When did your PPD start?

cara-n-steve · February 2011

Hi ladies, I hope it's OK that I post here.

I delivered my boys last Friday at 32 weeks, My water broke at 5am and before I knew it, a few hours later I was having a c-section. They've been in the NICU ever since they were born, and will be there about 2 months.

Ever since they were born, I haven't been able to pull myself together. I don't know if it's PPD or the fact that everything happened so quickly and unexpectedly and I had to com home with out them. I find the only time I don't want to burst into tears is when I'm at the hospital with them.

I'm having problems dealing with it taking us over 2 years to get pg, and then I couldn't carry my boys to full term. It makes me feel like such a failure. I just feel like I should still be pregnant and I failed them. DH is trying to understand, but he really doesn't get it. I just want to hide under a rock.

I had problems with anxiety and depression before getting PG and I was on 300mg on Wellbutrin while pg and am still taking it but it doesn't seem to be helping anymore. Did anyone feel like this so soon after their babies were born? I just don't know what to do? I have a Dr. appointment tomorrow to get my staples out and I'm debating whether or not to say something. I could use any advice you have.

blondek8 · February 2011

My PPD started right away. Pretty much the first night. I was a giant mess from the get-go. You're dealing with a heII of a lot more than the average pregnancy/labour & delivery. You may need a change or tweak in your meds if you're feeling sh!tty over and above your Wellbutrin. Talk to your physician, see what he/she suggests. ::hugs:: from a fellow MoM. Contests on your babies! You're not a failure for having them early. Not by a long shot!

ladipale · February 2011

(responding on phone. Sorry for formatting). First, you are not a failure. I know it feels that way, trust me, I do. My PPD started about a week after my not planned, sudden induction that led to an emergency c-section. I thought it might just be baby blues, but even at my 2 week pp appt my ob suspected ppd and I started seeing a therapist and have since started meds. Please, talk to your ob, and come here for support and check out postpartumprogress.com (great resource). You are not alone, not a failure, and will feel better. Hugs!

cara-n-steve · February 2011

Thanks ladies. It's nice to know I'm not alone. I'm going to talk to the Dr. today when I go to get my stitches out. Then I'm off to the NICU all day. I'll check back in later and let you know what the Dr. said.

KelsoXOXO · February 2011

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. It's very hard going through those thoughts. I haven't been able to admit something was up with me until January.. My DD is almost 9 months old now. I first started noticing a difference in my attitude and anxiety around the first week after we brought her home, but I disregarded it. I kept denying anything was wrong until she was 3 or 4 months old. I was an emotional disaster then, but I still wouldn't talk to anyone about it. I finally got a job when she was 5 months old, and that break saved me - for a while. After working for a couple months and still having anxiety and depression, I finally realized something needed to be done and I needed to talk to someone. I wish I had MUCH sooner though. Talk to someone as soon as you can, because the sooner you figure things out the easier everything will get over time. GL and I'm hoping for the best for you!

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