Pregnant after a Loss

Early pg girls...

Is anyone else just worried all the time? It's still too early for me to get a u/s, but I keep worrying constantly that something is wrong. I've realized that it's not even so much I really BELIEVE something is wrong as I'm just struggling to think anything could be okay. I know, rationally, there's nothing I could do if something is wrong, but I'm anxious anyway. Anyone else? I feel crazy.

Re: Early pg girls...

  • I feel the same. I want to take a HPT every hour to make sure I am still pg. I have ICs and I have taken one every morning. There is a line, but I wish it was getting much darker. I feel like it should be getting a lot darker? This is consuming me. I am so afraid of a CP as I am not even 4 weeks yet.

    When I got my BFP Friday I was very at ease and thought I'd stress less. Although I am feeling more positive than last time, I still have a hard time thinking I will be pregnant in a few months. I feel like I am still in the 2ww and *hoping* to get a BFP and it won't seem real til I get a good u/s - in 3-4 weeks!

    You're not crazy - I think it is common (I hope it is at least!). And thats why were here for the support and to share experiences. I hope your worrying will subside some and the next weeks will go by fast for you! Remember, "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby!".

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  • i know one thing that has helped is  phrase used on this board that someone shared with me "today i am pregnant and i love my baby".  its so hard not to worry, and i still worry constantly, but you have to just envision your LO growing in there and know that its okay!

    positive thoughts (and its easier said than done!)!!!

     

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  • Yep, I had a meltdown yesterday at work b/c I thought there was something wrong. For no reason at all! So I got home and used the doppler and I'll probably be good for 2-3 days and then it will happen again. Just gotta take it day by day.
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  • imagetew213:

    I feel the same. I want to take a HPT every hour to make sure I am still pg. I have ICs and I have taken one every morning. There is a line, but I wish it was getting much darker. I feel like it should be getting a lot darker? This is consuming me. I am so afraid of a CP as I am not even 4 weeks yet.

    When I got my BFP Friday I was very at ease and thought I'd stress less. Although I am feeling more positive than last time, I still have a hard time thinking I will be pregnant in a few months. I feel like I am still in the 2ww and *hoping* to get a BFP and it won't seem real til I get a good u/s - in 3-4 weeks!

    You're not crazy - I think it is common (I hope it is at least!). And thats why were here for the support and to share experiences. I hope your worrying will subside some and the next weeks will go by fast for you! Remember, "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby!".

    If it helps at all, I took a test last week (11dpo) and it wasn't dark. I took one today, and it was as dark as the control line. I think it takes awhile to build up. ... My biggest fear right now is ectopic, probably since that's the next "unknown". I keep thinking "is that a cramp, or pain?" "is that my shoulder or neck hurting?" I know I'm probably making myself nuts but I'm so SCARED this won't be okay.
  • I think we've all had our moments.  Mine were when I was nearing the gestation of my loss and then again both times I spotted (~4wks & ~6wks).  There is definitely a part of me waiting for this house of cards to come tumbling down.

    For me there was a point where I had to take a deep breath and do what I can to enjoy this pregnancy as long as I'm lucky enough to have it.  Its hard to have faith that things are going right when we've all had them go so terribly wrong before, but that's what each and every one of us on PGAL has to do.  I just try to be as proactive as I can while recognizing that the outcome at this point is out of my hands. 

    I just make a point to be thankful each and every day that we were able to make it through.  One day at a time.  Today you are pregnant, and you love your babySmile

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  • I feel exactly the same, I'm in the bathroom every time I feel anything checking to make sure it wasn't a MC.

    And, I have taken 3 HPTs, 1 urine test at regular MD's office, and 1 Beta hCG in Fertility Specialists office. I told DH that I want to POAS everyday just to make sure it is all going okay; he shook his head and said I am BSC! Little does he know that I lied-I want to POAS every time I pee. BTW-I've only known I am pregnant for 6 days {5 tests in 6 days this could be a very costly hobby}

    H&H and Sticky Babies to everyone :) 

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  • I've been having brown spotting since 4w2d, so I've been a nervous wreck.  Everytime I go to the bathroom, I'm convinced that I'm going to find bright red blood.

    I just keep trying to picture my baby growing and focus on the positive signs like good betas and sore boobs!

     

     

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  • My lack of symptoms have caused constant worry.  I'm hoping the worry will subside a bit with a favorable u/s on Tuesday but until then, I have it in my head that we're going to see an empty gestational sac.  The negativity and worry is driving me nuts.
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  • You are definitely not alone. I worry every minute, every second of each day.  I cannot wait until I can hear a heartbeat and get some relief.  I don't think worrying will end until I have a baby in my arms, but hopefully it will get better.  PgAL is not easy.  You are not crazy.  Hugs

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  • yep. Everytime I feel a weird discharge or sensation, I run to the bathroom to pee.  It is never anything, thank God. I feel like a freak sometimes.

    I'll be scared/worried until this one pops out!

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  • imageshanna82:
    Yep, I had a meltdown yesterday at work b/c I thought there was something wrong. For no reason at all! So I got home and used the doppler and I'll probably be good for 2-3 days and then it will happen again. Just gotta take it day by day.

    This is exactly how it was (and sometimes still is) for me.  Keep in mind "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby."

