How were you feeling before meds?

Re: How were you feeling before meds?

• Melanie&Jason

  February 2011

  I felt like my children and H would be better off without me.  I felt like a horrible mother for crying in front of my 2 yr old which would make him cry.  I felt like my fuse was very short.  If one thing didn't go correctly in my day, it was catastrophic to me.  I felt like I lost myself because I stopped having interests and cut myself off from friends.  

  I definitely think you should talk to your Dr at your pp 6 week appt.  Good luck and feel better soon!  
  

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• klcl8981 member

  February 2011

  I cried a lot. Felt like my husband deserved a better wife, and my son a better mother. I felt like my son truly hated me as his mother, and would only love my husband. I also never left my house unless it were to my mother's because she helps out with DS when I have bad days. I had horrible thoughts all the time about something happening to DS or DH, or me doing something to myself.

  There is more, and I brushed it off and said it was nothing for 8 months. That was a huge mistake.

  I am only on my second week of my medication. At times, I see a big difference. I am still having bad days. But it is early, and I am waiting for a full recovery.

   I really want to look into counseling, but it's not something I can afford right now. You should also consider that along with medication.

  Tell someone how you feel. Talk to your doctor.

  Also, part of how I felt was that I didn't want to be a mother anymore. And I didn't want to be a wife. I believe it's all part of the depression. Things are not perfect for me, and I still sometimes have these feelings. But I was just diagnosed very recently, and I need to give it time. I have to take one day at a time... It's hard to remember that.
  

  

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• Mrs.Saxy member

  February 2011

  I really think you should talk to your OB about these feelings.  "''this is not too bad, I can handle this.''"  This seems like depression to me.

  
  
  
  
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• LaurenQ81

  February 2011

  I felt like I just couldn't be a mother.  I cried a lot.  I contemplated giving my baby up for adoption.  I think the sleep deprivation really plays a large part in it.  I was caring for the baby, but I never felt like smiling at her.  At four weeks I started Zoloft and 3 - 4 weeks later I felt great.  Like my old self.

   My doctor had a quiz to take to check the symptoms of ppd.  I bet you could find a quiz online to check for yourself.

   

  If you do have it, please  consider trying meds.  It's much better for the baby to have a happy momma than a sad one.  I was only on the meds for 5 months so it just takes time for some of our bodies to go back to normal.  No shame in it.
  

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• totallyshocked member

  February 2011

  I was so anxious and depressed. I couldnt sleep or eat. I hate saying this now but I didnt even want to keep LO half the time. I knew I loved her but as much as I was ready the change of my life just hit me bad. I cried over anything baby related and my stomach felt like a knot in it every time she cried. Now, after getting on meds and a few weeks of therapy, I am 100% different. Her laughter and giggles that wake me everyday now put a smile on my face. I rock her every night (before I just used the swing)......I know I feel this house with so much more motherly love.

  Talk to your doctor and see what they say. But getting on meds isnt the end of the world and PPD is a real sickness. Get help if your going through it. You will be soo happy you did. Were all always here for u! 

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• blondek8 member

  February 2011

  I cried every day. I wanted to leave -- pack up some of my stuff and move to a different city. I felt like a giant burden to my husband and family. I felt like I was drowning. I didn't want to take care of my babies, I begged my husband to give them up for adoption. I wanted to either not wake up in the morning or sometimes I was suicidal. It's not all roses since starting my meds and my recovery. I still have horribly low days where it feels like the walls are closing in on me, but things are better. I have more good days than bad days now. It's a slow process. Talk to your physician. Hope you feel better soon.
  

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• janabelle3

  February 2011

  cloclo85:

  I am scared that I might be having a post part depression but I am not sure if its only baby blues. My baby is 4 weeks. Some days I am OK but not great, some days I just cry. Sometimes I think ''this is not too bad, I can handle this.''

  I feel like medecine would not change my situation, and its my situation that makes me so sad. I think I didnt want to have a baby after all...The medecine wont change my life... I dont know what to think. Tell me how you were feeling please!
  

  I am feeling this EXACT same way.... I just haven't expressed it to anyone. I have twins and as blessed as I am and as precious as they are, I regret having them. This life for me right now is too hard-and I miss my old life basically. I am going to go see a therapist and possibly see about going on meds as well.....  wb if you want to chat...

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• janabelle3

  February 2011

  blondek8:

  I cried every day. I wanted to leave -- pack up some of my stuff and move to a different city. I felt like a giant burden to my husband and family. I felt like I was drowning. I didn't want to take care of my babies, I begged my husband to give them up for adoption. I wanted to either not wake up in the morning or sometimes I was suicidal. It's not all roses since starting my meds and my recovery. I still have horribly low days where it feels like the walls are closing in on me, but things are better. I have more good days than bad days now. It's a slow process. Talk to your physician. Hope you feel better soon.
  

   

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• MilosMommy7

  February 2011

  my son was about 2 weeks when everyting started hitting me full force. i started to think that he didnt know i was his mom. felt no bond. he was crying all the time and wouldnt stop so i lacked so much sleep. i then started to feel extreme rage and the need to tear apart the house. i wanted to beat up my SO because i had so many feelings built up. i wanted to set him down and let him cry and not even touch him. then i started to feel guilty for having him because i was the worst mom. i wanted to die

  

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