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Feeling sad, anxious and alone...

Nicky&EricNicky&Eric
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Backstory: Had my first IUI on 4/3 after my 2nd round of injectables. On 4/14 I got my first ever BFP after TTC for 3 years. I was so excited. Went in for a beta test on 4/15 and it came back at 31. Dr. already told me it was low. Since then I have had 3 more blood tests. After the initial beta, it went up to 67 in 72 hours, then 117 48 hours after that, and finally 72 hours later it was 221. Dr. told me to expect the worst and probably not viable, maybe ectopic. I have my 5th blood draw tomorrow. It almost doubled in 72 hours but not quite however, the numbers have been really low from the start. For the last couple days I have just been in this fog. Crying, then trying to be optimistic, then crying again. I feel like my body hates me. I have PCOS, possible autoimmune disease..I have been poked and prodded for the last 5 years with misdiagnoses and unnecessary drugs (like Prednisone). Anyways, I am praying for a miracle tomorrow but expecting the worst. I really appreciate that this board is here and know I am not alone but I just feel so hopeless. 
PCOS/Take 2000mg Metformin a day - IUI 4/3 - BFP on 4/14! Beta #1 12DPO: 31 Beta #2 15DPO: 67 Beta #3 17DPO: 117 Beta #4 20DPO: 221
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Re: Feeling sad, anxious and alone...

  • MrsJCMrsJC member
    I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope you get good news tomorrow.
    BFP #1 1/27/11, EDD 10/7/11, D&C 3/29/11 @ 12w4d
    BFP #2 5/19/11, EDD 1/20/12, Natural miscarriage 6/2/11 @ 6w6d
    Dx 2 copies of MTHFR reductase DNA mutation (C677T & A1298C) June 2011
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  • LIa0909LIa0909

    I will hope for the best for you tomorrow. So sorry for what you are going through and hope you don't become a resident here. But if that is what comes to be, please remember we are here for all the support and virtual hugs you need.

    Best wishes and (hugs)!

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  • RaeJ004RaeJ004 member
    Thinking of you!  Keep us posted, but I hope to not see you back here :(
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