I just do not know where I "belong" on these boards. I go back and forth btwn IF and TTTC. ( as for the 6+ IF board, I am not there...)
We are on a break (by choice) and I feel that the more we take breaks, the more I will be out of touch with the boards.
Sigh...having a lonely day today.
Re: I feel alone
(((HUGS)))
we've had lots of breaks during our 4 year journey, breaks can suck but we're always here for support no matter what
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
Thanks so much. I am just having one of those days. I hope to offer more support to the ladies on these boards while we are on our break.
However, acupuncture is going well!
Ditto worms.
Lots of hugs.
I'm sorry you are having a lonely day. Since we are waiting on test results (for me), I sometimes feel out of place as well. We are trying on our own, but I have very little hope since 3 different doctors have told us that it will likely not happen. With that I tend to post more on IF, but also post and keep up with TTTC.
Hope your day gets better!
Hey you, sorry you're feeling in the dumps.
And ditto worms that we're here for you. I jump between IF and 3T mostly, and pop in on IF6+ to lend my support where I think it's appropriate.
1/11: IUI #2 = 5mg Femara + trigger + IUI = BFN
2/11: IUI #3 = injectibles + trigger + IUI = BFN
IVF #1 April 2011 ER 4/23 w/16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 11 fert., 4 blasts to freeze, 5dt of 2 blasts on 4/28, beta #1 5/7 = 243... beta #2 5/9 = 491....beta #3 5/11 = 1113!!
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(HUGS) I understand how you feel, we just have our 4th IUI and we are 2WW but I know in my heart its a BFN. My DH and I have been thinking about taking a break, I need a break... the emotional roller coaster is taking its toll.
Hang in there, and I promise you have brighter and better days ahead of you !
07/14/97 - Stillborn twins at 22 weeks
12/20/99 - Miscarriage #1 - 11 wks 4 days laproscopic surgery due to rupture of tube
07/01/01 - Divorced
05/30/09 - Re-married to a wonderful man!
11/11/09 - Miscarriage #2 - 10 wks 3 days, D&C
Dx: Unexplained
07/30/10 - 10/19/10 - IUI #1 - IUI #4 clomid cd2-6 + premarin cd7-13 + HCG Trigger=BFFN's
11/10/10 - IVF #1 Start stims ER#1 11/22, ER #2 11/24, ET 11/29=BFFN
03/14/11 - IVF #2 start stims, ER-03/26/11, ET-03/31/11, beta 04/08/11 = BFFN
05/16/11 - Hail Mary Cycle - Inj+TI =BFP!! 06/08/11 Beta #1 71.8, 06/10/11 Beta #2 201, U/S 6/20-1 sac. U/S 6/28 sac and hb of 118!!
I spent most of the last year on "break" and eventually I left the bump because I felt so out of place. I wandered over to the nest and focused on deco/reno'ing our house to help pass the time. I just couldn't keep focusing on babies and infertility when we had such a minimal chance of actually conceiving naturally. It turned out to be a good thing for me even if I really did not want to be on break. It let me come back to our IVF cycle feeling refreshed and ready to succeed- where before I'd been feeling kinda beaten down by infertility. Yes I've had to re-integrate into the IF boards but I'd rather do that than keep feeling so beaten down by things I can't control.
I hope you find a place that makes you feel not so alone.
Friends for 15 years. Married 8. TTC since January 2009
2010 Diagnosis: Anovulation and Severe MFI
2011 Treatment:
IVF w/ICSI #1 Antagonist: 2 blasts - c/p - BFN 04.22
FET #1: 1 blast/1 early blast - BFP 06.22 - m/c 06.30 @6w0d
07-11 RPL: MTHFR C677T Heterozygous & Slightly elevated ACLA IgM
FET #2: 1 morula - BFN: 9.02
January '12: IVF #2
Started BCP and Metformin (New!) 12-14 for stimming in January
Dum spiro, spero.
?SAIF/PAIF/PgAL/PAL always welcome?
Two C/P and Lots of Tests
Me = LPD + cancer survivor, DH = low count and morphology
IUIs #1-5, January 2011 - June 2011 = BFN
IVF #1 in July/August 2011 = BFP!!!!!
"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear."
We also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And HOPE does not dissappoint.
Romans 5:3-5
~Matt and Jen~
Married August 26, 2006
TTC since June 2008
Severe MFI
IVF #1 Feb. 2011 = BFN
IVF #2 (Long Lupron) May 2011 = BFP!!!
Our sweet little girl, born January 26, 2012
Time for #2!
IVF #1 (Long Lupron) July 2013 = BFP!!!
Beta #1 (8/1) 203! Beta #2 (8/8) 3,677! 1st u/s scheduled for 8/15!
Thanks ladies. I appreciate it.
I think alot of things like this goes through waves (for me). I hate it but it is part of life! I will come on and post when I can.
3/22 ER: 25R, 20M, 15F. 9 genetically normal, and 3 survived to Day 5
3/27 ET: transferred 1 embryo, beta 9dp5dt=163, 12dp5dt=639
4/25 1st ultrasound at 7 weeks = identical twins with heartbeats?!!!
2/06 - surprise pregnancy - twins
3/06 - m/c 1st baby at 6 weeks
5/06 -2nd baby had no heartbeat at 14 wks.
D&E - Bled out. Blood transfusions. Week in ICU - Cheated Death!
Diagnosis: Blood clotting and bleeding disorder, immune issues, & cervical stenosis
5/10 - 1st IVF cycle - BFN
FET - 10/12/10 - BFN
1/11 - IVF with PGD - BFN
IVF - May - BFN
6/11 New RE - fingers crossed!
9/11 - IVF - 4 transferred
10/13 - BFP!!
It's a boy! Clint Michael, Due in June!!!