I feel horrible

aq32 · March 2011

I feel horrible! My sister in law called to tell me she is pregnant last night. I was great at acting excited on the phone but inside my heart broke. I just feel awful for not being overly excited. I cried all night and did not sleep at all. DH told me I need to be excited for people but I dont think he understands how much this consumes me. I think about and all I want is a baby and every one around me is pregnant.

This weekend I am throwing my friend a baby shower and I was feeling great this week and thought I could really get through this weekend and the shower on a positive note but now I am an emtional mess.

Thanks for letting me vent!!! You all are the best and so thanksful I have somewhere to talk about this.

gervaisj6 · March 2011

ugh. I know how you feel...

I just have had to distance myself from showers,etc... it is just too hard.

07may07 · March 2011

((hugs)) I've had that reaction before and been told that I should be happy for the pregnant person.

However, it's not that I'm not happy for whoever is pregnant, I am happy for them. But, my immediate reaction is more one for myself. I'm sad for me that I'm not pregnant. Unfortunately, for me, the sad feelings I have for myself over-power the happiness that I feel for my friend/family.

And of course, I'd be lying if I didn't admit there was some jealous feelings too.

((hugs))

BeeBee08 · March 2011

I know how you feel. I received the news from my SIL on March 19, followed by the comment "I just can't believe it's happening, we've been trying for so long" - she has an 18 month old. It stings. You definitely shouldn't feel guilty for not being excited! That's not your responsibility right now - your responsibility is to yourself.

Can your Mom help you this weekend with the shower? That way, if you have a moment that's tough, she can take over and you won't have to feel like everyone is relying on you. Help is what we need when we're dealing with situations like this. I hope you feel better soon.

softbalangel · March 2011

I'm sorry. For me, sometimes the best thing to do is get it off my chest and then I'm able to push through.

illinigal · March 2011

Hugs. I think we can all relate. You want to be happy for your family and friends, but it is so hard at the same time. Just remember, you are strong and you can do this.

pennylanehd · March 2011

Vent away...I think a lot of us have been there. I agree with May that my feeling is that I'm sad for myself to a greater degree than I am happy for whoever is pregnant, because I am happy for them...but sad more than that. Big (((hugs)))...I hope getting this off your chest and taking some time for yourself will help things turn around a little!

naybird · March 2011

Honestly, you have every right to feel the way you do. No matter how much you love the person or how happy you are for them.. Your heart will always break for yourself. And it's sad that IF has done this to us.. but that's the reality of it. So take care of yourself and good luck this weekend...

jenriley · March 2011

I am so sorry!

It always helps to get it out!

Yolanbo9 · March 2011

I know exactly how you feel. My sister is pregnant with her THIRD!!!! And i'm throwing her a baby shower! At first I thought it was the nice thing to do but now I get sick to my stomach when I think about the actual day of the shower. I just hope I don't have a complete breakdown in the middle of the shower!!

(((BIG HUGS))) to you.

I'm so sorry you're going through this.

IF SUCKS!!!

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