Sorry for making a second post on this (the first one was over a week ago), but AF has not shown up yet and it is really dragging me down.
I feel like after a 10 day natural m/c where I was crying and begging each night to stop bleeding, now every time I go to the bathroom and there is no blood, I feel a renewed sense of disappointment.
I know that sounds dumb because of course it will come eventually, but I just feel like emotionally I can't take any more of this. My body is officially rebelling on me. It is hard to look to the future and be hopeful when I am still stuck with a miscarriage body. I want my normal, cycling body back. I feel like the first AF after a m/c is symbolic of moving towards the future as opposed to being stuck in the grief.
The joy of beginning a family with someone I love can start now.
Re: AF is trying to kill me
I know how you feel. I was so hopeful each day after my m/c that AF would come and I could move on. Every time I went to the bathroom I would hope and pray...and nothing. It took 79 days for AF to come.
NOW, I'm in the position of wishing she would go away!!
Hoping you are able to move on very soon.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change. The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
Don't feel bad. I'm on day 30 after my m/c...just waiting for af to show her face. But i'm right there with you, and I feel the same way about moving to towards the future.
My stupid mac won't let me do the opposite hugger picture, but just know it is here ((HUG BACK))
Thanks. I am just having a really rough night tonight. Can't seem to keep it together for some reason. I am just so worn out from all of this disappointment.
AF dust to you.
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
I know how you feel. Today is now 6 weeks exactly from my d&c and I'm just dying for AF. I've called my doctor to get the Provera to jump start my cycle, but he's out of town right now so I have to wait until Monday. It feels like I can't start thinking of what's next until AF comes. Until then, I'm still in limbo rather than on track.
I would send you AF dust, but I don't have any. Instead, fingers crossed, hugs and I hope and wish and pray your AF comes soon.
mm 2/17/11 * dd born 4/20/12 * bo 1/3/14 * edd 1/21/ 1/15
Don't feel bad! Having a m/c is the worst for a woman. The second worst thing is trying to get your body back to normal after a m/c. I had my m/c over 3 months ago and still haven't had a "normal" cycle. I am now on bcp for a couple months and I am so afraid when I get off them and we start trying again that my cycles are going to be all wacky and I will never get pregnant again.
I hope AF comes soon for you and your body gets back to normal.
DD#1 9-4-04 *** DD#2 10-15-07
BFP#3 10-25-10 *EDD 7/1/11 * missed m/c @ 13w3d
BFP#4 7-30-11 *EDD 4/8/12 ~ DD#3 born 4/4/12