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Feel defeated

I just made the call to find out about our last embryo.  It didn't make it to freeze.  I didn't expect it to but I still was hoping.  Well I didn't know how awful it was going to make me feel.  I feel like IF has won and I am done.  I know I still don't know the outcome of this cycle.  But I don't feel as confident now.  Why should I, I have failed twice before.  Sorry to be such a downer, I just need a shoulder to lean on or a dark hole to hide for a bit.  Sad  Thanks for listening.
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  • I'm so sorry.  (((hugs)))
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  • I'm sorry Beth :(  {{{hugs}}}

    Diagnosed PCOS 2/07, TTC #1 since 8/09
    11/10 - Clomid Round 1 = BFN
    12/10 - Clomid Round 2 = BFN
    1/11 - Voluntary Break = BFN (duh)
    2/11 - Clomid Round 3 = BFN
    3/11 - Femara + IUI = BFP * Beta#1=56 * Beta#2=266
    *Cautiously expecting baby girls on November 28, 2011*
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  • sending you ((((hugs)))) my fingers are crossed for you!
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  • I'm so sorry....I hope that this works for you. 
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  • Oh sweeite, I wish I could take away all of your hurt feelings.  I think that your rock-star embie is snuggling in for the long haul right now so you don't need to worry about the one that didn't make it to freeze.  ((hugs))
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  • Oh sweetie I'm sorry. ((hugs)) I'm crossing my fingers for this cycle to work.
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    TTC Since 2/2009
    2/2010 - 5/2010 Testing with OBGYN
    8/2010 First RE Appointment
    11/2010 Second Opinion RE Appointment
    12/2010 Clomid + IUI #1 = BFN
    1/2011 Clomid + IUI #2 = BFN
    2/2011 Clomid + IUI #3 = BFN
    5/2011 IVF #1, ET 6/2, Beta 6/15 = BFN
    8/2011 FET ET 9/12 = BFN :0(
    On a break to save money.
    1/2012 IVF #2 ER 1/12, ET 1/15, Beta 1/27 = BFFN
    4/2012 FET ET ??/?? =
    p/saif welcome
  • I love you girl..
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    I love you girl..

    Thanks sweetie.

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  • Thanks everyone.  It means a lot. 
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  • I'm sorry, beth. ((hugs))
    Trying to grow our family with both fertility treatments and adoption since March 2009 
    IUIs#1-4 = BFN, IVF#1 = c/p, IVF#2 = OHSS, FET#1=BFP
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  • Huge hugs Beth.  I hope the one(s) you have snuggling in are it for you though.
    11/10: IUI #1 =100mg Clomid CD4-8 + pregnyl trigger + IUI = chemical pregnancy
    1/11: IUI #2 = 5mg Femara + trigger + IUI = BFN
    2/11: IUI #3 = injectibles + trigger + IUI = BFN
    IVF #1 April 2011 ER 4/23 w/16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 11 fert., 4 blasts to freeze, 5dt of 2 blasts on 4/28, beta #1 5/7 = 243... beta #2 5/9 = 491....beta #3 5/11 = 1113!!
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  • I'm so sorry, honey.  I am so hopeful that your rockstar embie is settling in for a 9 month stay.  Ts and Ps that this is it for you.  ((hugs))
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  • I'm so sorry you are feeling down ((big hugs))  I am hoping that this IVF works for you.  My fingers are still crossed for you!!
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  • I'm so sorry.  ((HUGS)) You know there is no reason that this cycle won't work.  I'm sorry you are feeling down today.  I know the feeling.  ((HUGS))  Sending T&Ps your way, hon.  I really want this to be your cycle.

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    Me= 37 and DH = 41 

    Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)

    IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN

    IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.

    IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132.  Lil is here!

    TTC#2:  Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.

    IVF #4:  BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #5:  MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN

    IVF #6:  (New RE):  Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN

    FET#1:  BFN

  • I'm sorry you're feeling down.  I'll think some happy thoughts for you!
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  • I am so sorry!
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    TTC since 1/2010 - Dx with Stage IV Endo
    11/10 - 100mg Clomid + trigger + IUI + Estradiol + Progesterone = BFN
    12/10 - Unmedicated cycle due to RE not doing treatments in December = BFN
    1/11 - 100mg Clomid + trigger + IUI + Estradiol + Progesterone = BFN
    2/11 - Same sh!t, different month = IUI cancelled due to no response = BFN
    IVF #1 - Start stims (Follistim) 5/10, add in Ganirelix 5/14
    ER 5/21 - 13 retrieved, 7 mature, 5 fertilized; ET 5/26 - transferred one perfect 1AA blast. 3 snowbabies.
    Beta 6/3 - 15.8; Beta 6/7 - 21.8; Beta 6/10 - 7 :(
    FET - Transferred 1 AA blast 7/11. Beta 7/20 - 311! Beta 7/22 - 784!! First u/s 8/10
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  • I'm so sorry...hang in there.  ((Hugs))
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  • I am so sorry, Beth. I've got everything crossed that this cycle does the trick.

    ((hugs))

    **TTC since 10/2009** **BFP 4/15/12- Dx Molar Pregnancy- Surgery 5/15/12 & 5/22/12** **BFP 1/23/14- 1st Beta (1/24/14) 171 2nd Beta (1/28/14) 860** Pregnancy Ticker

  • I'm sorry you didn't end up with any frosties, but that is because the best ones were put back.  Try to stay positive that this cycle will be a success.  ((hugs))
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  • Beth I am so sorry about the embryo.  IF can really suck the life out of us.  I find with IF, every step I take forward is followed by two steps backward.  It's hard to stay positive but don't give up hope!!! 

  • So sorry, Beth. Tons of T&Ps to you. I still have hope for you for this cycle.
    IUIs #1-3 (1x unmedicated, 2x Clomid) = 2 BFNs, 1 m/c at 7w3d
    IUIs #4-6 (injects) = 3 BFNs
    IVF #1 = BFN
    FET #1 = BFN
    FET #2 = BFN
    IVF #2 = BFP, b/g twins lost at 20w due to partial abruption/PPROM
    IVF #3 = c/p 5w2d
    Long-shot Clomid/Prednisone cycle before next IVF = BFP, our beautiful, healthy girl born 6/26/13!
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    TTC again March 2014
    FET #3 - May/June 2014
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    all embryos arrested before xfer - back to the drawing board...
    IVF #4 - July/August 2014 
    beta 1 (11dp3dt) 220, beta 2 (13dp3dt) 671, beta 3 (19dp3dt) 10762
  • I'm sorry, hope this cycle is IT for you and your husband.
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