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I hate my body... and IF

meg_koolemeg_koole
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So AF started last night.  7 dpo which makes this cycle officially 15 days total.  WTF.

And even though I never had much hope for this to work, I am still crushed.  So, now on top of PCOS, MFI and a clotting disorder I am fairly certain we have a LP issue too since our last 5 cycles have been AF at 12dpo, 10dpo, 11 dpo, 11 dpo and 7 dpo....

AND I called the on call doc last night and he said "I really wish we could figure out what the heck is wrong with you".  Me too buddy.

So, I really just don't know.

Thanks V, Cara, and Kelly for getting me through the night last night.  I didn't have the energy to boot up the computer.  And I got zero sleep last night due to sobbing.  And poor DH is upset too.  

Ugh, all around crappy night.

Sorry for the vent.  Any suggestions (besides trading my body in for a new one) would be appreciated.

Our Blog - http://thedittemores.blogspot.com/
Dx PCOS 2003/high fasting insulin/clotting issues DH Dx with low sperm count, motility and morphology. Varicocele repair (11/1/2010)
2/2011 - Confirmed no improvement - On to Donor Sperm
4 failed IUIs in 2010
IUI#5 and 6- with DS, BFN
Final IUI - Lucky #7! IUI with DS - 20.Jun.2011 - 21.5 mil motile! Not so lucky - BFFN and the end of our IF journey....
Waiting for our family to be complete through Adoption - May 2012 - Hoping our baby finds us soon!
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  • cookie_queencookie_queen
    Oh hun. ((hugs)) giant hugs. I'm so sorry your body isn't doing what it should. I hope the docs get it figured out soon!
    TTC with severe MFI since 9/08 IVF w/ ICSI #1 May/June 2010= BFP twins
    Callan George and Bennett Charles born and died 11/7/10
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    FET #1 April 2011= BFN
    FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
    FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138 Pregnancy Ticker
    Living After Losing
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  • Married071709Married071709 member
    I started taking B-6 and it increased my last 2 cycles by 5 days. And I haven't spotted for 3-5 days before I actually get AF.  It might be worth a try.  I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this.  I wish it was easier.  I'm here if you need anything.((((((Hugs)))))) 
    After 4.5 years our miracle IVF baby is here!
    Born 7/30/13
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  • meg_koolemeg_koole

    imageMarried071709:
    I started taking B-6 and it increased my last 2 cycles by 5 days. And I haven't spotted for 3-5 days before I actually get AF.  It might be worth a try.  I'm so sorry you are having to deal with this.  I wish it was easier.  I'm here if you need anything.((((((Hugs)))))) 

    Thanks Katie.  I did try that this cycle like you said before.  It hasn't really helped yet.

    I can't understand why some people don't get AF until well after stopping progesterone and I get it when I am all loaded up with it.

    Our Blog - http://thedittemores.blogspot.com/
    Dx PCOS 2003/high fasting insulin/clotting issues DH Dx with low sperm count, motility and morphology. Varicocele repair (11/1/2010)
    2/2011 - Confirmed no improvement - On to Donor Sperm
    4 failed IUIs in 2010
    IUI#5 and 6- with DS, BFN
    Final IUI - Lucky #7! IUI with DS - 20.Jun.2011 - 21.5 mil motile! Not so lucky - BFFN and the end of our IF journey....
    Waiting for our family to be complete through Adoption - May 2012 - Hoping our baby finds us soon!
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  • scooterqscooterq member
    Meg, I'm so sorry!  ((hugs))
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  • thebeadingladythebeadinglady
    I am so sorry hun (((hugs)))
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  • STL34STL34 member

    I'm so sorry, hon.  ((HUGS))

    I don't really have any suggestions.  With respect to B vitamins, prescription folgard may work better than OTC supplementation.  I started it last cycle because of my MTHFR Dx and that was one of my longer natural cycles.  Maybe more progesterone supplementation?

    I hope you all figure something out.  I definitely understand wanting to trade in your body.  ((HUGS))

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    ~SAIF/PAIF/Everyone Welcome~ 

    Me= 37 and DH = 41 

    Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)

    IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN

    IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.

    IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132.  Lil is here!

    TTC#2:  Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.

    IVF #4:  BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #5:  MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #6:  (New RE):  Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN

    FET#1:  BFN

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  • Edwina.McDunnoughEdwina.McDunnough

    Meg, I'm so sorry. Giant hugs and I hope you take care and rest up this weekend.

    I'd ask for progesterone support.

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  • abbe19abbe19
    I am so sorry sweetie. (((hugs)))

    SAIF/PAIF Always Welcome!
    TTC #1 May 2008
    6 Rounds Clomid, 1 Round Femera-BFN
    4 IUIs (1 Clomid, 1 Femara, 2 injectables)-BFN
    February 2010-Laparoscopy
    4 months of Lupron
    August 2010-IUI #5-BFN
    October 2010-IUI #6-BFN
    IVF #1 November 2010-BFN
    IVF #2 March 2011-BFN
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  • illinigalillinigal member
    I'm so sorry Meg. Hugs and longer LP wishes heading your way.
    TTC #1 since October 2008. Dealing with MFI.
    IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
    IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
    IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
    Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
    IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
    Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
    Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
    IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
    IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
    ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer :(
    Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
    IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
    IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
    **P/SAIF and P/SAL always welcome!**

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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  • EchloeEchloe
    I'm so sorry. That must be really frustrating. My suggestion is maybe get a second opinion. I worry when doctors admit that they have no clue.
    Beautiful Miracle Baby lost at 21 weeks due to pre-term labor and incompetent cervix. FET#1 BFN, FET#2 BFP, early loss. FET#3 BFN. IVF#2 BFFN. FET #4 BFP after removing bilateral hydrosalpinx and 3 months of lupron depot. Sticky Bun is here!! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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  • MSaksaMSaksa member
    Oh sweetie!!! I'm SO SO SO Sorry to hear this!!! I hope you can get some answers soon!! (((BIG HUGS)))
    Dx Anovulatory PCOS Clomid,Ovidrel,TI=BFN IUI#1-#3 Femara,Ovidrel=BFN IUI#4-Gonal F,Ovidrel=BFN IUI#5-Gonal F,Ovidrel= BFP!! Beta #1 11dpIUI=34, Beta #2=131,first u/s 3/14=1 perfect bug with a heartbeat! Anderson Phillip, Born 11/2/11 7lbs 10oz 21in. Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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  • JennPierogJennPierog member
    I'm so sorry! Big Hugs





    2004- DX with PCOS

    6/2011- Gonal-F + Ganirelix + Oviderl and Crinone= BFP

    7/7/2011 Beta #1 119 Beta #2 563 Beta#3 4178



    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers



    http://tinypic.com/r/25z7709/8

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  • etoyamaetoyama member
    (((HUGS))) I'm so sorry, Meg.
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  • madhatterxomadhatterxo member
    I'm so sorry!!  I really wish there was something that I could do for you.  I really hate IF.
    Me: 27, DH: 28 TTC since 11/09
    2/10 & 3/10 Clomid 50mg-BFN
    5/10-Lap Surgery for Stage 2 Endo
    3/11-IUI#1 with Follistim and Menopur-developed mild OHSS= BFN
    6/11-IUI#2 with Follistim -developed moderate OHSS= BFN!
    7/11-FSH-11, AMH 1.6
    9/11-ttc naturally with positive thoughts :)
    10/6/11-POSITIVE pregnancy test!!! 15dpo BETA-220
    6/14/2012- Riley Harper arrived!! We love our little girl
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  • emcaemca member
    I am so sorry!  I hope all works out and that your doctor can figure out what is going on.  IF sucks!

    After 1 IUI, 3 IVF's with CGH/CCS testing, 10 early miscarriages, and lots of tears and frustration, we are moving on to Domestic Infant Adoption!  We are so excited to see what the future holds.

