This is all so surreal

Stuckinthemiddle · February 2011

Had my first Ob appointment today. The first thing the Ob nurse tells us is how much their delivery fee was, and I just started to tear up. I told her that I wasn't up for having this conversation yet, as I am still not able to wrap my head around the fact that I'm pregnant. She was really nice about it, and was able to take us downstairs to have an u/s to be sure there was still something in my ute.

The u/s was cool. This was the first one that was up on my belly and not up in my nether regions - so that was a first. Also, the embryo is measuring at 8 weeks and 1 day, which is exactly how far along I am - so that was good. The heartbeat was 160 - I don't know what that means except that the tech said it was good.

The rest of the appointment went well, its just so strange that this is really happening. I'm still taking everything day to day, but we were forced to have to think ahead - way ahead of where I am comfortable with. DH and I walked out of there with a bag full of diaper coupons, baby magazines, flyers on breast feeding/anesthesia/car seats, etc. This is the stuff I've been avoiding for the past 2 1/2 years. Everyone kept saying "congratulations," and I swear that every time I hear it, I think they must be talking to someone else. But I think its starting to finally sink in. We are pregnant!

So I decided that its time I create a ticker, and I am going to stop carrying my lucky socks from the IF exchange around in my purse. Its starting to get gross in there, actually. Thanks for reading,

DrVWife · February 2011

I love your ticker! So excited to see it there!

It takes time for the reality to sink in...but it does. It is hard to think ahead when I minds are so scarred by IF. In my experience, it does get easier. Congrats again to you!

Romeo&Denise · February 2011

Awwwww! I soooo hope to be joining you at the OB! I am 2 days behind you and I have a 3rd u/s with my RE tomorrow afternoon. I'm praying that the little bean is still in there holding on tightly and I get the green light to move forward soon.

etoyama · February 2011

Hooray for having a ticker!! I totally identify with not being ready to talk about actual baby things yet. It's just too scary. Too scary! I assume by the time we're oh, 39 weeks or so we'll be ready

katerena · February 2011

I am SO happy for you!!!

Sunshine05 · February 2011

Believe it, you are pregnant... and that ticker looks good on you.

renafaith · February 2011

So happy things went well with your appointment! Being so educated about IF and our bodies, we naturally pick up all the things that could (and do) go wrong. I think it scares us into not being able to enjoy it. I was thinking about that today...getting jealous of those people who tell the world they are pg before they even get a blood test at a doctor's office.

Love the ticker, by the way!

Yellow_Daisy · February 2011

My first OB nurse visit was such a blur! She kept asking me all these questions and telling me about classes and such. It was crazy and overwhelming.

I have a weird question, but what's a delivery fee? Is that just your insurance co-pay to the doctor?

LCS040209 · February 2011

I totally agree with you. We take it day by day and cannot think far ahead yet! I hope that will eventually get easier though. Everything sounds perfect and congrats on your ticker!

cbubbles2 · February 2011

I'm so glad it went well! I'm loving the little raspberry in your ticker!

kdussault · February 2011

awww, so excited for you! I have my first OB appt tomorrow... I don't believe we have an ultrasound, I hope not because DH decided not to take the day off since they said no ultrasound (he has limited days he can take, so I don't encourage it unless necessary). I would LOVE to see our LO again, but I wouldn't want him to miss it... That ticker looks amazing on you by the way

Stuckinthemiddle · February 2011

I guess the delivery fee is what they charge if you don't have insurance. To be honest, after the u/s, she didn't bring it up again, and I am not concerned about it because I do have insurance. It was a really weird thing to start off with, no?

I'm glad I'm not the only one who's feeling a little overwhelmed. Thanks for the support!