Infertility

I feel alone

I just do not know where I "belong" on these boards. I go back and forth btwn IF and TTTC. ( as for the 6+ IF board, I am not there...)

We are on a break (by choice) and I feel that the more we take breaks, the more I will be out of touch with the boards. 

Sigh...having a lonely day today.

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Re: I feel alone

  • (((HUGS)))

    we've had lots of breaks during our 4 year journey, breaks can suck but we're always here for support no matter what

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    Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
    Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
    MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
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  • Thanks so much. I am just having one of those days. I hope to offer more support to the ladies on these boards while we are on our break.

    However, acupuncture is going well!

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  • Why can't you be on the 6 month + board, you have been on here for awhile I thought.  Sorry, you're down... I feel like I'm always on a break due to money issues so I know how crappy it is.  Hang in there hun!
  • Ditto worms.

    Lots of hugs.

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  • I'm sorry you are having a lonely day. Since we are waiting on test results (for me), I sometimes feel out of place as well. We are trying on our own, but I have very little hope since 3 different doctors have told us that it will likely not happen. With that I tend to post more on IF, but also post and keep up with TTTC.

    Hope your day gets better!

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  • Hey you, sorry you're feeling in the dumps.  Sad

    And ditto worms that we're here for you. I jump between IF and 3T mostly, and pop in on IF6+ to lend my support where I think it's appropriate.

    11/10: IUI #1 =100mg Clomid CD4-8 + pregnyl trigger + IUI = chemical pregnancy
    1/11: IUI #2 = 5mg Femara + trigger + IUI = BFN
    2/11: IUI #3 = injectibles + trigger + IUI = BFN
    IVF #1 April 2011 ER 4/23 w/16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 11 fert., 4 blasts to freeze, 5dt of 2 blasts on 4/28, beta #1 5/7 = 243... beta #2 5/9 = 491....beta #3 5/11 = 1113!!
    my blog

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    Pregnancy Ticker
  • I'm sorry you're feeling lonely.  We're here for you on IF and 3TC! (((hugs)))
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  • (HUGS) I understand how you feel, we just have our 4th IUI and we are 2WW but I know in my heart its a BFN. My DH and I have been thinking about taking a break, I need a break... the emotional roller coaster is taking its toll. 

     

     Hang in there, and I promise you have brighter and better days ahead of you !

    Lilypie Trying to Conceive Event tickers 5/10/09 Married TTC 4/26/10 1st Apt @ Fertility Clinic 7/4/10 IUI #1 (clomid & ovidrel) 7/16/10 BFP 7/18/10 Ectopic Pregnancy 8/2/10 HSG : Unicornuate Uterus + only left tube is clear 8/13/10 MRI#1 Confirmed right ovary not fully developed 8/24/10 MRI#2 Confirmed 2 kidneys 10/28/10 IUI #2 (clomid & ovidrel) 11/9/10 BFN + AF 11/21/10 IUI #3 (clomid & ovidrel) 12/5/10 BFP 1/5/11 confirmed no heartbeat 1/11/11 D&C 2/21/11 Saline Sonogram - cleared to try again 3/11/11 IUI #4 (clomid & ovidrel) 3/25/11 BFN 4/5/11 IUI # 5 (clomid & ovidrel) 4/20/11 BFN + AF Taking a break.... 5/17/11 trying again... IUI # 6, Clomid day 1
  • (((HUGS)))  I am sorry you are going through a difficult time and I know breaks can be lonely, but we are always here for you!
    SAIF and PAIF Always Welcome
    07/14/97 - Stillborn twins at 22 weeks
    12/20/99 - Miscarriage #1 - 11 wks 4 days laproscopic surgery due to rupture of tube
    07/01/01 - Divorced
    05/30/09 - Re-married to a wonderful man!
    11/11/09 - Miscarriage #2 - 10 wks 3 days, D&C
    Dx: Unexplained
    07/30/10 - 10/19/10 - IUI #1 - IUI #4 clomid cd2-6 + premarin cd7-13 + HCG Trigger=BFFN's
    11/10/10 - IVF #1 Start stims ER#1 11/22, ER #2 11/24, ET 11/29=BFFN
    03/14/11 - IVF #2 start stims, ER-03/26/11, ET-03/31/11, beta 04/08/11 = BFFN
    05/16/11 - Hail Mary Cycle - Inj+TI =BFP!! 06/08/11 Beta #1 71.8, 06/10/11 Beta #2 201, U/S 6/20-1 sac. U/S 6/28 sac and hb of 118!!
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  • I spent most of the last year on "break" and eventually I left the bump because I felt so out of place. I wandered over to the nest and focused on deco/reno'ing our house to help pass the time. I just couldn't keep focusing on babies and infertility when we had such a minimal chance of actually conceiving naturally. It turned out to be a good thing for me even if I really did not want to be on break. It let me come back to our IVF cycle feeling refreshed and ready to succeed- where before I'd been feeling kinda beaten down by infertility. Yes I've had to re-integrate into the IF boards but I'd rather do that than keep feeling so beaten down by things I can't control.

