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I'm back, sort of

boymamacoboymamaco member
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Last week was our first u/s at 6w3d. The embryo was measuring on target but the heart rate was lower than they wanted to see. It was 101 bpm. So we scheduled our follow up u/s today, now 7w6d. There was no heartbeat at all. The embryo was smaller than they'd expect, the guess is that this happened sometime in the past week. I've been spotting a little but nothing major, and not any red.

We go in on Sat for the D&C. I can't take any time off work so we have to cancel our romantic weekend getaway for this. Sucks. The whole thing just sucks.

Im totally heartbroken. My husband said it best "we only saw the heartbeat but it still feels like we lost a baby." I don't know when I'll really be back here, hopefully sooner rather than later. I'm still rooting for all of you ladies!!
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  • lhcooperlhcooper member
    I am so, so, so incredibly sorry.  This is basically what happened to me in September 2009 (though my first u/s was at 10 weeks, with no heartbeat, and so no warning at all beforehand--I honestly don't know which is worse to have to experience).  And yes, of course your husband is right -- you did lose a baby, or at the very least the happy expectation of a baby.  And there really aren't any words except to say that it does, slowly, get a little better.  You have to ride out the very intense heartbreak first, though, and that takes time.  So take all the time you need.  I will be thinking of you on Saturday.
    me - 41 (dx: DOR); DH - 53 (no problems); 7/18/09 - married!; 8/4/09 - BFP on first (real)try; 9/14/09 - missed m/c; 9/15/09 - d&c; 11/09 - 3/10 - 4 natural cycles = BFN; 4/10 - dx hyperthyroidism caused by Graves' disease; 6/10 - thyroidectomy; 7/10 - 12/10 - 1 natural and 5 medicated IUI cycles = BFN; 1/11 - new RE; dx low ovarian reserve (AMH .42; 1/26/11 -- BFP (ectopic) from IUI #6; methotrexate 2/10/11; 6/2/11 - IVF #1 = BFN; 9/12/11 - prescreening for DE; 9/15/11 - IUI #7 (unmedicated)= BFN; 11/8 - begin DE cycle (shared risk program); 12/5 - ER (5 eggs/4 mature/3 fertilized/2 left by day 5) 12/10 - ET of one 1BB blast (expanded, "fair" quality), none to freeze; 12/22 - totally shocked by +hpt; beta #1 = 413; #2 = 3952 2/14 - CVS reveals a healthy baby girl! EDD: 8/27/12 DD born 8/31/12, 10 lbs 10 oz and perfect in every way. 
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  • shyntrueshyntrue
    I'm so sorry!  <<<Hugs>>>
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  • 10-4LilBuddy10-4LilBuddy member
    I am so sorry. Thoughts and prayers for you and your husband.
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  • HappyMrsKHappyMrsK member

    Oh no, I'm so sorry for your loss :(Right Hug

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  • happywifemomofonehappywifemomofone member

    That is so hard to hear....I cannot imagine what you are going through.  Will be thinking of you on Saturday-(hugs)

     

    TTC since 10/09 Me-43 DH-44 RE and testing 10/10-11/10, Recommending IVF 1/11 New RE AMA and DOR-DH low motility IVF #1.1 cancelled 3/11 due to poor response IVF #1.2 May 2011, one perfect 8-cell embryo, 3dt-BFN, IVF #2.1 Converted to IUI d/t poor response. New RE 9/2011. IVF 2.2 completed using HGH,EPP,DHEA, Q-10 and accupuncture. Transferred one 8-cell, grade one embryo on 10/19. BFP 10/31/11 Chemical pregancy on 11/2/11. Started stims for IVF #3, our final try, on 12-2-11. ET on 12/18. Transferred 3 Grade A embryos-BFFN Planning DE IVF, late March/early April- Donors ER expected to be 4/2-4/4. PAIF/SAIF welcome
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  • MrsJordanalmondMrsJordanalmond member

    so, so sorry

    that is just so awful.  i'm sorry. 

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  • mkwtmkwt member
    I am so sorry (((hugs))) I had a miscarriage in November and I know exactly how you feel.  I hope you can recover quickly from the D&C, thinking about you and your DH.
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  • georgia3georgia3 member

    Oh, so very sorry to hear this.  Of course you are heartbroken and will certainly be in my my thoughts and prayers.

