I'm about to leave in a few minutes to go visit with a good friend of mine and her new baby that was born 2 weeks ago. I'm really nervous because this is the first baby I will hold since everything that happened with our mc back in Dec. I've avoided babies at all cost, but I've known this friend since we were 10 and I'm truly happy for her. I'm just praying I have the strength to not burst into tears the minute I see the baby. I just keep telling myself that this isn't about me and that I need to separate what my experiences were aside from all the blessings she has going on right now.
Ok, wish me luck! Here I go.
TTC since March 2010, BFP #1 11.09.10, ectopic, m/c 12.14.10 (10w)
Clomid + TI=BFN, IUIs 1-6= BFN
Application for domestic adoption submitted 4/18/12, matched 8/12/12, DD born 10/31/12
Re: Going to see my friend's new baby tonight...
Ticker warning
Good luck! You can do it! Sending you ((hugs)) too.
DD#1 9-4-04 *** DD#2 10-15-07
BFP#3 10-25-10 *EDD 7/1/11 * missed m/c @ 13w3d
BFP#4 7-30-11 *EDD 4/8/12 ~ DD#3 born 4/4/12
BFP#1 - 8/27/10 - D&C 10/27/10 @ 13 weeks to Trisomy 18
Missing our Angel Baby Gabriel
BFP#2 - 3/18/11 - CP 3/19/11 BFP#3 - 4/27/11 - Due 1/9/12
I'm in the same boat as you!!!!! My best friend is in labor right now. If she has the babies tonight, my mom & I are going to the hospital. I haven't been to the maternity section of that hospital since I had Mason. Mason was the last baby I held... Part of me doesn't want to hold another baby until it's mine and part of me thinks it will be good for me to get over that hump... I wish you luck. Wish me some too. We can do it right? After all we've been through, we're tough cookies!
My heart is as open as the sky.
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2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
BFP #1 9-22-10 Missed M/c 10-18-10 D&E 10-28-10
BFP #2 5-9-11 EDD 1-12-12 Audrey Rachel born 1-12-12
BFP #3 9-21-13 EDD 5-30-14
BFP-2/4/10 EDD-9/27/10 M/C-2/11/10 7w3d D&C and Methotrexate-2/19/10
BFP-11/21/10 M/C-11/25/10
Clomid Cycle #1-BFN
Clomid Cycle #2-BFP-1/18/2011 M/C-1/26/2011
BFP-5/18/11 Riley arrived 2/3/12 8lbs6oz 21.5in
You are strong! I hope it went well and I like your attitude about it. I am seeing babies for the first time since my m/c on Monday and I need to go into it just like you! (And I have a baby shower on Sunday...)
Danielle
BFP#1 - 9/2/10, EDD 5/14/11, Twins Hannah and Liam lost 11/7/10 @ 13w1d.
BFP #2 - 2/9/11, EDD 10/13/11, LO lost 2/13/11 @ 5w4d
BFP #3 - 5/9/11, DS born 1/13/12
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~*~Labor Buddies with Sweet Turnip - Welcome Baby Girl 2/23/12 & Aluenna - Welcome Ivy 1/6/12~*~
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change. The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.