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not looking good- venting

Started spotting today.  Am 11dp3dt and don't have my beta until Thursday.  AF should come tomorrow so I'm fairly certain our IVF didn't work. Am heartbroken. We are completely out of options...end of the road for financial reasons. DH thinks I should just chill until we know for sure but this feeling of dread and the circumstances are identical to my last failed cycle.  I feel such a panic, like my dream of having a bio child are over...heck my dream of having any child is done, at least for a few years.  We spent every single thing we had on all the treatments so far.  Sorry for the vent- I'm just so sad today.
Married - 8/2009 Diagnosed right away as sub-fertile. PCOS for me and low motility, morphology for DH. On treatment of glucophage and supplements for PCOS. Completely OOP. 4 IUI's - clomid- all BFN's IVF #1- 13 fertilized, no frozens- BFN IVF #2- ER 2/21, 18 retrieved, 12 fertilized. ET 2/24 - 2 beauties. No frozens. BFN. IUI #5 using leftover meds- BFN Trying new meds for PCOS. SAIF & PAIF and prayers welcome! Entering the world of adoption. Choosing happiness and love and focusing on the blessings we do have instead of the things that we don't.

Re: not looking good- venting

  • I am so so sorry!!!!  Big ((hugs))  Don't apologize for venting!  IF sucks!

    But on the other hand, remember many PAIF/SAIF ladies have had spotting in early pregnancy!  Don't give up all hope yet! 

    Good luck with beta!

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  • I am so sorry sweets.  IF sucks and is draining in so many ways.  (((hugs)))
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  • I am so sorry! I am praying that AF doesn't show and you get a great beta!
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    DH - sperm found! Seems to produce only for a few days every 70 days!
    Over 1 million in cryo in 15 vials over 6 samples
    IVF #1 - 1 beautiful expanded blast transferred, 4 snowbabies - beta #1 11/30/11 = BFFN
    FET #1, transfered 2 embies 2/16/12 = BFFN; 1 snowbaby left in cryo
    IVF #2 + CGH = 4 genetically normal embies on ice. FET September 26th
    SAIF/PAIF always welcome

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  • I am so so sorry.  ((hugs))
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  • I'm so sorry...vent away...huge (((hugs)))!
    TTC since 11/09
    Two C/P and Lots of Tests
    Me = LPD + cancer survivor, DH = low count and morphology
    IUIs #1-5, January 2011 - June 2011 = BFN
    IVF #1 in July/August 2011 = BFP!!!!!
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  • Dont' give up until the beta says you have to..

    Big Big hugs!!!

    Renee*

    Renee- 37 DH - Chad - 39
    2/06 - surprise pregnancy - twins
    3/06 - m/c 1st baby at 6 weeks 
    5/06 -2nd baby had no heartbeat at 14 wks.
    D&E - Bled out. Blood transfusions. Week in ICU - Cheated Death!
    Diagnosis: Blood clotting and bleeding disorder, immune issues, & cervical stenosis
    5/10 - 1st IVF cycle - BFN
    FET - 10/12/10 - BFN
    1/11 - IVF with PGD - BFN
    IVF - May - BFN
    6/11 New RE - fingers crossed!
    9/11 - IVF - 4 transferred
    10/13 - BFP!!
    It's a boy! Clint Michael, Due in June!!!

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  • (((hugs)))

    I am so sorry you're going through this. IF sucks! I hope AF stays away and you get great beta results!!

    After 3 1/2 years of hope and prayers, our sweet baby girl is here! Lilypie First Birthday tickers
  • I'm sorry, but I wouldn't give up hope just yet! 

    FWIW I thought for sure I was getting my period last week.  I had cramps and felt exactly the same way all I felt in all my other cycles.  I always thought I would somehow "feel different" with a BFP.  I even texted JLYNN the day before complaining about yet another failed cycle.  Low and behold, my beta came back + and with a pretty high number for 9dp5dt!  I'm not a "blow smoke person" but thought it might help to tell my story.  I hope your beta also brings a surprise.

