At 8 weeks, my pregnancy ended on January 24 @ 12:15....So says the Certificate of Death of Early Pregnancy Loss, signed and sealed from my RE...I keep reading it today...it's the first I have looked at my surgery discharge papers. I measured 6 weeks and the "fetus was delivered with no signs of vitality."
The reality of it is, I had a D&C and at 8 weeks there was no sign of a fetus and the gestational sac was underdeveloped. We sent the "pregnancy tissue" off for genetics testing and now wait an agonizing 6wks (as if the 2ww wasn't long enough) for the results to come back.
I did not want to come back to this page but I obviously am not ready to move on b/c I tear up when I have a quiet moment. I'm trying to rationalize that is was so early, again. And I do count my blessings that I never saw a fetus, again. But its still very difficult.
I have NO clue what is going to happen next...I have No clue what to hope for, other than this not being the end of our journey...This is out-of-pocket so we can handle what we have been doing, we can manage these attempts but if it comes back that we have to do genetically engineered embroys with IVF, well, frankly we are done. I do not want to be done...I want my take home baby.
I feel the loss of my/our baby and I am fearing the loss of our ability to continue...I'm just not dealing well.........