Okay ladies, the weekend is nearly here..I know we all want to have a great one! So let it out now and enjoy your friday...GL to all the ladies dealing with IUI's, IVF's, ER's and just about everything else this weekend!
and remember....you are not alone!!
Re: **{flame free IF rants/questions/gripes}**
I feel like Selfish Sally but i still hate that everyone is making a big fuss over my cousins pregnancy and that somehow its going to take away from me
I also hate that my SIL has banned everyone from visiting her until her MS goes away. I just feel like she is using this pg as a crutch and an excuse.
So my rant/gripe is AF started in full force today and I am hating every minute of it!!!! I want to start my IVF cycle already but have to wait a whole month!!!
Have a great weekend ladies!!!
I hate listening to friends/Facebook friends whine about pregnancy nausea/backpain/sleeplessness. I would give anything for that...
I hate that my eggs got old and didn't give me the heads up
I hate when you hint that you have a fertility dx and somone oh so helpfully says "oh yeah, I had issues (or my friend, my sister) and she took Clomid (insert other drug/tx) and she got pregnant". Yes, that can happen. But infertility doesn't mean you don't ovulate - I O just fine but my eggs are crusty. People think they are so wise.
DS born via unplanned C-section at 40w6d
I thought I had gotten through the worst of the IF business...and now I might have thyroid cancer. How much else can I really be expected to manage?
I hate IF.
That made me laugh out loud. What if it lasts for the whole pregnancy??
my rant would be I want to see an RE NOW!! we've only been ttc since nov 2010 and just got dx with PCOS 3/2/11 but since I am not overweight and not IR...my OBGYN has no answers except to say to try for a couple more months on our own and she can give me a referral to see an RE then (I mean she said she can give it now..) but I felt like she was making me feel guilty for wanting to go now or figure stuff out!? After my DX she said we could have a phone appt. to discuss everything and she would order my IR testing..after a week of not hearing from her and me msging her like 3 times she calls be at 6:30 pm.."Sorry to call you after so long, I'm on vacation but I wanted to take the time out..I mean I'm concerned about YOUR anxiet, just relax, I know plenty of women that got pg w/ PCOS, just try a few more cycles, stop stressing over everything, you are young you have LOTS of time"
BAH! She is ALWAYS on vacation, I can never get a hold of her, she makes me feel dumb for wanting to see an RE now AND my PCP had to order the IR b/c my OBGYN never requested for her too, I did! eesh! ::whew:: okay, done
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com
Oh Kathy I am so sorry
T&P's going out to you for healing and restoration!! When do you get a biopsy? (sorry is that rude to ask? if so just slap me LOL) Aww keep us updated hun!! Hope all ends up well...
((hugs))
Aww booo on AF!! Sorry hun, hope this next month IVF is on track on you get your BFP!!! I now hear by order you to slack off all weekend, eat as much chocolate as possible and wear sweats like they're this springs new thang! LOL
TTC#1 for 19 months with PCOS and MFI IUI#3 + injectables = BFP!!!! Beta#1-134(13dpiui) Beta #2-392(15dpiui)
#1 born December 2011
TTC#2 - Beta #1 -51@10dpo Beta#2 -1353 @16dpo
#2 born May 2013
TTC # 3 June 2014 BFP 12-1-14
#3 born August 2015
#4!!!!!!! due June 2017
Amen sistah!! I remember I posted this thing once about all the women on 1st tri and their gripes about MS, back pain etc..and I was like "I totally sympathize with them all, I'm sure going thru all that is so tough but....I WOULD KILL FOR ALL THAT if it meant that I was PG!!"
They all got mad at me and started posting on my post about how I was calling them big fat whiners..which I didnt... ::sigh:: I know what you mean girl...I know what you mean...
I'm so pissed that I didn't get AF Wed. or Thurs...I'm trying to hold out hope that now she'll wait to visit until at least Sunday. I hate that IF makes us have to have a perfect schedule...and if not than we have to wait longer to cycle.
I'm trying to stay positive and know that 1 more cycle waiting is not going to hurt me and I've been looking forward to this trip to visit my brother since the first of the year...so I can't help that it just so happened to land on the weekend I *may* start my period.
However, since I can't even tell if I actually ovulated...I may be in for a big surprise and be riding out another long, never ending cycle... I guess we'll see.
I hate that my body doesn't want to work right...its so frustrating!!
