I know we have all felt like this, but I feel like this more and more:(. I love DH but he is driving me nuts too, work has me crazed, this IF cr*p has me nuts. I feel like I've had it. I know this is not a great place to be in 2 days before I start stims for my IVF, but I feel so worn out already. No real point to this point. Just a vent. I don't know what I'd do without is board!!!
*SAIF* always welcome
TTC since October 2007
Dx with Unexplained IF
IUI #1-3 w/clomid: Jan-March 2010...BFN
IUI #4 w/injectables: April 2010...BFP
1st u/s: 5/17-one little perfect hb@7w2d, 2nd u/s: 6/5-no hb@10w;
missed miscarriage: 6/10 d&c
IUI #5-7 w/injectables: Sept 2010-Jan 2011...BFFN
IVF #1: Feb/March 2011...pretty please let this work!!!!
Expecting twin boys!!!!!

Re: Ever just wanna run away?
I could have written this post tonight. I feel the exact same way and I haven't even had any treatments!
I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of thinking about IF. I'm just tired.
TTC #1 since Oct 2006 with severe MFI.
Summer/Fall 2011 - DH on clomid. Helped with morphology and motility, but count still under 1 million.
February 2011 - First RE appointment to discuss options.
March 2011 - We aren't sure what we are going to do right now. DH isn't sure about DS.
~SAIFW~
Today I got our of the car to go into the office and just kept walking. I walked and walked like Forest Gump. After an hour I felt better : ) Fresh air. Perspective. Sometimes just taking a break away from the norm is enough to make you want it back.
I wish it were nice enough to walk outside.
I've been feeling the same way - sometimes with Dh and sometimes without. IF is so stressful!
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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YES!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so with ya!! Have you seen that Geico commercial where the guy has been living under a rock?? I told my husband I was taking Spikey and moving there!!
On a serious note, I'm mentally exhausted! I have had a headache since Friday from crying so much..
Take care ladies and big big hugs to us all!
Renee*
2/06 - surprise pregnancy - twins
3/06 - m/c 1st baby at 6 weeks
5/06 -2nd baby had no heartbeat at 14 wks.
D&E - Bled out. Blood transfusions. Week in ICU - Cheated Death!
Diagnosis: Blood clotting and bleeding disorder, immune issues, & cervical stenosis
5/10 - 1st IVF cycle - BFN
FET - 10/12/10 - BFN
1/11 - IVF with PGD - BFN
IVF - May - BFN
6/11 New RE - fingers crossed!
9/11 - IVF - 4 transferred
10/13 - BFP!!
It's a boy! Clint Michael, Due in June!!!
Yes I will have my bags packed tonight.
DH is driving me a little crazy too, being all nitpicky about stupid things and being all mopey about work. My job is crazy right now, my boss is on maternity leave and there is no one helping me so I'm doing 2 jobs and we're going through restructuring. And I'm trying to get together with some girlfriends but they all have little kids and we cannot find a night when we can all meet up without all of their kids coming.
We also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And HOPE does not dissappoint.
Romans 5:3-5
~Matt and Jen~
Married August 26, 2006
TTC since June 2008
Severe MFI
IVF #1 Feb. 2011 = BFN
IVF #2 (Long Lupron) May 2011 = BFP!!!
Our sweet little girl, born January 26, 2012
Time for #2!
IVF #1 (Long Lupron) July 2013 = BFP!!!
Beta #1 (8/1) 203! Beta #2 (8/8) 3,677! 1st u/s scheduled for 8/15!
Speaking of running away, I just read this - https://blog.travel.sympatico.ca/2011/02/the-60000-fertility-plan.html
I hope you feel better soon. ((hugs))
Absolutely. I go to the movies by myself on Sunday afternoons quite a bit. I really enjoy being alone sometimes and a movie is perfect b/c for those 2 hours, I'm away from reality.
((hugs))
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1
I'm assuming this story is real, but it smacks of "just relax and take a vacation, and you'll get pregnant."
I want to get away from everyone and everything right now. Maybe DH can come
Early loss 10/08
Lap 1/09
IVF #1 "natural IVF" - 1 egg retrieved, missed m/c
Tried several mini-stim cycles with no response
Switched clinics - dx'd as carrier for Fragile X
IVF #2 MDL protocol Jan/Feb converted to IUI, BFN
IVF #2 take 2: Antagonist, one embie, BFN
IVF #3: Antagonist, no fertilization
One last ditch effort at OE IVF (antagonist with Clomid) cancelled
DE cycle #1 Jan/Feb 2011, BFP, ectopic
DE cycle #2 June/July 2011 - BFP
10/28/11 Baby girl lost at 17 weeks due to pre-term labor. We love and miss you.
DE cycle #3 June/July 2012 - BFP, twins, both heartbeats stopped, D&C
2 frosties but don't know what's next
FET Dec 2012: BFP! Praying this one sticks for the long haul!
I used to tell my DH that I wanted to run away from it all. He would flat-out tell me NO and that he would have no one if I left him. I offered for him to come along!
Sorry you are having a bad day. I hope it gets better!