Ugh I am just having such a down day...scratch that down week.... Stupid AF came today so we are moving on to cycle #5...AND to make things even better I just found out another close friend is pregnant. I am really happy for her b/c this is her first and I know they had been trying for a few months it just SUCKS b/c now I feel like everyone around me is literally pregnant and/or has a newborn. I know that Nicholas is still really little but I've had baby fever since he was like 6 months old, started trying when he was 8 months old and definitely thought I would be pregnant by his 1st birthday which is rapidly approaching.
I don't know if its because he so toddler-ish lately/definitely out of his baby phase that is making this much harder or if its just because I want it so badly and just feel like I cant catch a break with ANYTHING being easy or going our way (between my last pg, how hard things have been with Nick, etc.). I know there are women on here who have been trying for much longer and I really need to get over myself but I just needed to vent for a second and get it out so DH doesnt have to come home and deal with a weepy wife for the 2nd day in a row
Re: pity party for 1 please!
I can umagine that being tough for you. You totally so deserve a break!
TGIF, rest up and so something that makes you happy. (wine, pedi, whatever)
Big hugs, and good luck!
(((HUGS)))
I wanted to be pregnant with our third right around the time Charlotte's 1st birthday was approaching, but it didn't work out that way and instead I got pregnant one month later than I originally wanted to. I was just thinking to myself yesterday that if it had been MY plan, I wouldn't have my Lila, who is perfect for our family... now of course, I would never know the difference if I didn't have her, but it just reminded to trust in God's perfect timing and that His plan is so much better than mine.
Ugh, sounds like you need a glass of wine lady! Cheers to hoping the next cycle is the one for you :0)
I'm sorry! It sucks, I know it sucks, but you have to just keep telling yourself that it will happen when it's meant to. I know, easier said than done, believe me!
Give me until next Saturday to know if I can join in on the pity party with you or not, but I have a feeling I am going to be able to lead the train of bitter b*tches to a local watering hole for one heck of a Pity Party and you can be my #1 invite
Sorry to hear that AF showed her ugly face! I'm going to be honest and let you know I was totally chart stalking you the past few days....only because my chart was almost identical (down to the day of ovulation and everything!) and I really thought you and I were going to get BFP's this cycle. But of course, AF showed up for me today too. Boo!!!!
We're moving onto cycle 4 after our M/C in November and I'm also feeling very defeated lately. We were able to get PG with my son within one month so I assumed I would get PG again quickly and I know 4 months is nothing compared to other girl's struggles, but it's definitely hard on the spirit. (HUGS)
Scoot on over and let's have a pity party for two. I'll bring the drinks!
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