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Nervous

Yesterday my RE hands my file over the nurse to do the bloodwork and he says this is Jackie - she is doing a FET after a late loss - it kinds stung to hear those words - I did not technically I had a late loss but I guess in the RE world 11 weeks is considered a late loss.  Then I had to proceed with explaining to the nurse what happened.  Relive it again.  My nerves were pretty much shot just thinking about the last time I was in that office and the most horrible things that has ever happened in my life happened there - hoping for a better outcome with this FET.  While I am really excited about moving forward and the possible of it actually working out this time - I am having a hard time not thinking about what happen last time and being so scared that it will happen again.

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Re: Nervous

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    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

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  • I wish I had some sage advice, but we all know I am a sissy that is terrified of trying again. I think it is completely understandable to be scared. Just know that we are all here pulling for you and will be with you every step of the way.

     

    ((hugs))

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    I'm right there with you hun. 

    TTC with severe MFI since 9/08 IVF w/ ICSI #1 May/June 2010= BFP twins
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    FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
    FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138 Pregnancy Ticker
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    Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)

    IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN

    IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.

    IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132.  Lil is here!

    TTC#2:  Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.

    IVF #4:  BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #5:  MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #6:  (New RE):  Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN

    FET#1:  BFN

  • Big Hugs to you Jackie !
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  • Thinking of my friends on this board who have had a late loss, hoping this post doesn't upset them.

    GL on your next cycle!


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    Thinking of my friends on this board who have had a late loss, hoping this post doesn't upset them.

    GL on your next cycle!

    It is not meant to upset anyone - I know I did not have a late loss and I was not trying to make anyone upset - I stated in my post that - it must be consider that in an RE office but I know it is not late loss.  Regardless that is what my RE called it.

    Loss hurts no matter when it happens.

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  • Sending you many hugs and lots of love, Jackie. Not that this will make you feel any better, but I know how much it stings. My medical records in big black bold letters say: Habitual Aborter. :(

    Infertility along with miscarriage robs you of all the joy. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Holding on to hope that this FET is your sticky take home baby. 

    Thinking of you always. 


    ? We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness... ?

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  • Wishing you all the best!! It's so hard to keep going after a heartbreak. I always tell DH that we can't not try because we are afraid of being hurt again. hugs to you!
    DS born 10/2008 TTC #2 since 8/2009 MFI and natural killer cell activation diagnosis IVF #4 = BFP!! Due 10/12!!
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    it sucks so much cutie and with everything we've been through you can't help but be scared out of your mind.

    this time will be different

     

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    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
    MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
  • totally understandable to feel that way considering all that you've been through.

    (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

    After 5 years of TTC, 3 IUIs, 5 IVFs, 2 FETs, multiple losses and an adoption that wasn
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  • I am very sorry hon.  It is always hard relieving it.  I am terrified of trying again so I understand the feeling but I think you are very brave.  ((hugs))
    TTC since 07/2009
    Me: PCOS, Blood/Immune Issues DH: Low all 3
    Jun.- Sep. 2010 IUI#1-#3 = BFN
    Oct. 2010 = IVF #1 = B/G Twins (passed away Feb. 2011)
    May 2011 = Myomectomy and trans-abdominal cerclage (TAC)
    Sep. 2011 = Surprise BFP = C/P
    Feb. 2012 = sFET #1 = BFN
    Feb.2012 = Hail Mary IUI #4 = BFN
    April/May 2012 = FET #2 w/our last two embies = BFP (Please let this be it!)
    Beta #1 8dp5/6dt = 234 Beta #2 10dp5/6dt = 695 Beta #3 12dp5/6dt = 1796 Beta #4 17dp5/6dt = 17,888 U/S #1 May 17, 2012 = Twins
    Baby B's heart stop beating at 9 weeks 5 days
    Our little miracle baby is a boy. :)

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  • Huge HUGS, girl.  You have all of my support!
  • hang in there and (((hugs)))

    I am sorry that you had to relive the whole thing, but I hope that this FET is just what you needed...

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    IUIs #1-4 ~ Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/IUI ~ all BFNs
    IUI #5 ~ Femara/Ovidrel/TI/IUI ~ BFN
    IUIs #6-9 ~ Research Study Meds/Pregnyl/TI/IUI ~ all BFNs
    IVF Consultation, More Testing
    Diagnostic Cycle ~ Mucinex/Progesterone/TI ~ BFN
    IVF #1 ~ Menopur/Bravelle/Ganirelix/Novarel/Progesterone/Lupron
    7R, 6F // 2 transferred // 3 frosties ~ BFN
    FET #1 ~ Estrace/PIO/Lupron
    3 thawed // 2 transferred // 1 lost // no more frosties ~ BFP!!
    Beta #1 - 456 // Beta #2 - 1176 // Beta #3 - 2933 // Beta #4 - 6753
    EDD: May 16, 2013
    Threatened MC at 6w2d
    Bedrest for SCH // 6w2d through 10w1d
    Elevated TSH and Lazy Thyroid DX @ 10w - Started Synthroid
    Finally released from RE at 13w
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  • Big ((hugs)) Jackie!!
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  • I can understand how your nerves would be shot.  I hope that your experiences at the RE from here on out are positive ones!!!!!  Lots of luck to you with your fast-approaching FET!!!!

     

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  • Not easy.Sad

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  • I'm so sorry sweetie, I totally understand your fear. ((Hugs))

    TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
    2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
    IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
    IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN :(
    IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
    Lap 7/21/10
    IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
    FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!

     

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  • I'm so sorry your RE office is filled with such sad memories, but hopefully soon there will be good memories made at that same office!

    {hugs}

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