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MrsRiceARoni · April 2011

Thank you everyone for reposting your intros for me. I feel like I already know you ladies much better than I did yesterday. So I guess I should repost mine as well for those ladies who are newer than me, so here goes.

DH and I got married in July of 09 and after about 6 months I told him I was ready to TTC whenever he was. On April 23, 2010 my mom woke up to find that my father had died in his sleep. While we were in CA for the funeral DH told me that he didn't want to be older when we had kids (my dad was 44 when I was born). He told me that he wanted to try having kids now so that he would be around when our kids had children etc. I finished that pack of bcp and did not start a new pack in May, we were officially TTC. I had been on bcp since I was about 16 and had no idea what my "normal" cycle was like, I got pregnant right away (in July) so I never got a "normal" cycle. I found out I was pregnant the day of my first sub job ever. I was scared and nervous about my job but didn't care, I was pregnant and that was all that mattered.

I had an easy pregnancy, I considered myself quite lucky to not have all of the difficiulties that my pregnant friends were having. I had some minor M/S but only during the first trimester. I didn't gain any weight (aside from fluctuating by a few lbs), until the third trimester. Dr wasn't worried because I ate all the time and had been a little "fluffy" before I got pregnant. I thought that Noah wasn't super active compared to my friend's babies, but I'd never been pregnant before and figured he was just a quiet baby. All three of my U/S went great, everything checked out normal and we were sent on our way. Around 28 weeks we did a 3d/4d US and our son was beautfiul! He had the cutest chubby cheeks and looked a lot like DH! I was surprised he was so calm during the u/s (especially since I was sipping a sugary and frozen jamba juice), but like I said it was my first pregnancy and everyone kept telling me everything was great so I didn't worry.

The rest of my pregnancy continued on being super easy until I woke up with a headache on the morning of 3/12. I took some tylanol and took it easy that day but the headache didn't go away. That afternoon I had my DH call the on call Dr to see if there was something else I could do to get the headache to go away. The doctor told me to come in because he was worried about pre-eclampsia. I went to the hospital, peed in a cup and got hooked up to the monitors. I had crazy high protein in my urine and my bp was elevated (thought not too bad). They kept me there for a few hours for monitoring than sent me home to do a 24 hour urine collection. The doctor told me that if I were 37 weeks he would induce me right there, but since I was 35w 5d and Noah's heart rate was strong he'd let me go home to do the urine collection, and we'd see if we could give him a few more days to grow. No u/s needed since I hadn't had any problems and his hb was strong. I went home and did my urine collection and came back the next day. I felt great, my mom has driven out from CA thinking I was going to have my son early. We went to the hospital wondering if I'd be induced that day or if I'd be ok to wait a few days. It didn't matter to me, I was having my son and that's all that mattered!

I turned in my collected urine and left a new sample in the bathroom than laid down to be monitored. My nurse (the same one as the day before) had me change than began looking for Noah's hb so she could place the fetal monitor. She kept moving the sensor around saying he was "hiding" from her. I knew something was wrong, she found him instantly the day before. I started panicing, I new something was wrong. She told me that she needed to use the u/s machine to find him because he must be "hiding" behind something or in an odd position that she can't find his hb. At that point I knew, but my mom and DH kept telling me don't worry they're going to find him. while I lied there crying "he's gone, how is he gone."

After the doctor tried finding the hb with no luck and the offical u/s people came with their fancier u/s machine and found nothing the Dr finally told me what I already knew, my son's heart had stopped. DH and I cried hysterically, how could he be gone?? He was fine last night, and I had felt him moving earlier that day!

My body knew what had happened and I naturally began progressing. Each time the nurse went to check me she was surprised to find I had progressed a few more cm so she continued to let me labor without pitocin. A few hours later my progression slowed around 6.5-7cm and they decided to give me pitocin to speed up the process. I delivered my son the next aftrenoon 3/14 almost 24 hours after I had discovered his heart had stopped. I held him in my arms and looked at his perfect face. He looked so peaceful, like he was just sleeping but we could not wake him up. The next week we burried my son, not something I ever thought I would be doing.

My son was 18.5 inches long but only 3lbs 12oz. The placenta looked normal but smaller than it should have, and the umbilical cord was quite thin. The pathology report showed ecoli in the placenta. There are sevral bacterias that sometimes get into the placenta, ecoli isn't one of them. We're not sure how it got there, or if it is even when killed my son. All we know is that I should have been quite sick from it, but I wasn't. No high temp, no high white blood count, nothing. My case is still a mystery, and there is a study being done on it to figure out just what happened and what if anything could have been done. My Dr assures me that it's not something that could happen again, and tells me there is no reason to be worried about future pregnancies, but he will still treat me as high risk just in case.

I am now still struggling with the tail end of my health issues from the pre-eclampsia, and optomistically awaiting when we will be able to TTC again. I know that my friends and family will not understand it if we get pregnant quickly after losing our son, but DH and I feel it is the right thing to do. We do not know why God chose to take our son from us, but we know he has a reason for it. I miss my son every day and I wish that I could have kept him but I know that God has other plans for us, I just pray that they include getting our "take home baby" very soon. Thank you for all of your support ladies, I hope I can bring you a small portion of the comfort you have given me these last few weeks.

fondybride · April 2011

I cried again reading your story, Laura. (Hugs to you).

I'll especially be thinking of you on Sunday; but know that your dad and Noah will be rejoicing in Heaven together. (BIG HUGS)

xnbride · April 2011

Wow, that is heartbreaking. I am so sorry they didn't catch it earlier. Next time you can request them to look at the blood flow during the ultrasound and it will show if the cord is wrapped around the baby's neck. They usually won't do it unless you specifically ask them to because unfortunately there is not a whole lot they can do about it. They can determine the length and position of the cord during early ultrasounds and they can determine if the flow is being cut off, so frequent ultrasounds can help detect it sooner rather then later and prevent such tragedy. I am so very sorry for your deep and profound loss.

vpr105 · April 2011

Your story brought tears to my eyes and I cannot even express to you how sorry I am for your loss. I am sending t's & p's to you for a return to good health and for your take home baby very soon.

Oatoa · April 2011

Everytime I hear your story my heart breaks for you and your family. Hugs to you.

1220winterbride · April 2011

You have my deepest sympathy.I love the name Noah. So sweet. thank you for sharing his story.

Luvmybella · April 2011

I'm so sorry for all that you have been through. ((((HUGS)))) Thank you for sharing your story, Noah is a beautiful name.

mandy6418 · April 2011

I'm so sorry your sweet Noah couldn't stay with you forever. :::HUGS:::

lauralew · April 2011

Noah has an amazing mama!! Your story is heart breaking, but your family is beautiful. I imagine your family will understand you are not replacing Noah, but giving him a sibling. Something you may have done if he was able to come home with you. Hoping for a swift recovery and an even swifter BFP.

jessieLMK · April 2011

*really big hug* i am so sorry, that was so heartbreaking to read, i can't imagine ever surviving something like that

MrsMitty08 · April 2011

Wow. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It makes my heart ache for you but it sounds like you are in a good place in your grieving process and have a wonderfully supportive husband by your side. :::hugs:::

jkfranklin · April 2011

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so sorry about baby Noah.

JThomas221 · April 2011

I'm so sorry for your loss. That sounds like a terribly painful experience, I just can't imagine. Thank you for sharing, and thank you for starting these re-intros. Like you said, I feel like I know everyone on the board so much better after this. Some stories I remember, but many I haven't seen before.

passion_fruit08 · April 2011

{{HUGS}} Your story is so heartbreaking and I cry everytime I have read it. Thank you for re-sharing.

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