Sorry for making a second post on this (the first one was over a week ago), but AF has not shown up yet and it is really dragging me down.
I feel like after a 10 day natural m/c where I was crying and begging each night to stop bleeding, now every time I go to the bathroom and there is no blood, I feel a renewed sense of disappointment.
I know that sounds dumb because of course it will come eventually, but I just feel like emotionally I can't take any more of this. My body is officially rebelling on me. It is hard to look to the future and be hopeful when I am still stuck with a miscarriage body. I want my normal, cycling body back. I feel like the first AF after a m/c is symbolic of moving towards the future as opposed to being stuck in the grief.
The joy of beginning a family with someone I love can start now.