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Re-Intro (long..be prepared to read a novel)

xnbridexnbride member
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Hey ladies..where to begin...

 I have been on and off these boards over the past 6 years (although this board didn't exist until a few years ago)

My first loss is by far my most devastating as it shattered my world and my innocence.  I actually lost that pregnancy around 9 weeks even though my sig says 8. I guess it was a missed miscarriage but we did have a few signs that things were not going to work out, but I was so naive and hopeful. We told EVERYONE...and we had to untell everyone when we lost Audrey (the only one of my losses I named). She was due March 2006; the same time as my friends DS who just turned 5.

I got pregnant with DS1 a few months after that loss. I was given a vision of when it would happen and when to test and when I would be due. I did have a few complications at the end but overall it was a wonderful pregnancy and experience.

We started ttc DC2 when Ethan (Ethanator) was under 1. I had a chemical pregnancy. We started having some marital issues so I went back on birthcontrol until he was 2.  I quit my job, we moved, and I took the IUD out. All seemed right with the world when I got pregnant a month later. 

..but something was not right. The ultrasounds showed an empty sac...a blighted ovum. I waited 2 weeks to miscarry on my own. 

I got pregnant right away but had a c/p.

Then got pregnant right away again. The initial ultrasounds did not look good. The tech said that I was probably going to miscarry again.  I fell on my face and prayed to God for a miracle.  A few days later a miracle happened DS2 grew 2 weeks and looked healthy. He was born December 19, 2009 and in quite the hurry. They admitted him to the NICU but it was a result of lab error so we were sent home (with a substantial bill nontheless).

We started again when Jonathan (JoJo) was 4 months and have had 3 losses in this past year. 

Over the years I have had lots of testing done, but no answers...everything looks "normal"

I do have a short luteal phase so I am assuming that it is hormonal in nature. I take a cocktail of pills: prenatal, folic acid, baby aspirin, B100 (with 100mg B6) and progesterone and hope that it does the trick.

So there it is in all its glory.  It looks pretty simple in writing but all of that text represents alot of emotions and events that have forever changed my life and who I am. Overall I feel very blessed and humbled by it all and so grateful for the opportunity to be amongst such wonderful women.

 

 

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9 angels in heaven-3 in my arms and 1 in the NICU                                                                                                                                    
Mono/di twin girls: Josephine born to heaven and Evangeline born Earthside at 25w

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Re: Re-Intro (long..be prepared to read a novel)

  • CaroleeCarolee member
    (((HUGS))) I'm so sorry for all you've been through. 
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
    Too beautiful for this earth
    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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  • 1220winterbride1220winterbride member

    You are such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing. I have a little nephew named Ethan. He turns 13 years old on Monday.

    ~hugs~


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  • rosenb2brosenb2b member
    I'm so sorry you have been through so much.  You are truly blessed with two adorable kids!  {HUGS}
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  • LoriJ11LoriJ11
    What a journey. I know you have faith that He will provide you with more. I do too.
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  • passion_fruit08passion_fruit08
    {{HUGS}} That is so much for one person to go through. Thank you for sharing.

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  • momtoboomomtoboo
    first I want to say I'm sorry for your losses. Then I want to say Thank you. I feel like your story gives me hope that I might have another successful pg. I've only had one loss but it has leveled me....until now. So thank you for sharing your story.
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  • MarxieVonTrappMarxieVonTrapp member
    I'm so sorry for your losses.  You are so strong.  Thank you for sharing your story.

    mm 2/17/11 * dd born 4/20/12 * bo 1/3/14 * edd 1/21/ 1/15 

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  • nicolelorraine80nicolelorraine80 member
    You are one of my message board "s"heroes.
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  • xnbridexnbride member

    imagenicolelorraine80:
    You are one of my message board "s"heroes.

    That made me LOL Big SmileEmbarrassed 

     

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    Mono/di twin girls: Josephine born to heaven and Evangeline born Earthside at 25w

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  • LDW80LDW80
    You have been through so much yet you seem so strong. Thank you for sharing.
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  • MDT082010MDT082010
    ((Hugs)) you have been through so much!
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  • lauralewlauralew member

    Thank you so much for sharing your story.  Your strength is so evident in all of your posts.  I hope I face adversity in my life with half as much grace and strength as you do. 


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  • MrsMitty08MrsMitty08
    Xn--you have been through so much and are such a wonderful supporter on this board.  Thank you for sharing!
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  • Missa_gMissa_g member
    Thank you for reintroducing yourself! I'm so sorry for your losses. Your faith inspires me!
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    BFP #2 Medicated cycle, twin boys born 4/4/12 at 29w4d
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  • xnbridexnbride member
    Thank you ladies. I really appreciate your kind words.

     

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    9 angels in heaven-3 in my arms and 1 in the NICU                                                                                                                                    
    Mono/di twin girls: Josephine born to heaven and Evangeline born Earthside at 25w

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  • MrsRiceARoniMrsRiceARoni member
    Thank you for sharing. I am so sorry you have had such a difficult journey filled with so much loss.
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  • yeliza hyeliza h member
    Wow you are such an inspirtation ((((hugs)))

    5/9/2013 = Our rainbow was born!!

    08/18/2012 - BFP (Hoping this is our rainbow!)
    06/24/2012 - Loss confirmed at 12 weeks
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  • jkfranklinjkfranklin member

    Thank you so much for sharing.  I hadn't known your whole story.  I'm so sorry for you losses and all the emotions that came with them.  Nobody should have to go through this even once let alone 3 times. 

    I'm glad that this board gives you so much support because you give out so much to everyone on this board and I truely appreciate you.  I'm sorry that I don't say this enough.

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  • buckeyebaby814buckeyebaby814 member

    I truly admire your strength after all you've been through.  What a tremendous story of healing and the power of God with the birth of your 2nd child- I had no idea!  I am really glad you shared a 're-intro.'


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