TTC After a Loss 6 Months+

XP: Only 1 :-(

I accidentally posted this on the main board, when I meant to post it here - so here is a repost.

Only 1 embie has made it.  They were able to try to fertilize 4 out of the 5, but only one actually did.  I dont' know much as I only talked to the nurse and she hadn't talked to the dr yet or the embryologists.  She will have the dr. meeting at noon. 

For now the plan is to have the transfer on Sunday - she will call me back with the time. 

I am just devastated and can't believe this.  This was our one and ONLY shot at IVF.  It would take us 2 years (at least) to save up for an IVF cycle and by then I will be almost 40.  If things are this bad now, they won't get better.

I know I have crappy old eggs and DH's morph sucks, but I really thought with ICSI we had a better chance. 

I am just devastated.  Crying   Any thoughts and prayers you can spare for me and my little embie, I would really appreciate.  Thanks. 

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Re: XP: Only 1 :-(

  • You and your little embie are totally in my thoughts. GO little one, GO!

    12 long, hard years of TTC-
    Miscarriages, losses, lots of treatments & drugs & IVF


    Natural BFP (WTF?!) - 06/04/11 ~ lots of complication and drama, but sweet baby Adele born 02/07/12!

    BFP #million -another girl for us! EDD - 05-08-15 (but will come early)

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  • I'm so sorry.  I hope this one embie is all you need.  (((hugs)))
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  • Come on embie!  Sending good thoughts your way!
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  • Sending hugs, hoping that one is a rockstar.

    Jenn

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    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

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  • I'm sorry hun.  I hope the 1 that made it is an awesome lil embryo that turns into your sticky baby.  I'm sure this is hard news for you to take in.  You're in my T&P!
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  • I'm so sorry.  I'm thinking of you and hoping that one embe is all you need.
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  • I am so sorry that only one fertilized. I really hope that the one embie will stick. T&P that this is your take home baby!
    m/c 7/17/10
    Dx: MFI- 3% morph
    IUIs: Gonal-F + Ovidrel + b2b IUI= BFNs
    IVF with ICSI= BFP! EDD 11/25/11
    3/18- Beta #1 452! 3/20- Beta #2 1,026!! 3/27- First u/s- TWINS!
    Our twin boys arrived at 36w5d due to IUGR and a growth discordance

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  • Oh honey, *big hugs* I'm so so sorry. It only takes one, we all know that and it seems so cliche to say again but I hope you can find peace in that. I hope you are able to relax a little because that will help with implantation. I have nothing but hope for you! You deserve it.
  • Biggest hugs ever!  I hope that one embrio is a super rock star and gives you, your forever baby!

    Also, maybe you should think about applying to the Cade foundation Family building grant... If you do all the stuff soon you can be up for it and use it in Sept if you get it.  You have to hurry though.  

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  • I am so sorry. I can't even imagine how frustrating and disappointing that must be. I'll be crossing my fingers for that one embie to keep growing and to be all that you need. ((hugs))
  • Broken Heart I am so sorry. I will keep my fingers crossed for you! ((hugs))
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  • I am so sorry sweetie. I know how disappointing a bad ER and fert report can be. Huge hugs and hoping that one little sucker is a rock star.
  • Hugs, I?m so sorry. Fingers crossed that this one embie will be THE one!

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    BFP #4 12/10/12 MMC 1/14/13 (9w3d) D&C 1/15/13 EDD 8/16/13 

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  • I'm sorry. I hope this one embie is it. Hugs.


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  • I am so sorry :(

    I have told this story before but when I was cycling for DD there was a woman in my small group who had one embie. It was the only one that fertilized and grew and she ended up having a healthy baby nine months later. She was 40 years old. I am keeping my fingers crossed that you have the same happy ending.

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  • I'm so sorry. I'm praying things work out (((HUGS)))

    TTC Since Oct 08 BFP #1- 1/23/09, missed m/c 2/26/09 BFP #2- 9/8/09, natural m/c 9/16/09 BFP #3- 4/13/10, missed m/c 5/26/10 BFP #4- 4/6/11 beta#1 at 12dpo-133 prog-55.7, beta#2 at 16dpo- 861 DD born 12/8/2011 BFP#5- 11/23/12 EDD 7/25/13 Dx- Uterine septum (removed Aug 2010), endo, MTHFR C677t hetero, Factor II hetero, Low Protein S Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I hope your one embie is all it takes. Big hugs and lots of luck!
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  • Come on embie, you're a superhero, you can do it!
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  • Lots of prayers, I'm definitely praying that "it only takes one ".
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    I'm sorry but i'm hoping all you need is that one eggie!  I'm glad you got 1!!  GL!!!

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  • What a rollercoaster. I'm sorry it didn't go the way you'd hoped. I hope this is the magical embie. Stick stick stick!
    BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
    TTC #1 since 1/10
    DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues

    Our lil' lost sparks:
    5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
    8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
    8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
    4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013

    Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
    RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal

    Moving on to IVF.

    IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

    Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
    IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
    FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
    Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14

    After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
    We are so in love with her.

    "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

    Everybody is welcome!!!
  • Thanks for all of your support girls - it means so much to me.  I am trying to stay strong and think positive thoughts.  I think I will feel much better if the transfer goes through tomorrow.  I am trying not to think about it too much, it's hard to feel confident.  I go in tomorrow at 9am.  So please think good thoughts for me.  Thanks. 
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  • Praying for your miracle baby!
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