I had a fun weekend with my friend visiting from Cleveland but had some
crappy things happen along the way. DH lost his phone on the MARTA
train in Atlanta and I'm doubtful that there are enough good people left
in the world to return it or take it to lost and found. And since we have to pay full retail price to replace it, it's going to cost $600 to buy a new one. Yay. I'm trying so hard not to be mad at DH since I know he's sick over it and beating himself up already, and it was just an accident but it sucks big-time.
Then I got a
phone call from my uber-fertile SIL that she's pregnant again. I kept
it together on the phone, handed her off to DH, then went and sobbed in
the bathroom. Had to pull it together to try to enjoy the last night I
had with my friend but that sucked. This is her 6th pregnancy since
we've been trying, 7th overall. I have been lapped 6 times by one
person? Seriously, this is my life? And of course her due date is a
week after mine would have been had my first IUI worked.
Then to
top it all off, she goes and sees my old RE b/c she remembered me saying
that IFers tend to get early ultrasounds. So she somehow talked her
way into getting in to see him and he did an u/s at 6 weeks. She then
complained to me that she only saw the sac and didn't see a heartbeat.
Well, hello, you wanted the early u/s and got it... now you're going to
complain that you didn't see a hb?! So she gets another one in a week
or two to check for a heartbeat. How the hell did she manage this since she's about the farthest thing from an infertile... she's a super/uber/extra-fertile. I feel like she's just using my old RE.
Then not even 30 minutes after telling us her news on the phone, she
posts that she's expecting on FB!!!!!!! She did this last time with
only having a positive HPT not even an u/s, so I guess she's progressing but
she hasn't even seen the HB! Last time she lost the baby just days
after posting her announcement on FB. Think she'd learn to maybe wait
just a little while to post?? Nope. I think she just likes all the
attention she gets from it. I mean she has 25+ comments of
congratulations, and she's "liked" each individual comment. I mean,
seriously. FFS. I need to request that bunker that someone was digging to just crawl in and hide for awhile. Maybe 2012 will be better.
Re: I could use some hugs. Long vent.
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
so sorry sweetie
it all just sucks so, so much!
TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs
I'm so sorry ((HUGS)). That's a lot to handle in just a few days. I would block her from FB if you can. Hang in there hon...
Hopefully this will make you laugh but when I saw your penguin siggy, I imagined your SIL was the penguin getting slapped into the hole!
Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
E & C Born 10/19/2012
Forever our's October 17th 2012
hahahaha, thank you... that was the first thing to make me laugh all day.
beta#1 3/21 (14dp3dt)=413, beta#2 3/23 (16dp3dt)=785, u/s 4/11
EDD 11/25/12
**SAIFW**
Wow. That's just not fair.
I'm so sorry. ((hugs))
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1
YIKES!!! I would hide her on fb and ignore her phone calls.. let your hubby answer if you see her number.. It's his sis, let him deal with her.
You need to concentrate on you and your feelings and take care of yourself...
Big hugs,
Renee*
2/06 - surprise pregnancy - twins
3/06 - m/c 1st baby at 6 weeks
5/06 -2nd baby had no heartbeat at 14 wks.
D&E - Bled out. Blood transfusions. Week in ICU - Cheated Death!
Diagnosis: Blood clotting and bleeding disorder, immune issues, & cervical stenosis
5/10 - 1st IVF cycle - BFN
FET - 10/12/10 - BFN
1/11 - IVF with PGD - BFN
IVF - May - BFN
6/11 New RE - fingers crossed!
9/11 - IVF - 4 transferred
10/13 - BFP!!
It's a boy! Clint Michael, Due in June!!!
I'm sorry. It all sucks. (((HUGS)))
07/14/97 - Stillborn twins at 22 weeks
12/20/99 - Miscarriage #1 - 11 wks 4 days laproscopic surgery due to rupture of tube
07/01/01 - Divorced
05/30/09 - Re-married to a wonderful man!
11/11/09 - Miscarriage #2 - 10 wks 3 days, D&C
Dx: Unexplained
07/30/10 - 10/19/10 - IUI #1 - IUI #4 clomid cd2-6 + premarin cd7-13 + HCG Trigger=BFFN's
11/10/10 - IVF #1 Start stims ER#1 11/22, ER #2 11/24, ET 11/29=BFFN
03/14/11 - IVF #2 start stims, ER-03/26/11, ET-03/31/11, beta 04/08/11 = BFFN
05/16/11 - Hail Mary Cycle - Inj+TI =BFP!! 06/08/11 Beta #1 71.8, 06/10/11 Beta #2 201, U/S 6/20-1 sac. U/S 6/28 sac and hb of 118!!
holy crap what an a$$!