    I hope you find a place that makes you feel not so alone. 

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    Friends for 15 years. Married 8. TTC since January 2009
    2010 Diagnosis: Anovulation and Severe MFI
    2011 Treatment:
    IVF w/ICSI #1 Antagonist: 2 blasts - c/p - BFN 04.22
    FET #1: 1 blast/1 early blast - BFP 06.22 - m/c 06.30 @6w0d
    07-11 RPL: MTHFR C677T Heterozygous & Slightly elevated ACLA IgM
    FET #2: 1 morula - BFN: 9.02

    January '12: IVF #2
    Started BCP and Metformin (New!) 12-14 for stimming in January

    Dum spiro, spero.
    ?SAIF/PAIF/PgAL/PAL always welcome?
  • I completely understand how you feel but agree with PPs that breaks can be good for you.  I also think it is up to you about whether to take a break from the boards.  I'm sure everyone would be happy to have your insight and support while you're on your break, but that everyone would welcome you back with open arms after the break if you want to step away from the boards for a bit.  As to TTTC, IF, and IF 6+, I "know" the differences, but I still don't completely understand myself since the topics overlap so often!  Huh?
    TTC since 11/09
    Two C/P and Lots of Tests
    Me = LPD + cancer survivor, DH = low count and morphology
    IUIs #1-5, January 2011 - June 2011 = BFN
    IVF #1 in July/August 2011 = BFP!!!!!
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    "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear."
  • ((hugs)) I found myself posting less when I took a break, too. You know you're more than welcome here in my book.
    Trying to grow our family with both fertility treatments and adoption since March 2009 
    IUIs#1-4 = BFN, IVF#1 = c/p, IVF#2 = OHSS, FET#1=BFP
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  • (((Hugs))) I hate days like that. We're here for you no matter what you're going through. Glad to hear acupuncture is going well!

    We also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And HOPE does not dissappoint.
    Romans 5:3-5

    ~Matt and Jen~
    Married August 26, 2006
    TTC since June 2008
    Severe MFI
    IVF #1 Feb. 2011 = BFN
    IVF #2 (Long Lupron) May 2011 = BFP!!!
    Our sweet little girl, born January 26, 2012

    Time for #2!

    IVF #1 (Long Lupron) July 2013 = BFP!!!

    Beta #1 (8/1) 203! Beta #2 (8/8) 3,677! 1st u/s scheduled for 8/15!

    Lilypie Second Birthday tickers

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  • Thanks ladies. I appreciate it.

    I think alot of things like this goes through waves (for me). I hate it but it is part of life! I will come on and post when I can.

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  • I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone.  We're trying to save to attempt to do an ivf cycle, and sometimes the wait seems so overwhelming.  Although I haven't been posting long, I've been lurking for a long time trying to work up the nerve to post, so I can commiserate with not knowing where you belong when the infertility board is so dead and it seems like most people aren't doing ivf.
    Married 8/2008. IVF with PGD March 2013.
    3/22 ER: 25R, 20M, 15F. 9 genetically normal, and 3 survived to Day 5
    3/27 ET: transferred 1 embryo, beta 9dp5dt=163, 12dp5dt=639
    4/25 1st ultrasound at 7 weeks = identical twins with heartbeats?!!!
    PPROM at 31w, delivery at 32 weeks of two beautiful girls
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  • So sorry you are feeling that way.  Just becasue you are on a break doesn't mean you don't belong.  But I do understand how you can feel that way.  I just wanted to say you aren't alone.. and give you a big hug... Take care
    Renee- 37 DH - Chad - 39
    2/06 - surprise pregnancy - twins
    3/06 - m/c 1st baby at 6 weeks 
    5/06 -2nd baby had no heartbeat at 14 wks.
    D&E - Bled out. Blood transfusions. Week in ICU - Cheated Death!
    Diagnosis: Blood clotting and bleeding disorder, immune issues, & cervical stenosis
    5/10 - 1st IVF cycle - BFN
    FET - 10/12/10 - BFN
    1/11 - IVF with PGD - BFN
    IVF - May - BFN
    6/11 New RE - fingers crossed!
    9/11 - IVF - 4 transferred
    10/13 - BFP!!
    It's a boy! Clint Michael, Due in June!!!

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