As upset as I am about this, I really think I did most of my "mourning" last Wed, when I found out that my embies were not doing well. I've never, in this whole journey, made it to a beta....I always get my period first at around 10 DPO, which is today b/c I am 7dp3dt.
When I went to the bathroom this morning, there was bright red blood and some clots. The bleeding has turned back to spotting, but this happens ALL.THE.TIME, so I am not even a little bit encouraged. I know that this happens to some people, but I have never been that person, so I am not even getting my hopes up.
For the past week, I have been going back and forth as to whether or not I even want to have another child. I want my life back. I miss me and I don't know how much more I am willing to sacrifice.
You ladies are all amazing and I appreciate all of the support.
Re: Thanks ladies
TTC #2, Operative hysteroscopy March 2011; IVF #1 long lupron protocol April 2011-cancelled due to poor response; IVF #2 flare protocol May 2011=hospitalization due to abdominal hemorrhage during ER and no fert due to MFI issues. Moving onto international adoption from Moldova January 2013!
Thanks lovey. You've got a big cycle coming up. I am so excited for you.
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
Miracle DD born 12.2005
TTC #2 since Dec 2008 w/ PCOS
***P/SAIF Always Welcome***
Keep it Natural, Baby!
I have to second what Jenna said. I'm so sorry this cycle appears to not have worked out, I am just hoping beyond hope that your RE can come up with something to address you issues and that you can have another go at it. At the same time, I totally being torn by wanting your life back.
I also wanted to say, when a friend (IRL) asked me if I was OK on Sunday, I told her I'd done all of my crying and worked it all out the day before with my temp drop. But then I spent the entire day Monday sobbing. So if this backs up on you, you know where to come, right here.
Zombie hugs to you
TTC #2 since Nov '07
Tried 4 cycles of Clomid, TI, Gonal-f, and IUI's - all BFFN's
Both tubes removed Nov '09
Low AMH = 0.3
IVF #1 for Feb '10 - cancelled due to poor response - Gonal-f and Repronex
IVF #1.2 for June '10 - Gonal-f, Menopur, and micro Lupron
ER - 6/19 (2 retrieved), ET - 6/22 (1 transferred with ICSI), Beta 7/5 = BFFN
IVF #2 for Nov '10 was cancelled due to poor response - Follistim, Repronex, and micro Lupron
IVF #2.2 for Feb '11 - Gonal-f, Repronex, and Ganirelix
ER - 2/24 (8 retrieved), ET - 3/1 (2 transferred with ICSI), froze 3, Beta 3/11 = BFFN
FET - 4/19 (3 transferred), Beta 4/28 = BFP, EDD 1/4/12