TroubleTTC
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end --Semisonic
**TTC since 04/09, C/P 02/02/10; 4 weeks, 3 days**
**Dx: Anovulation, Hypothryroidism, Mild Endo, Pituitary Adenoma (prolactin issues), PAI-1, MFI **
**7/10: Clomid + TI= BFN**
**3/2/11: 1st RE appointment**
**DH= Morph= 2%, Motility= 30%**
**HSG= All clear!!**
**3/11: Femara + Pregnyl + TI= BFN**
**5/17/11: Laparoscopy / hysteroscopy = mild endo**
**7/11: Novarel + IUI #1= BFN (7mil, 75% motility, 2% morph)**
**8/11: Femara + Novarel + IUI #2= BFN (11mil, 35% motility, 1% morph)**
**11/11: Femara + Novarel + IUI #3= BFN (9mil, 2% morph)**
**Jan 2012: Follistim (75ius) + IUI #4= CANCELLED due to cyst -put on bcp**
**Feb 2012: Follistim (75ius) + Novarel + IUI #4.2= BFFN (2.5mil, 13% motility, 1% morph)**
**Mar 2012: Follistim (100ius) + IUI #5= CANCELLED due to 35mm & 14mm cysts**
**On med break indefinitely...IF Sucks!**
Congratulations Cutebride!! --TWINS!! Congratulations, Luvie, on your sweet boy! Congrats, Jess! So happy for you ladies!
~~Also best of luck to Kati, illinigal, and youngin!~~
((Huge hugs)) Don't start thinking the worst yet, Kathy. I know its hard not to go there...but you did say in your other post its a 15% chance right? That means there's and 85% that there is no cancer.
I'm praying super hard for you!!
TroubleTTC
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end --Semisonic
**TTC since 04/09, C/P 02/02/10; 4 weeks, 3 days**
**Dx: Anovulation, Hypothryroidism, Mild Endo, Pituitary Adenoma (prolactin issues), PAI-1, MFI **
**7/10: Clomid + TI= BFN**
**3/2/11: 1st RE appointment**
**DH= Morph= 2%, Motility= 30%**
**HSG= All clear!!**
**3/11: Femara + Pregnyl + TI= BFN**
**5/17/11: Laparoscopy / hysteroscopy = mild endo**
**7/11: Novarel + IUI #1= BFN (7mil, 75% motility, 2% morph)**
**8/11: Femara + Novarel + IUI #2= BFN (11mil, 35% motility, 1% morph)**
**11/11: Femara + Novarel + IUI #3= BFN (9mil, 2% morph)**
**Jan 2012: Follistim (75ius) + IUI #4= CANCELLED due to cyst -put on bcp**
**Feb 2012: Follistim (75ius) + Novarel + IUI #4.2= BFFN (2.5mil, 13% motility, 1% morph)**
**Mar 2012: Follistim (100ius) + IUI #5= CANCELLED due to 35mm & 14mm cysts**
**On med break indefinitely...IF Sucks!**
Congratulations Cutebride!! --TWINS!! Congratulations, Luvie, on your sweet boy! Congrats, Jess! So happy for you ladies!
~~Also best of luck to Kati, illinigal, and youngin!~~
LOL!!! Deal!!!
I truly hate that IF exists and how it affects us all. I also really hate those stark white BFNs. I hate how most insurances won't cover IF treatments and meds.
I think I am just angry about IF today
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Those three things are definitely high on my gripe list too! Boo!!
9/2010: First visit to RE = CD3 b/w (normal); CD7 ultrasound (normal); DH's SA (normal but morph wasn't analyzed, so doc ordered a 2nd SA); Prog. supplements starting 3dpo for all future cycles
10/2010: SHG to check tubes (normal!) & DH's 2nd SA (normal)
2/2011: Start first Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI cycle = BFN
3/2011: IUI # 2 (Clomid + 50iu Follistim + Estradiol + IUI) = BFP!!!
Beta #1 (14 dpo)= 161
Beta #2 (17 dpo)= 518
Beta #3 (24 dpo)= 7,728
BFP Chart
Ryder arrived a month early on November 28, 2011!
BFP Chart 2.0 - First cycle trying without RE intervention!
Oh hun, I know your mind is just swirling with bad thoughts but try not to think that way. I am praying that the nodules are non-cancerous!!
| Purse Blog |
I agree.
I hate how I feel so disconnected to the board lately b/c of our break. I hate this feeling.
I had called to pay my balance at the RE's office and my balance got higher cause insurance didn't cover x,y,and z so that's where my griping came from today!
| Purse Blog |
Praying so hard for you, hon!! (((hugs)))
I hate that my IF might be coming between my BFF and I. She is currently pregnant and I am so excited for her and her husband. They will be great parents. However, lately I feel like she is pulling away and it hurts.
I CAN'T stand this stupid BCP related headache anymore. It wouldn't be so bad if it was just a small annoying headache, but this is like "I want to smash my head on the desk in an attempt to alleviate the throbbing" pain.
RE Nurse said we could start over with another BCP, but I was like "helll no" I just want to plow through this. 6 more days to go....
aww that does not sound fun. Sorry I hate BCP so much! I have 2 days left. I feel bloated, boobs so sore for 3 weeks so ready for it to be over. I hope you get some relief soon.
