Since my last US, (when LO actually looked like a human and not so much Mr. Hanky from South Park, like the 1st US), it's really started sinking in and not like I'm in some alternate universe/dream or something. I attribute it to the fact I am getting a "real" baby bump and have started feeling weird things (can't really prove it is the LO, but starting to feel some weird things for sure). I think it's pretty crazy too to go somewhere and people look at you like they are trying to figure out if you're knocked-up or all your weight just goes to the front of your stomach. Maybe it's because this is my first time around with all of this, but sometimes it just hits me how crazy this all is and it seems so different when it's you that it's happening to. LOL!


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Re: So, is it "real" to you yet?
Not yet to me, after my next appt on the 2nd and my anatomy u/s on the 16th it will be.. Unfortunately, because of my previous blighted ovum, I had to get my first ultrasound at 8w3d.. which means.. the only photo I have, it just looks like a peanut, can't make anything out, etc.
I have almost ZERO bump. I was super fit before I got pregnant and thin and the TINY TINY thing I do have, is WAY smaller than almost everyone else's lower tummy that I know.. so... I don't look 4 months pregnant. or pregnant at all lol. No movement, no sickness (the entire pregnancy), nothing at all to make me feel pregnant except for the occasional nose bleed in the am lol.. Sigh..
After one loss, it's hard to really believe everything is ok until you start to feel it kicking and moving around.. I heard the heartbeat at 13w, but have no idea how strong it was. I'm just overly nervous about everything.. But after I see it again on the 16th when it actually looks human and thriving, It will be more real to me.
It's starting to feel more real every day. I had a Dr's appt yesterday and was surprised when he showed me where my uterus was on my belly. All the way up to my navel already. And I thought that was just blubber.
We're still not "connected" in the way I thought I would be. We have our anatomy scan in a week and a half and I hope that this will be our turning point.
It is slowly starting to feel real. Time is flying by and we're starting to think about names and nursery and planning for the baby. I had multiple ultrasounds the first few weeks and then a big break until the NT scan. Seeing the baby had grown into a baby with arms and legs and hearing the heartbeat was such a relief. I am such a worrier, I finally broke down and bought a fetal doppler on eBay. Best money I've spent so far. It is always a relief to hear that galloping heart beat, though I try not to do it as often as I'd like because I don't want to overdo it.
I am pretty sure I'm starting to feel movement, but it isn't every day and it isn't constant, but those little reminders are great to remind myself that I'm carrying around and growing a little person. Very surreal time right now, that's for sure!
Since entering the 2nd trimester, I haven't felt pregnant at all. I know how lucky I am and I'm enjoying feeling good but it is making the whole thing hard to process.
Now that all of my friends, family and work know, I'm looking forward to getting a real bump. I think that will feel more real.
Also, DH and I are having a baby planning meeting tonight, discussing furniture, registry items, etc. Mayb ethat will help it sink in, too.
Burned by the Bear
I've had 8 or 9 ultrasounds. I've gained 9 pounds. I don't fit into any of my clothes. I just saw my baby's heart, brain, and other important organs yesterday.
And it still doesn't feel real.
The doctors say that feeling movement changes everything. I can't wait for that point. But I'm also trying to enjoy being where I am right now. With a healthy baby (as far as we know) that my body is quietly nurturing.
Baby Boy Smudgie born 10/4/11
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