    ((HUGS))

  • I have to agree with everyone else on here.  I think I will be paranoid until the next ultrasound, the next weekly milestone, and until I'm holding my baby.  It's so difficult to get my hopes up after going through a miscarriage.  I had my beta quant level tested last Wednesday, and the nurse told me if the level was above 1,500 they would do a sono.  So, Friday I had a sono at about 4w5d.  It was encouraging to see a gestational sac where it should be, and I'm going back next Friday for another sono since it's still so early.  Last time I miscarried at 6w0d, so passing that with this pregnancy will be a milestone, although I still know it won't be "safe" then either.  So at this point we all just have to have faith that our bodies are doing their best, and keep holding on until our next u/s!  Good luck and lots of positive thoughts and prayers to you all!
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    imagetew213:

    I feel the same. I want to take a HPT every hour to make sure I am still pg. I have ICs and I have taken one every morning. There is a line, but I wish it was getting much darker. I feel like it should be getting a lot darker? This is consuming me. I am so afraid of a CP as I am not even 4 weeks yet.

    When I got my BFP Friday I was very at ease and thought I'd stress less. Although I am feeling more positive than last time, I still have a hard time thinking I will be pregnant in a few months. I feel like I am still in the 2ww and *hoping* to get a BFP and it won't seem real til I get a good u/s - in 3-4 weeks!

    You're not crazy - I think it is common (I hope it is at least!). And thats why were here for the support and to share experiences. I hope your worrying will subside some and the next weeks will go by fast for you! Remember, "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby!".

    If it helps at all, I took a test last week (11dpo) and it wasn't dark. I took one today, and it was as dark as the control line. I think it takes awhile to build up. ... My biggest fear right now is ectopic, probably since that's the next "unknown". I keep thinking "is that a cramp, or pain?" "is that my shoulder or neck hurting?" I know I'm probably making myself nuts but I'm so SCARED this won't be okay.

    Thanks! I think I will hold off a few more days and *hopefully* get a darker line. I also fear ectopic, last time as well. I get these sharpish pains on my sides (both though, more on the left) kinda by my groin/hip area. All this worrying does just drive us nuts, I wish it was easy to stop. T&P are with you and your LO!

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  • It's normal for PgAL, unfortunately :/  For what its worth, at least for me anyway, it did get better as time went on, with each milestone I was fortunate and lucky enough to get past. GL!!
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  • imagetew213:
    imagebananarama91:
    imagetew213:

    I feel the same. I want to take a HPT every hour to make sure I am still pg. I have ICs and I have taken one every morning. There is a line, but I wish it was getting much darker. I feel like it should be getting a lot darker? This is consuming me. I am so afraid of a CP as I am not even 4 weeks yet.

    When I got my BFP Friday I was very at ease and thought I'd stress less. Although I am feeling more positive than last time, I still have a hard time thinking I will be pregnant in a few months. I feel like I am still in the 2ww and *hoping* to get a BFP and it won't seem real til I get a good u/s - in 3-4 weeks!

    You're not crazy - I think it is common (I hope it is at least!). And thats why were here for the support and to share experiences. I hope your worrying will subside some and the next weeks will go by fast for you! Remember, "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby!".

    If it helps at all, I took a test last week (11dpo) and it wasn't dark. I took one today, and it was as dark as the control line. I think it takes awhile to build up. ... My biggest fear right now is ectopic, probably since that's the next "unknown". I keep thinking "is that a cramp, or pain?" "is that my shoulder or neck hurting?" I know I'm probably making myself nuts but I'm so SCARED this won't be okay.

    Thanks! I think I will hold off a few more days and *hopefully* get a darker line. I also fear ectopic, last time as well. I get these sharpish pains on my sides (both though, more on the left) kinda by my groin/hip area. All this worrying does just drive us nuts, I wish it was easy to stop. T&P are with you and your LO!

    I get this exactly! I posted about it on the November board and a few other said that they have it too. It calms me for a minute and then I worry again. I've also been cold on and off (or else sweating), and sometimes, my lower back aches. It's all scary, I wish I just had a definite answer!

    Thanks to everyone for your responses, I appreciate them.

  • This is exactly how I feel. I especially feel insecure because I had a missed miscarriage so no spotting means nothing to me. My mom asked me tonight if I was excited for my ultrasound on Tuesday and I said no, I'm terrified. It's just the nature of being PGAL, I guess.

    I try to think like you that there's nothing I can do so I just have to be happy that today I'm pregnant and I love my baby and always will no matter what happens. 

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    This is exactly how I feel. I especially feel insecure because I had a missed miscarriage so no spotting means nothing to me. My mom asked me tonight if I was excited for my ultrasound on Tuesday and I said no, I'm terrified. It's just the nature of being PGAL, I guess.

    I try to think like you that there's nothing I can do so I just have to be happy that today I'm pregnant and I love my baby and always will no matter what happens. 

    Pretty much this in it's entirety. I'm still in shock over my BFP and I was awfully glad the digital read "pregnant" this morning. I was up almost all night worried. This is my third pregnancy and I am absolutely terrified of miscarriage. But I have to have faith that this is an entirely new situation and that everything is going to be okay. I'm heading in for betas this morning and keeping my fingers crossed for great big doubling numbers. 

    After two losses, a rainbow arrived! DD born 11.5.11
    Dx with severe Asherman's syndrome after a botched PP D&C (pursuing med mal)
    Hysteroscopy Oct '13, not enough progress 
    Hysteroscopy Jan '14, given an end-of-the-road diagnosis
    Joined International Asherman's Association April '14 
    Not ready to give up yet.
    Hysteroscopy with Dr. Isaacson (an expert in the USA) 6.2.14: Good prognosis, at least 50% of cavity open.
    Repeat hysteroscopy scheduled with Dr. I on 6.16.14. Great progress. Unbenched!!!!
    Discussing actively TTC with DH after the heartache of the last year. We're both reeling.
     
    Please, please, please. 
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