes you just gotta say, what the f*&!" (Did I just date myself)?
And guess what? You are still SUPER MoM!
How are YOU doing?
Someone asked me the other day if I wanted to hire a nanny, and I looked at them and said, "Absolutley not, I love spending time with my kids, but I could use a housekeeper" I've let the house go, that isn't as important to me as my children, but in the background my house is a disater and we're learnign to live with it.
Yeah!!! You got THERE!
I remember the first time I thought - hey I got this. Honestly, I never looked back. Sometimes I still feel nervous being around the boys alone, but that was a huge turning point for me.
4 Fresh IVF cycles + 1 FET where embies didn't survive the thaw = 2 perfect little men!
sFET 11/9/11 - Beta 11/18 BFP!