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Please, I need help.

Venus04dVenus04d member
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I feel like I'm suffocating. I just keep crying and crying and I have no idea why. I feel so anxious that I'm sick to my stomach. I haven't slept in days. I don't feel capable of doing anything but lying in bed and crying, although magically when my baby girl wakes I am able to put on a smile and locate some patience for her. I don't want her to know I'm sad.

I'm a smart woman, but I'm proud, and I have put off admitting I have a problem for too long. I don't want my family or friends or doctors to think I don't love my baby or that I regret her. I don't. She's amazing, it's the rest of the world that feels like too much. I can't find joy in anything.

I know I need help. Therapy, support groups, something. Maybe medication? I don't know where to start. I don't have a general doctor because I haven't lived here long and the ones I have cold called don't have open appointments for a few months. What do I do? Who do I call? Can someone please tell me step one?

 

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  • rosesandpeoniesrosesandpeonies member
    First, it has nothing to do with your love for your daughter!  Second, call your OB and talk to them about it ASAP.  You probably need some meds and some counseling.  That is a good place to start...and you are not alone in this so it is best to tell those around you how you are feeling.   Do not feel bad! 
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  • jaime5121jaime5121
    HUGS!  That is just how I felt too!  I didn't even tell my DH how I felt until after I filled my prescription for my zoloft.  I talked to my OB.  This can get better, just know that it will take time.  Here is a great website that gave me a lot of inspiration https://www.postpartumprogress.com/  I know it is difficult to tell the receptionist what you are going through, but I found if I told them, they were able to work me in a little faster.  You might be able to get put on a waiting list too, in case people call and cancel.  This is a horrible thing to have to go through, but it is something you have to fight through.  We are women and moms - we are fighters!
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  • cloclo85cloclo85

    Everything you are feeling is completely normal. I just had my first baby, 7 weeks ago. I started a PPD as soon as she was born and I waited 6 weeks to get treatment, I waited until it was unberable because I didnt want to take meds. I was just like you, I wanted to stick my head in my pillows, sleep all day, could not sleep for days because of too much anxiety, I had panic attacks, I felt like I didnt want my daughter...

    The most important for you is to get support, from your family, friends... You have to talk about it. Start meds as soon as you can, you will feel so much better, counselling or therapy is very important too. Get all the info you can on PPD, you will see that it is very common and you have nothing to be ashamed of. But you have to get help ASAP. It wont go away by itself. My doctor was off the day I decided to go to get help. I just went to a walk-in clinic and asked for a female doctor.You should do the same. Or go to the hospital.You will see, people and doctors understand more then you think they will. You will get better, but do something about it now.

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  • ThisgirlslifeThisgirlslife

    imagerosesandpeonies:
    First, it has nothing to do with your love for your daughter!  Second, call your OB and talk to them about it ASAP.  You probably need some meds and some counseling.  That is a good place to start...and you are not alone in this so it is best to tell those around you how you are feeling.   Do not feel bad! 

     

    This~ exactly.  Call your OB who did your prenatal care and tell him how you are feeling.  They will get you in alot sooner than a few months from now. 

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  • Venus04dVenus04d member

    Thank you SO SO much ladies for your words of support. I did call my OB yesterday and she got me in this morning. She wrote me a prescription for Prozac and a recommendation for a therapist. My husband and I also had a looong talk about what I am feeling and he was extremely supportive. Thank you for helping to give me the courage to look for help. I know it's going to be a long road, but I feel positive today for the first time in months.

     Thank you.

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