Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

Hating my body

I feel like every time I look in the mirror, it's a stabbing reminder that I used to be pregnant and now I'm not.  I gained 8 pounds during the 3 months I was pregnant.  I lost 2 of those pounds from the D&C, but I've only managed to lose one pound in the 3 weeks since.  I'm still 5 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight, and it's obvious from this layer of fat around my mid-section.  To make matters worse, this morning I noticed that I have stretch marks on my breasts from when they grew during the pregnancy.  I just wish I didn't have this constant reminder of my loss.

Please tell me I'm not alone in feeling this way.

BFP #1 1/27/11, EDD 10/7/11, D&C 3/29/11 @ 12w4d
BFP #2 5/19/11, EDD 1/20/12, Natural miscarriage 6/2/11 @ 6w6d
Dx 2 copies of MTHFR reductase DNA mutation (C677T & A1298C) June 2011
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Re: Hating my body

  • (((hugs)))

    My pants still don't fit around the waist. I didn't gain weight, but I gained bloat, and even up until a few days ago I still looked pregnant by night time. It's starting to go down now...but it's disheartening that my pants still make me uncomfortable when I try to button them. And now I feel like I don't have "the right" to do the button/hairtie thing. I feel like I just need to get my rear on the treadmill, but I can't do that yet. It's body image limbo.

    My boobs did shrink back up pretty quickly. I haven't had the heart to try on the new, bigger bras that arrived the day after I found out my baby died - but I haven't sent them back either. :/


    BFP 2.19.11 - Missed miscarriage, April 2011
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  • I gained and gained even after my MC. I think it's the hormones + the comfort food. hugs.

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  • I gained weight during my pregnancy and after the m/c as well.  Currently on a health kick to try and turn that around. Lost 4 pounds so far.  I've got about 10 to go (20 would be great but I don't want to make goals I can't reach).  I'm the biggest I've ever been and I think it's all down to comfort eating and not working out during my pregnancy for fear that I'd lose the baby...a lot of good that did me.

    I remember right after my d&c, I thought that I looked more pregnant that I did when I actually was!  It is a horrible reminder...the bloating and weight gain.

    You're not alone.

    Me: 39 DH: 35 - TTC #1 since October 2010
    BFP #1 2-1-11 Missed Miscarriage 3-14-11(9 wks)-D&C
    BFP #2 9-17-11 EDD 5-29-12
    Edward James born 3-14-12 weighing 1lb11oz at 29w1d via c section due to low fluid and growth restriction from crappy placenta.
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  • you're definitely not alone. I ended up buying a target brand belly band since none of my pants would button or zip. my pants are still really tight as well, and I just try not to look at myself in the mirror...HUGS! I pray all of our bodies hurry up and get back to "normal".
    BFP 03/22/11 m/c 03/28/11
  • I'm so sorry =( I have been an emotional eater since my m/c so all the extra weight I have put on has been a constant reminder. I know how you feel =(


     

    bfp 1 - m/c 1.31.11 @ 10 weeks

    bfp 2 - baby born via c-section on 5.4.12 @ 37 weeks

    bfp 3 - blighted ovum/d&c on 4.13.13 @ 8 weeks

    bfp 4 - 3rd IUI, very late BFN with super low P, c/p

    bfp 5 - natural bfp while on lupron, baby born via RCS on 4.27.15 @ 39 weeks

    bfp 6 - surprise! baby born via RCS on 11.13.16 @ 38 weeks



  • I completely agree with the hating your body thing. I know mine has let me down. My boobs have decreased in size a little bit which was a welcome relief since my milk coming in with no baby to feed was SOOO painful. I have one pair of pants that I can get into and they are the ones that were way too big pre-pregnancy. I still have to wear maternity pants some days. I curse myself endlessly on these days. And when I lay down, my fibroids make my stomach look more lopsided and lumpy then ever. Sometimes, I can feel my pulse in them, which is bittersweet since it is always about the same place that I would always feel Carter kicking. A painful reminder that she is gone and I am still sick.

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  • When I was pg I had massive ute bloat. Like you could tell I was expecting. Since my loss the bloat is gone and my ute is skinny as ever, but my belly,, right above where the bloat was has about 7 pounds of new fat just chillin......... Everytime I get naked in the mirror I think, what would i look like if I was pg........
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  • I've been dealing with this too. I am only 5 lbs over my pre preg weight but it's settled right around my waist and I can't get into most of my pants. I've been doing yoga consistently and I see a lot more muscle than before but still the fat remains. Sucks.
  • You're definitely not alone.  I hate, hate, hate my body right now.  I found out on Monday that my baby no longer had a HB and since my D&C is not until Saturday, I'm still carrying him/her.  I didn't change clothes or shower until today because I couldn't bear to see my naked body which still looks quite pregnant.  Gross, I know, but oh well.  I don't really care right now.   
    m/c at 6 wks 2002
    Endometriosis, s/p lap 2009
    Behcet's disease, s/p partial vulvectomy 2010
    Started bromocriptine to lower prolactin level 2010
    Clear HSG 11/2010 :)
    DH morphology = 4, rest of SA looked good 01/2011
    02/2011 First Clomid 50mg cycle
    BFP 03/02/2011
    No heartbeat at 10w5d 04/18/2011; D&C 04/23/2011
    07/2011 Second Clomid 50mg cycle, BFN
    08/2011 Third Clomid 50mg cycle, BFN
    10/2011 First Clomid 100mg cycle with Ovidrel trigger = BFN
    11/2011 Second Clomid 100mg cycle with Ovidrel trigger = BFN
    12/2011 Third Clomid 100mg cycle with Ovidrel trigger = BFFN
    01/2012 Fourth Clomid 100mg cycle with Ovidrel trigger = ?
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    Thank you, ladies, for sharing!  I hope we can all lose this post-m/c weight quickly.  I kept up with my normal excercise routine throughout the pregnancy and even after the D&C, but it has not been enough.  So last week, I started adding some additional strength training.  I know I also need to cut back on the sweets.  Hopefully, we can all get back to normal soon.
    BFP #1 1/27/11, EDD 10/7/11, D&C 3/29/11 @ 12w4d
    BFP #2 5/19/11, EDD 1/20/12, Natural miscarriage 6/2/11 @ 6w6d
    Dx 2 copies of MTHFR reductase DNA mutation (C677T & A1298C) June 2011
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