I would be so pissed. I cannot believe she went to your RE... and I really cant believe you had to listen to her telling you!!! What did you say??
I have come to realize that you are all way nicer than me.
iui #5 2/7 + 2/8 = BFP!! 11 dpiui
Beta #1 2/18 11dpiui= 46, Beta #2 13dpiui 150, Beta #3 16dpiui 584!!
u/s revealed triplets! Baby B 3rd loss 8w2d. Twins! EDD 10/31/11 * c/s scheduled 10/12/11 My NEW BLOG
SAIF/PAIF Always Welcome!
TTC #1 May 2008
6 Rounds Clomid, 1 Round Femera-BFN
4 IUIs (1 Clomid, 1 Femara, 2 injectables)-BFN
February 2010-Laparoscopy
4 months of Lupron
August 2010-IUI #5-BFN
October 2010-IUI #6-BFN
IVF #1 November 2010-BFN
IVF #2 March 2011-BFN
TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN
IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
Lap 7/21/10
IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!
James born Oct. 24th 2011 via c-section at 38 weeks!
Surprise BFP - Jack born April 28, 2013 via VBAC after PTL at 33 1/2 weeks!
Married 1/2/99.
TTC since 4/09.
Diagnosed PCOS. Diagnosed Hypothryoid 11/09.
SHG & SA normal. PCOS Research study started 5/10.
Clomid/Femara cycle #1 - 6/10 = BFN
Clomid/Femara cycle #2 - 7/10 = BFP #1 - Missed miscarriage 9/2/10
11/12 - BFP #2 - 11/22 - m/c
5/1/11 - BFP #3 - Pre-eclampsia, IUGR & bed rest from 32w. DD born via induction 1/4/12.
TTC since August 2008
IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
"Let it go, this too shall pass."
::: Married June 2003:::

TTC #1 since: Aug. 2008
Me: 34, DOR, MTHFR-A1298C (heterozygous), decreased blood flow to uterus, Mild Endo
DH: 38, Balanced translocation 5&10, unexplained MFI, normal SA and SCSA
Tx History: IUI 1&2= BFN
IVF# 1 W/ICSI= BFN
IVF# 2: cancelled d/t no response
IVF# 3= 1 egg retrieved=immature/not viable
IVF# 4= c/p
***CCRM ODWU***
Found DHs BT and Me-decreased blood flow to uterus
Recommended DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. Decided to cycle locally
***New RE***
DE IVF# 1(cycle #6) w/pgd, (freeze all): 30R, 23M, 15F, slow/poor embryo development, 4 biopsied, 1 Normal "Norm"; DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture.
IVF# 6: (OE/DS) cancelled
IVF# 7: (OE/DS) 1R, 1M, 1F, arrested day 5
Plan-DE IVF# 2 (cycle #8): DE/DS in May 2015
http://icanhazbabyz.blogspot.com/
Jenn
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
my blog
Hugs
Wow- I don't know how the heck she got in to see your RE for an U/S. That's BS. So insurance covers that but doesn't cover half of the stuff for us infertiles.
Why would your RE even agree to that?
I'm sorry hon. I hope you enjoyed your visit with your friend- And 2011 just started- so this means it's only going to get better. Hang in there.
More hugs
IVF # 1 ~ Antagonist ~ ER 1/27/11~ ET 1/30/11 ~ + HPT 7dp3dt
DD born med-free on 10/24/11
TTC since March 2009 // Me and DH - 28
Testing Summer/Fall 2010 - Unexplained IF
IUIs #1-4 ~ Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/IUI ~ all BFNs
IUI #5 ~ Femara/Ovidrel/TI/IUI ~ BFN
IUIs #6-9 ~ Research Study Meds/Pregnyl/TI/IUI ~ all BFNs
IVF Consultation, More Testing
Diagnostic Cycle ~ Mucinex/Progesterone/TI ~ BFN
IVF #1 ~ Menopur/Bravelle/Ganirelix/Novarel/Progesterone/Lupron
7R, 6F // 2 transferred // 3 frosties ~ BFN
FET #1 ~ Estrace/PIO/Lupron
3 thawed // 2 transferred // 1 lost // no more frosties ~ BFP!!
Beta #1 - 456 // Beta #2 - 1176 // Beta #3 - 2933 // Beta #4 - 6753
EDD: May 16, 2013
Bedrest for SCH // 6w2d through 10w1d
Elevated TSH and Lazy Thyroid DX @ 10w - Started Synthroid
Finally released from RE at 13w
~~ My IF Blog ~~
Me: PCOS/Amenorrhea DH: Azoospermia due to Y Chromosome Micro Deletion IVF w/ ICSI on hold until further notice
Hope