As an update to my post the other night...I've been at the hospital the past 2 days with my grandpa. He fell Sunday night while working outside and became confused. My grandma took him to the ER, which then prompted a trip up to the city hospital an hour away from where they live (I live closest to the hospital he is in now).
We found out tonight that he has a large tumor in his brain and will most likely be having surgery next week to remove, or at least lessen it. He actually had a seizure because of the tumor on Sunday, prompting his fall. He's been confused and upset that he's in the hospital the last 2 days. I've been the only family member there for the last 2 days. Everyone else came up tonight, finally.
It's be so heartbreaking. My grandpa is one of the toughest people I know. I've always looked up to him and how hard he's always worked throughout his life.
When I got to the hospital early yesterday morning I found him sitting on his bed, all by himself crying. He didn't know where he was and why he was there. He's been slowly coming back around to what is going on, but it's been hard. He is such a tough, always working outdoors-type of guy and to see him stuck in this small hospital room losing his memory has been awful.
The worst part for me as his grand daughter came yesterday when he was upset about being there still and not being able to go home. He started yelling at the nurse that he had to go and get out of there because he still had life to live...and grandkids to see and (here's the part that got me) more great-grandkids to get to know that still have yet to be born. I want more than anything for him to be there to know my kids and I hate the fact that we technically could have babies already for him to know had we not had the crap happen that we've been through already.
Thank you for reading and thank you for any extra T&Ps. He has another MRI tomorrow or Friday and then they should be scheduling the surgery date soon as well.
I'm sorry for my rambling and long post. I've missed everything here the last couple days and hope to catch up soon.
ETA: I forgot: I did tell my mom (she was on a business trip) and she flew home early today. She works for the medical school that is linked to the hospital and pulled a few strings to get the doctors to come and talk to us tonight rather than sometime tomorrow or Friday.
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Re: Update on my grandpa - T&P needed still
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I am so very sorry. I was really hoping that it wasn't a tumor. I will continue to send you and your family lots of T&Ps. Please keep us updated and please let us know if you need anything.
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I almost started crying while reading this. I hate you have to go through this. It is heartbreaking. Thinking of your family.
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Hi- I'm newer to the board, and this is the first time I've been moved to post.
My whole heart goes out to you. I lost my grandpa last summer. One of the hardest things for me was actually saying "My grandpa is in the hospital" or "My grandpa passed" as many people have to say those words- and it did not encompass the depth of my love for him, or our relationship.
It is such a blessing to know and love your grandparents as an adult. I have always viewed mine as a calm source of wisdom, and cherish the relationships. It was the hardest thing in the world to watch my grandfather in the hospital; and to be helpless. We all know that this is going to come someday- as death is a part of life- but it always feels too soon.
I'm going to say an extra hard prayer that everything goes well for your grandpa. You deserve as much time with him as possible. I'll also pray that you can have extra time with him as the strong and tough man you know.
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