Do you ever just feel...

JenniferTCU · April 2011

like you are holding on by a thread? I so feel that way right now. My mom is now in the hospital (eschemic colidis and they want to do surgery), my dad isn't speaking to me or my aunt (because his wife won't let him- she's such a horrid person and he's such a victim right now), Jace met with ECI again today and I don't know if he needs it or not and feel like I can't make a decision about much of anything, I am so busy at work and home that I have no "me" time anymore, John's job is sketchy right now. Just really...I am kind of done.

Sorry I am whining. I just needed to vent. I remember the good ol days when I visited you all and shared in your joys, concerns, milestones, etc. Now it seems as though I just have time to get on and vent about stuff. I am sorry I just don't know where to turn and feel overhwelmed. Don't get me wrong- not having a pity party- I know how blessed I am. I am just trying to navigate through all of this and feel like I am failing...miserably.

superaunt · April 2011

oh honey!!!! : ( i really wish i could reach thru the screen and give you a big hug- you NEED it! i'm sooo sorry you're going thru so much; please don't ever apologize for needing to vent! we all do. you're going to pull thru this, things WILL start to turn around. ::hugs::

robynlesley · April 2011

Jen, I have similar feelings...

My father, while fine mentally, has so many health issues that it's hard to keep up with them. He's slated for surgery to close an abscess (with MRSA infection) on May 2nd. Then, in the Fall, a hip replacement. And the hip is seriously bad.

And our family business is about to go under. I'm half-heartedly job hunting but need to step it up. For now, DH's job is secure, but nothing is definite.

My brother is ... well, I can't even describe it. The most self-centered person in the universe. When the company folds, I don't see how he can EVER find another job and DH and I don't want to support him. He'll end up living off of my parents' social security.

And my mother... Oh, it's not good. She was diagnosed with Parkinson's and an Orthostatic Tremor but then, at the suggestion of her gynecologist, she went for another opinion. The new doctor says she has Spinal Stenosis and not the tremor (no comment on the Parkinson's). So she's very confused and EXTREMELY depressed. She can't walk well but won't get a walker. She keeps falling and I'm afraid she'll break a hip. And she drives us crazy but not even listening to our advice. It's more intense than I'm writing.

Thankfully DH and I have a decent relationship. But there are little things that get on each others' nerves. Plus we're worried about Aaron's speech and extreme trantrums. I'm also looking into EI for him.

Being overwhelmed by life is so hard. I wish we could support each other in person. I think you have my email address (maybe the old gmail one?) but I'll PM it to you. If you ever need to chat, I can get emails easily from my phone.

BrideBuddies · April 2011

God only gives us as much as we can handle. So I guess that means you're all REALLY strong women to have so much on your plate.

Pesky · April 2011

even part of that would be overwhelming! Have you thought about a few counseling sessions, maybe through your employer's EAP? You could interview a few and find who is a good fit. Sometimes a few sessions can help gain some good perspective. Left Hug

NewMrs07 · April 2011

BrideBuddies:
God only gives us as much as we can handle. So I guess that means you're all REALLY strong women to have so much on your plate.

This. And sometimes it seems like everything gets worse until it gets better. Things will get better eventually but don't feel guilty for venting... That's what we're here for! Also, it sounds like someone needs a spa day, try to carve out some guilt-free time for yourself, it works wonders! ((hugs))

stever · April 2011

Oh Jen! I am so, so sorry. I'm sorry about your mom, sorry about your b!tch of a SM and sorry about John's work situation. I'm also surprised to hear about you seeking ECI for Jace. I must have missed something since I don't remember there being any cause for concern.

Crap! I just feel bad and wish I could treat you to cocktails and offer you my shoulder to cry on.

JenniferTCU · April 2011

I appreciate the fact that you girls understand.

love you all!

peeper72 · April 2011

I can empathize and I'm so sorry you're having to deal witt so much at once. But you are strong and nothing is permanent. You can thrive!!

carladillon · April 2011

Oh honey! Are you coming to Clearwater anytime soon? I will treat you to an adult beverage and a hug!

busybea · April 2011

Jen,

We are here for you, whenever you need it, so don't ever feel like you are only complaining. We are a shoulder whenever you need one, that's what friends are for. I'm so sorry that you are having such a difficult time with everything right now. It does seem that bad things always happen all at once doesn't it? Just take a deep breath and feel the love and beauty around you. If you don't mind, I will continue to pray for you that things get easier and happier for you and your entire family. {{HUGS}}

B