    TTC since April 2009 dx = PCOS; TTC History for DS - A FET miracle after 7 IUIs; 2 fresh transfers, and 1 other FET resulted in BFNs. Hoping and Praying for baby #2: Cycle 1 - FET; November 2012 BFN Next Steps - who knows? Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
  • Kem, you have PM.
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  • I am so sorry you are having to go through this IF sucks!! ((HUGS))


    After 4 years, 3 failed IUIs and 2 failed IVFs our surprise miracle is here!
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    TTC # 2 BFP 03/02/13 = CP, BFP 05/14/13 = CP, BFP 08/09/13 = CP

    RPL testing = normal

    TI Cycle #1, 50 clomid days 3-7, 150 iu Follistim days 8-11 = BFP! EDD May 22, 2014

    Betas: 13 DPO = 79, 15 DPO = 149, 19 DPO = 788, 22 DPO = 2031

  • Don't give up!  4 days after my transfer I had a tiny red clot (freaked me out), then spotting on and off.  I was so sure that I was getting my period I didn't bother to test.  I went in for my beta (12dp5dt) and it was in the 300s!  There is still hope for you!
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  • I am so sorry...

    do you think it might be implantation spotting.  My nurse told me I ould not start a period due to the PIO shots even if i wasnt pregnant.  I would need to stop the shot before it would start. 

    Praying you get a surprise beta result!!

     

    I am AMA and all tests on H came back normal
    3 failed IVF with OE and 2 failed frozen DE cycles
    Last fresh hail mary DE cycle starting Feb 2013
    PAIF/SAIF always welcome
  • I'm so sorry about spotting. Hang in there.
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  • I am so, so sorry. (((hugs)))

    SAIF/PAIF Always Welcome!
    TTC #1 May 2008
    6 Rounds Clomid, 1 Round Femera-BFN
    4 IUIs (1 Clomid, 1 Femara, 2 injectables)-BFN
    February 2010-Laparoscopy
    4 months of Lupron
    August 2010-IUI #5-BFN
    October 2010-IUI #6-BFN
    IVF #1 November 2010-BFN
    IVF #2 March 2011-BFN
  • I hope the spotting is implantation bleeding and not AF. Keep your chin up. Try to remain positive : )
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  • big (((hugs)))
    SAIFW
    TTC since 2008 dx PCOS & MFI
    Clomid/Femara no "O"
    IVF #1 BFN
    FET #1 cancelled for biopsy
    FET #1.2 c/p, July 2012 c/p
    IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
    IVF #2 ER 12/1, Freeze all due to OHSS
    FET #2.1 cancelled due to DVT risk, FET #2.2 Jan 2013
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  • Don't give up yet!!

    I'm keeping you in my prayers.

    Keep me updated.

    Wedding Fall 2007 Off OCP's since 9/08-started with BBT charts Saw Ob/gyn May 2009 Blood work normal except single copy of MTHFR Clomid 50mg May 2009 Clomid 50mg + IUI June 2009 Femara 5mg + IUI July 2009 Normal HSG July 2009 Femara 5mg + ovidrel+IUI August 2009 Femara 5mg +ovidrel + IUI September 2009 November 2009-normal lap December 2009-met with RE December/January-Injectible med cycle with IUI-Abnormal sperm morpology found-only 0-1% normal All Head defects. Jan/Feb 2010 1st IVF with ICSI-5 week chemical pregnancy :( Feb 2010-male infertility doc says DH's anatomy and blood work are normal so nothing he can do. :( FET July 2010-BFP! Twin m/c @ 5.5 wks :( Dec/Jan 2011 IVF #2 Only 4 eggs retrieved-Ganirelix dose messed up BFFN Feb/March 2011 IVF #3 ER 3/9 9 eggs, 7 fertilized, ET 3/14, No frosties. BFN IVF #4 ER 8/22 9R,7F ET 8/25-3 embies, 1 frostie! Beta 9/2= 54, 9/6=274, 9/8=625, 9/12=2953, 9/16 greater than 10,000. B/G TWINS born April 2012 @ 36wks & 1 day! July 2014-going back for the frozen embryo! ET 7/28, heartbeat seen at 6wks1day with SCH. Miscarriage confirmed at 6wks4days





  • I'm sorry hun (((hugs))).  I really hope that somehow this all works out and it isn't the end of the road for you. 
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