TTC After a Loss

I have work at noon.(babies mentioned)

First off I am sorry I was not very supportive this weekend... I had a really rough time... I kind of cried all weekend... I am having a better day today though.

I just go back to work at noon... I'm so scared. What if people say something that is hurtful.... what if they don't say anything at all... What if I cry...

(I work at a childcare center in the infant room)

I'm just all sorts of confused and nervous... I'm terrified of holding a baby... I'm just scared...

On the positive side I get to work with a coworker who has been very supportive in all this... so thats good... she is of course pregnant though... we were supposed to have our babies together... 

*sigh* I can do this...

Emily Irene born February 8 2011 gone but not forgotten.
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Re: I have work at noon.(babies mentioned)

  • {HUGS}  Good luck!  Stay strong!  And lean on your coworkers if you need to!
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  • Good luck..and no worries sometimes we are the ones giving support and sometimes we are the ones who just need support {{{HUGS}}}
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  • And if you cry you cry so what I will punch them if they say something to you
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  • I've been thinking about you all morning knowing that you were going back to work today. You are strong and you will get through it. Even though it may be tough and you may cry, that is okay. You are grieving and everything you feel is normal. Best of luck and keep us posted on how it goes. I will be thinking of you all afternoon.
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  • imagejen629:
    And if you cry you cry so what I will punch them if they say something to you

    Ha! :)

    Thanks ladies... It will be ok... and I will make it through the day... You ladies rock!

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  • imagejenn0021:
    I've been thinking about you all morning knowing that you were going back to work today. You are strong and you will get through it. Even though it may be tough and you may cry, that is okay. You are grieving and everything you feel is normal. Best of luck and keep us posted on how it goes. I will be thinking of you all afternoon.

    Thank you! It's good to know I have people cheering me on... That will help a lot today!

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  • ((hugs)) It will be ok. You can do this. You are a strong person
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  • {{HUGS}} You can do this. You are a strong woman and can do anything you put your mind to!

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  • I've been thinking of you and I hope today goes as smoothly as possible.

    I was terrified to be near my niece after she was born shortly after my m/c but as soon as I held her I was just so absorbed in how wonderful she is. It still hurt but the joy she gave me outweighed the sadness. I pray for this for you.

    We will be here waiting to hear how your day went. You're right, you can do this!

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    I've been thinking of you and I hope today goes as smoothly as possible.

    I was terrified to be near my niece after she was born shortly after my m/c but as soon as I held her I was just so absorbed in how wonderful she is. It still hurt but the joy she gave me outweighed the sadness. I pray for this for you.

    We will be here waiting to hear how your day went. You're right, you can do this!

    Wow thank you. That made me teary eyed.... I hope for that too.

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  • imageAshB62:
    Good luck! If this experience has taught me anything, it's that I'm stronger than I thought I was. You can do it. ((hugs))

    I completely agree with AshB!  You CAN do this ... we're cheering you on! Yes

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  • (((HUGS))) I am so sorry. I can't even imagine how hard it must be.

    My first week back was so awful. I cried almost every hour. For the most part, people just didn't say anything, but the ones I am closest to pulled me aside to talk when I needed to. I hope it goes okay for you!

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  • Good Luck today and just keep your head up.  You'll make it through.  ((HUGS))
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  • You can do it!! ((Hugs))
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  • Thank you so much. I am feeling a little better the closer it gets... It will be ok

    I like knowing I have my own personal cheerleaders thinking about me today while Im at work. I will let you all know how it went tonight. 

    THank you so much and hugs to all of you I hope your days are going alright!

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  • I can't even imagine what that would be like.  Remember,, there is nothing wrong with crying - it's perfectly natural and it helps to release the emotions that you're feeling.  I think that you're already amazingly strong, there is no way I could hold an infant, even now.  ((BIG BIG HUGS))

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  • Good luck to you!  I'll be thinking of you today!
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  • Good luck today.  I am sending lots of T&Ps your way.  ((Big HUGS))
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  • Good luck- I know it's hard to work with little kids every day, but you can do it.  I hope the day went well for you. 

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