    Hugs to you- take care this week.

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  • Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member
    I am so sorry to hear this. It must have been awful to not find the heartbeat. You definitely need time to mourn this loss. I'll be thinking of you this weekend and come back when you are ready. It really makes me sad that it seems like so many ladies who graduate from here have to come back. Hugs:-) 

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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    SAIF/PAIF Welcome


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  • danish16danish16 member
    My deepest sympathies on your loss.  <<Hugs>>
    Me: 41, DH 43 TTC #1 since 8/09 CP 10/09.
    3/11 Clomid-Ovidrel-IUI #1-progesterone= BFN.
    5/11 Femara-Bravelle-Ovidrel-IUI#2-progesterone=BFN.
    6/11 Femara-Ovidrel-IUI#3-progesterone=BFP!
    Beta #1 7/1: 39. Beta #2 7/5: 301 U/S 7/19 - saw HB!!
    EDD 3/12/12
    DD born 3/5/12
    Baby #2 Beta #1 12/16: 439.  Beta #2 12/18: 1240
    EDD 8/22/15


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  • jb2rnjb2rn member

    you know I am praying for you. we are all with to to support you through this terrible time. ((hugs))

    b/w=FSH 15.6, AMH 0.4 surprise natural BFP on 3/12/11
    DS born via unplanned C-section at 40w6d

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  • amandaleigh1amandaleigh1 member
    I am truly sorry for your loss. Heartbreaking news indeed.

    IVF #1 ET 1 d3 embryo 10/30/11 BFP
    3 Embryos frozen (1 d5, 2 d6)

    DS born 07/29/12

    FET #1 ET 1 d5 embryo 02/10/15 BFN

    FET #2 1 d6 embryo didn't survive thaw, transferred last d6. CP :(

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  • jcathjcath member
    I'm so sorry to hear this.  ((hugs))
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  • mtlaurelmtlaurel

    I'm so sorry for your loss, and it truly is a loss.

    When you're ready to come back to the board, we welcome you with open arms.

    TTC #1 since June 2010
    Me: 36, DH: 42
    Dx: DOR and MFI

    DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
    Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal

    IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
    IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
    DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
    DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!

    SAIFW/PAIFW
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  • ForTheLoveOf PinkForTheLoveOf Pink member
    thinking of you....sorry for the heartbreaking news. 
    TTC since 2009 very frustrated 42yr and DH 40

    5 cycles of Clomid with satisfactory response=BFN's
    Fibroid removal Nov2010
    IUI Clomid #1 Feb 2011...BFN..damn it!
    IUI Inject's #2 Apr 2011...CANCELLED...low estradiol
    IUI Inject's #3 June 2011...BFN
    IUI Inject's #4 Sept2011...BFFN
    Lap Dec 2011...severe endo..cyst removed..some remains...
    IVF#1 Apr 2012 ....cancelled due to over suppression
    IVF#2 July 2012....6 follies...only 1 retrieved....BFFN
    surgery suggested to move ovary to an better placement but....we moved two time zones away and are financially and emotionally empty

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  • lmydogallylmydogally
    :(  Oh No, I'm so sorry.  I hope you are only here for a very short time.
    IVF#1 May 2011 15 Eggs Retrieved, 11 Fertilized using ICSI + HPT on 6/9/11 Beta #1 420 Beta #2 2167 US 7/1 TWINS!! Due 2/18/2012 Brooke and Nora born at 35.6 weeks Jan 20th 2012
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  • CityPixieCityPixie
    Oh no, no, no!  I'm so sorry. There really are no words.  -Pix
    About me: A pixie in the city, 41, TTC #1 since May 2010, married 18 years. Diagnosed with, surgically removed, endometrioma Aug.2010 Sept 2010 IUI #1=BFN, Oct=cyst/bfn, Nov 2010 IUI #2 = bfn. Had to postpone IUI #3 b/c of a cyst natural=BFN. Skipped IUI #3, decided to go for IVF. Found/removed uterine polyps Jan 2011. IVF cancelled, no follicles. IVF #2: 3 great embies put in on Easter Sunday = BFN. Hoping for another chance at IVF in July. TTC is NOT for wimps. http://www.fertilityfriend.com/ticker/2fab90/ttc.png
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