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chanteltbarrettchanteltbarrett
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I am three and a half weeks out from my loss.  Today at work I had to do a clinic that had a lot of young babies in it (I'm a Resident).  Most of the time at work I usually only have to deal with adults.  It was really, really hard for me.  The worst part was that all the patients ask if you have any children.  I wish people wouldn't ask.  I just feel like saying "None that are living, thank you."  I know that they don't know what's going on but it's still awful.

There was a one month old baby boy there and he was so sweet.  He looked me right in the eyes for the entire appointment.  It was almost as if he understood.  I'd like to think it was the spirit of my lost LO telling me they're okay.  I know it sounds crazy...

Sorry this was so long.  Thanks for listening to me.

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  • MissAutumnMissAutumn

    Ah I'm sorry.. thats sounds like it would be hard Sad

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  • karma79karma79 member
    imagechanteltbarrett:

    I am three and a half weeks out from my loss.  Today at work I had to do a clinic that had a lot of young babies in it (I'm a Resident).  Most of the time at work I usually only have to deal with adults.  It was really, really hard for me.  The worst part was that all the patients ask if you have any children.  I wish people wouldn't ask.  I just feel like saying "None that are living, thank you."  I know that they don't know what's going on but it's still awful.

    There was a one month old baby boy there and he was so sweet.  He looked me right in the eyes for the entire appointment.  It was almost as if he understood.  I'd like to think it was the spirit of my lost LO telling me they're okay.  I know it sounds crazy...

    Sorry this was so long.  Thanks for listening to me.

    This crosses my mind all the time!!!

    Big hug to you!

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  • ChristinaCTChristinaCT

    That sounds like it was terrible.  I am so sorry.  ((HUGS))

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    imagechanteltbarrett:

    There was a one month old baby boy there and he was so sweet.  He looked me right in the eyes for the entire appointment.  It was almost as if he understood.  I'd like to think it was the spirit of my lost LO telling me they're okay.  I know it sounds crazy...

    Sorry this was so long.  Thanks for listening to me.

    This doesn't sound crazy at all.  It's amazing, right? Just like what I went through in this post...https://community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/thread/51412910.aspx

    I'm sorry it was a rough day, but happy that you got that little sliver of comfort.  3 weeks ago today I went for my ultrasound and there was no heartbeat, so we're sort of on the same time line.  I hope you have some better days ahead. :-)

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  • Laurakat81Laurakat81 member
    I'm sorry. I wish it was easier. (((hugs)))

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  • jenn0021jenn0021 member
    I'm really sorry that you're having a rough day. ((Hugs))
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    imagechanteltbarrett:

    There was a one month old baby boy there and he was so sweet.  He looked me right in the eyes for the entire appointment.  It was almost as if he understood.  I'd like to think it was the spirit of my lost LO telling me they're okay.  I know it sounds crazy...

    Sorry this was so long.  Thanks for listening to me.

    This doesn't sound crazy at all.  It's amazing, right? Just like what I went through in this post...https://community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/thread/51412910.aspx

    I'm sorry it was a rough day, but happy that you got that little sliver of comfort.  3 weeks ago today I went for my ultrasound and there was no heartbeat, so we're sort of on the same time line.  I hope you have some better days ahead. :-)

    yes, I was immediately reminded of your post. Hugs to you both!

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  • Eris-AlexisEris-Alexis
    That sounds really hard.  I hope tomorrow is better for you.  ((Big HUGS))
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  • ellebelle2384ellebelle2384 member
    Sending you big hugs.  Sorry you had a rough day - it's tough working with babies.
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    BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
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    BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
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    PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
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