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  • bbakersgirl75bbakersgirl75 member
    I am so so so sorry for you hun ((Big hugs))  I'm majorely praying they find out what is wrong.
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  • mm29mm29 member
    I am so sorry Meg that you are going though this!  I hope you get some answers soon! 
    ::: Married June 2003:::
    TTC #1 since: Aug. 2008
    Me: 34, DOR, MTHFR-A1298C (heterozygous), decreased blood flow to uterus, Mild Endo
    DH: 38, Balanced translocation 5&10, unexplained MFI, normal SA and SCSA
    Tx History: IUI 1&2= BFN
    IVF# 1 W/ICSI= BFN
    IVF# 2: cancelled d/t no response
    IVF# 3= 1 egg retrieved=immature/not viable
    IVF# 4= c/p
    ***CCRM ODWU***
    Found DHs BT and Me-decreased blood flow to uterus
    Recommended DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. Decided to cycle locally
    ***New RE***
    DE IVF# 1(cycle #6) w/pgd, (freeze all): 30R, 23M, 15F, slow/poor embryo development, 4 biopsied, 1 Normal "Norm"; DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. 
    IVF# 6: (OE/DS) cancelled
    IVF# 7: (OE/DS) 1R, 1M, 1F, arrested day 5
    Plan-DE IVF# 2 (cycle #8): DE/DS in May 2015

    http://icanhazbabyz.blogspot.com/
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  • BeeBee08BeeBee08 member
    I'm so sorry Meg.  I really thought this was going to be lucky cycle #6.  I hope there is something that can help so that you get your sticky baby soon.  Hugs.

     
    me 33/DH 36
    ttc since 10/2008; d/x: mild MFI, stageII endo
    ~~PAIF/SAIF Welcome~~
    11 IUI’s = 1 m/c (7w4d)
    IVF#1 January 2012 BFN, FET #1 April 2012 BFN
    Surprise BFP October 2012 m/c (7w), Surprise BFP April 2013 m/c (6w4d)
    IVF #2: July 2013, ET 1 embryo 7/18, beta 1 @ 14dp3dt - 757, beta 2 @ 16dp3dt - 1762
    U/S 1 @ 6w4d = 1 little frogger with HB of 118, U/S 2 @ 7w3d measuring right on track with HB of 160
    Stick Frogger Stick! Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!   It's a Girl, EDD April 7, 2014

    BabyFruit Ticker

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  • MBfromBMCMBfromBMC

    (((hugs)))

    I'm sorry that your body is acting so strangely, and I hope you get some answers soon! 

    imageimageimage

    TTC since March 2009 // Me and DH - 28
    Testing Summer/Fall 2010 - Unexplained IF
    IUIs #1-4 ~ Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/IUI ~ all BFNs
    IUI #5 ~ Femara/Ovidrel/TI/IUI ~ BFN
    IUIs #6-9 ~ Research Study Meds/Pregnyl/TI/IUI ~ all BFNs
    IVF Consultation, More Testing
    Diagnostic Cycle ~ Mucinex/Progesterone/TI ~ BFN
    IVF #1 ~ Menopur/Bravelle/Ganirelix/Novarel/Progesterone/Lupron
    7R, 6F // 2 transferred // 3 frosties ~ BFN
    FET #1 ~ Estrace/PIO/Lupron
    3 thawed // 2 transferred // 1 lost // no more frosties ~ BFP!!
    Beta #1 - 456 // Beta #2 - 1176 // Beta #3 - 2933 // Beta #4 - 6753
    EDD: May 16, 2013
    Threatened MC at 6w2d
    Bedrest for SCH // 6w2d through 10w1d
    Elevated TSH and Lazy Thyroid DX @ 10w - Started Synthroid
    Finally released from RE at 13w
    Charles Everett ~ Born 5/20/2013

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker


    ~~ My IF Blog ~~ 

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  • MerryMarisaMerryMarisa
    Oh hun, I'm so sorry you're dealing with this and hope your doc can figure out what your body is doing ((( hugs ))).
    TTC #1 w/ endo since Sept 2005. After many losses, a lap, tons of meds and tons of testing and, one failed IVF cycle, we were blown away with a surprise, sticky BFP...it's a girl!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
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  • DeputiesWifeDeputiesWife

    ::hugs, Meg::

    I am so sorry.

    I have no suggestions but I am here for you anytime!

    xoxo

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

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