I hate that every time I find out that friend or family member is pregnant (which has happened 4 times in the last month!), instead of being super happy for them the way I would have in the past, the very first emotion I experience is jealousy, followed by sadness. I hate feeling like a selfish person because I can't truly revel in the happiness of someone I care about. In addition to many other things, IF has taken that joy away from me.
Mrs. Little Drew 10/25/08
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TTC since 1/2010 - Dx with Stage IV Endo
11/10 - 100mg Clomid + trigger + IUI + Estradiol + Progesterone = BFN
12/10 - Unmedicated cycle due to RE not doing treatments in December = BFN
1/11 - 100mg Clomid + trigger + IUI + Estradiol + Progesterone = BFN
2/11 - Same sh!t, different month = IUI cancelled due to no response = BFN
IVF #1 - Start stims (Follistim) 5/10, add in Ganirelix 5/14
ER 5/21 - 13 retrieved, 7 mature, 5 fertilized; ET 5/26 - transferred one perfect 1AA blast. 3 snowbabies.
Beta 6/3 - 15.8; Beta 6/7 - 21.8; Beta 6/10 - 7
FET - Transferred 1 AA blast 7/11. Beta 7/20 - 311! Beta 7/22 - 784!! First u/s 8/10
*~PAIFW/SAIFW~*
IF SUCKS!
That's the extent of the rant I have the energy for today after yesterday. Still feeling so defeated.
Diagnosed PCOS 2/07, TTC #1 since 8/09
11/10 - Clomid Round 1 = BFN
12/10 - Clomid Round 2 = BFN
1/11 - Voluntary Break = BFN (duh)
2/11 - Clomid Round 3 = BFN
3/11 - Femara + IUI = BFP * Beta#1=56 * Beta#2=266
*Cautiously expecting baby girls on November 28, 2011*
I hate how all the IF meds have made my face break out like I am a pizza faced 16 year old!! It would be fine if it was followed by a BFP. But no!! I am a 30 something with crazy acne that makeup no longer covers.
I feel the exact same way!! I am not a selfish person in nature, but lately, I have to distance myself from pregnant friends until I am emotionally OK to be around them. I am so very happy for them, but I just want to cry my eyes out and scream!!
GL to you!!
I admit it. I'm one of those people. I think for me, the reason why I can't stand the word "preppers" or "preggo" is because it's so cutsie. I'm not a particularly cutsie type. I also get uppity when people actually say "OMG". Just reminds me of something a 12 year old would say.
This is my first flame free rant over here on 3t, so here goes!
I am so unbelievably frustrated that my body won't just do what it is supposed to do. I am an u/s tech and I scan people all day long who have beautiful functioning ovaries. It drives me crazy!!!
Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. -Philo
Baby N conceived after 1 miscarriage and more than 2 years of TTC. Diagnosis was low sperm count. We found success after 3 months of anastrozole to increase DH's testosterone and one IUI.
Some charts
I'm stupid. You're smart. I was wrong. You were right. You're the best. I'm the worst. You're very good-looking. I'm not attractive. - Happy Gilmore
I hate living in Canada sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I love my country, but the wait time for and RE here is ridiculous! We're on 6 months now of waiting. I hope to get a call soon.
I hate how every little symptom I have after I O makes me think I am pg. It happens every month, but every month I still get my hopes up.
I hate how jealous I am of everyone elses pregnancies and babies and children.
I hate hating things. Before all of this IF crap I was such an optimistic happy person who liked everything.
Started TTC Aug '09
Me: 24, HSG=clear, normal hormone levels, regular cycles, insulin resistance
DH: 25, SA normal
Dx Unexplained Infertility Oct '11
3 cycles of Clomid w/ TI =BFN
IUI#1 Jan. 23 w/ Clomid =BFN
IUI#2 Feb. 19 w/ Clomid =BFN
IUI#3 Mar. 16 w/ Clomid= Apr. 1 beta=8, very faint BFP w/ ClearBlue test...Apr. 2 @ 9pm-BFN w/ ClearBlue...Apr. 3- spotting and cramping...Apr. 5, confirmed c/p.
IUI#4 May. 16 w/ Clomid =BFN
IUI#5 Jun. 11 w/ Clomid =BFN
IUI#6 Jul. 6 w/ Gonal-F 75units + Ovidrel =BFN
TI w/ Gonal-F 75units + Ovidrel =BFN
IUI#7 Aug. 28 w/ Gonal-F 125units + Ovidrel =BFN
Break cycle=BFN
IUI#8 Oct. 20 w/ Gonal-F 125units + Ovidrel + Progesterone =BFN
IUI#9 Nov. 13 w/ Gonal-F 150units + Ovidrel + Acupuncture + Progesterone =BFN
IVF#1-- ER Mar. 3: 9R, 7M, 7F. ET scheduled for Mar. 8
A CACKLE A DAY