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I just need to vent...

I am having a bad day, I just need to vent.

 

Went in for my ultra sound/ blood work this am, I will need to go back tomorrow. No biggie, just frustrating.

 

My vent; I am starting to wonder if I was meant to be a mom. I love kids, but now when I am around them I just get annoyed. Maybe it?s because it?s the frustration of not been able to get pregnant. Sometimes I feel like it?s god telling me something. Maybe I?m not suppose to have kids.

 

ALL of my friends start TTC after me. Now ALL of them have 2 ? 3 year olds. I work in Pediatrics, in administration so I don?t have daily contact with kids. I still hear and see all the people I work with having kids and sharing their joy. I am SO happy for them, but I just can?t help but feel jealous.

 

This week my DH has a urologist appointment. I know he will go, but it will be a emotional thing for me. This drs office has a 3 month waiting list for appointments. So what will happen is that my DH will go Thurs. and we won?t know any results for 3 months or be able to continue the TTTC process until we get the results. I guess I am just frustrated with having to wait another 3 months.. before our next step.

 

If you read this far god bless you. Thanks for listening.

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  • Hi, sorry you are feeling bad.

    Other people's kids really annoy the piss out of me sometimes too, but I still know I want my own.  I don't think they're related. Smile


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  • Please know that just b/c you are not able to get pregnant yet - it does not mean that you were not meant to be a mother.  It means that you will be a better mother once you do have your own child - b/c you understand what it really takes to bring that child into your life.  

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    Please know that just b/c you are not able to get pregnant yet - it does not mean that you were not meant to be a mother.  It means that you will be a better mother once you do have your own child - b/c you understand what it really takes to bring that child into your life.  

    (((hugs))))

     

    This!  Please don't think that!  I think we all have felt that way at some point, I know I have.  I hope your DH's appointment goes well.  Hugs to you today. 

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  • All of those mixed feelings and emotions are normal and understandable. It's an arduous and debilitatingly long journey.

    Hopefully during the wait time you're able to find some clarity. And for the record a lot of other people's kids are annoying. 

    Thinking of you and wishing you the best! 

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  • So sorry you're having a bad day, ((hugs))

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  • Thanks ladies!! You already have made me feel better :-)
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  • Sorry your having a bad day, I agree with PP, don't think you shouldn't be a mom.  I've thought that too, that maybe this is so hard for a reason, maybe I'm not supposed to be a mom.  I've thought a lot of other horrible things too but I do my best not to entertain them.  Oh and my friends kids annoy me too!

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    imagehootie123:

    Please know that just b/c you are not able to get pregnant yet - it does not mean that you were not meant to be a mother.  It means that you will be a better mother once you do have your own child - b/c you understand what it really takes to bring that child into your life.  

    (((hugs))))

     

    This!  Please don't think that!  I think we all have felt that way at some point, I know I have.  I hope your DH's appointment goes well.  Hugs to you today. 

    Agreed!  When I think like that, I do exactly what you did, I share.  It does not mean you are bad for thinking that way.  It is much better to express your worries, concerns & doubts than to hold it all in.  We are here for you...let it outBig Smile

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  • I feel the same way some days... I know that I still want to be a mom more than anything, even when other kids around me frustrate me.  I look at it as more of a "what not to do" when I do have my kids!  Hang in there!!  I have only been on here for a week or so and I have already had to vent some frustrations too!  It certainly is reassuring knowing that others can understand what we are going through!!
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  • Oh hun I am sorry you are feeling that way. ((HUGS))
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  • I am there with you- especially this week- and I'm so sorry.  Totally agree with pps.  It's so hard to keep it together and keep waiting but we will have so much love and a better understanding of how amazing and precious our kids will be.  Huge, big hugs to you & YH. 

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  • hahahaha this made me laugh because this is exactly how I feel!

     

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    Hi, sorry you are feeling bad.

    Other people's kids really annoy the piss out of me sometimes too, but I still know I want my own.  I don't think they're related. Smile

    lol I did the wrong thing before and forgot to press "quote" I wasnt trying to DD :( lol but this did make me laugh because thats exactly how I feel! lol

    Married November 2007
    DH became a double above knee amputee with traumatic brain injury (TBI) - July 2009
    TTC - August 2009 DX: Severe MFI & TF due to TBI
    DH SA 0 count, started clomid therapy - November 2010
    DH SA 0 count, increased clomid dosage - January 2011
    DH SA 75 million with 60% motility!! - May 2011
    IVF with ICSI ONLY OPTION - May 2011
    3dt of 2 Grade A 8&7 cell embryos May 19, 2011
    +HPT May 30 2011 -- Memorial Day!
    Beta #1 = 34 Beta #2 = 101.8 Beta #3 = 603!
    Expecting beautiful Eden Grace February 7, 2012!
    I don't believe that God ever tells us "no". he has three options. Yes, not right now, or I have something better in mind. We just have to wait & see. BabyFetus Ticker
  • imageChicagoWeded2007:

    Hi, sorry you are feeling bad.

    Other people's kids really annoy the piss out of me sometimes too, but I still know I want my own.  I don't think they're related. Smile

    lol I did the wrong thing before and forgot to press "quote" I wasnt trying to DD :( lol but this did make me laugh because thats exactly how I feel! lol

    Married November 2007
    DH became a double above knee amputee with traumatic brain injury (TBI) - July 2009
    TTC - August 2009 DX: Severe MFI & TF due to TBI
    DH SA 0 count, started clomid therapy - November 2010
    DH SA 0 count, increased clomid dosage - January 2011
    DH SA 75 million with 60% motility!! - May 2011
    IVF with ICSI ONLY OPTION - May 2011
    3dt of 2 Grade A 8&7 cell embryos May 19, 2011
    +HPT May 30 2011 -- Memorial Day!
    Beta #1 = 34 Beta #2 = 101.8 Beta #3 = 603!
    Expecting beautiful Eden Grace February 7, 2012!
    I don't believe that God ever tells us "no". he has three options. Yes, not right now, or I have something better in mind. We just have to wait & see. BabyFetus Ticker
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    imageChicagoWeded2007:

    Hi, sorry you are feeling bad.

    Other people's kids really annoy the piss out of me sometimes too, but I still know I want my own.  I don't think they're related. Smile

    lol I did the wrong thing before and forgot to press "quote" I wasnt trying to DD :( lol but this did make me laugh because thats exactly how I feel! lol

    Glad to know I am not alone.  Whenever my Dh and I are out and see some little brats we groan about it. lol.


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  • This was a bad week for me too. So sorry you are struggling. Sad
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  • My own childeren annoy me. LOL It's totally normal. I love being a mom but there are days were I wonder what the hell is wrong with me to want a 3rd child. You aren't alone. :) And it's all worth it in the end.
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