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Four angels in heaven now

kjpamkjpam
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Hello all ...

 

I never could have imagined that  2 1/2 years ago when my super sweet d/h and I decided to begin our journey to becoming parents that it would bring so much heartache.  Last night, I had my fourth m/c.  Our LO stayed with us for almost 10 1/2 weeks.  It was so wonderful to be pregnant during the holidays and d/h and I decided to keep it  to ourselves until about 10 weeks.  We had planned to tell our families this weekend or so.  Now we can tell them instead our very sad news.  I am dreading going to the doctor tomorrow to confirm that the m/c is complete.  I just want tomorrow to be over and crawl in bed and hide ( where I've been since yesterday ).  I still hope and pray that I will one day have a LO to hold in my arms but as I am "advanced maternal age"  that dream is slowly dying with each angel we send to heaven.   I am numb and still hold out slight hope that we will have our dream come true.  This board has always been a comfort to me in the past.  I am so sorry we all have to be here but so grateful for the support and warmth of all the amazing ladies on this board.   Big hugs to you all !!!

5 ANGELS IN HEAVEN ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ -> miss m/c discovered on 4/6/09 at 9wks 3 days ( measured 6wks 1day ) m/c on 4/15/09 -> natural m/c on 8/27/09 at 8wks 1 day -> miss m/c discovered on 5/27/10 at 8wks 3 days ( measured 8wks ) m/c on 6/15/10 -> natural m/c on 1/27/11 at 10wks 3days -> natural m/c on 3/12/12 at 7wks ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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  • tonesqtonesq
    I am so very sorry for your losses.  I hope you get your take home baby soon. 
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  • ziggy23213ziggy23213 member
    I'm so so sorry for your losses ((((hugs))))
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    4 losses: Natural m/c 8w 1/11, CP 12/11, CP 3/12, and our perfectly healthy baby girl Charlotte Grace, missed M/C 5/31/12 at 8w5d
    DX: Endo, heterozygous MTHFR, low progesterone
    Surprise unmedicated BFP 9/21/12!! Beta #1 9/22 (10 DPO) 46 Beta #2 9/24 (12 DPO) 226! Heartbeat 136 bpm at 7w! It's a BOY!  Theodore Joshua born 5/23/13 at 7:36am via c/s, 7lb13oz, 19.25in
    TTC#2 5/14, BFP 8/15/14!  Beta #1 16 (11 DPO), Beta #2 71 (14 DPO) Beta #3 164 (16 DPO) Beta #4 633 (21 DPO) Beta #5 1487 (23 DPO) Heartbeat 121 bpm at 6w6d!  EDD 4/25/15
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  • BlondeBride82BlondeBride82 member
    I am so sorry for your loss  ((Hugs))
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  • LDW80LDW80
    I am so so sorry for your losses!  Hopefully the dr. can give you some answers and help you get your take home baby.  Please take care of yourself and this is a wonderful supportive board.  ((hugs))
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  • ekmOCekmOC

    I am so sorry for your recurrent painful experiences.   I hope that your OB is giving you the full evaluation you deserve.  If not, it may be time to see someone new who can help you.  

    So very sorry for you pain.  You are not alone.   

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  • Lishba0909Lishba0909
    I don't know how you do it. One is bad enough, but the pain you must go through has got to be so heart wrenching. At least you have the support of DH, just cling to eachother. My prayers are with you.
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  • kjpamkjpam

    Thank you all for your warm words and support.  After the second m/c we had loads of tests done and all they could find was I had MTHFR.  As my homocysteine levels were normal I only take extra folic acid for that.  I do have some fibroids but the doctors do not think that is causing my problems.  My doctors just blame my age and say to keep trying.  As I have recently moved I will be switching doctors soon.  Maybe a fresh perspective might help us.  OR maybe they are right, I am just "old" :-(


     

    5 ANGELS IN HEAVEN ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ -> miss m/c discovered on 4/6/09 at 9wks 3 days ( measured 6wks 1day ) m/c on 4/15/09 -> natural m/c on 8/27/09 at 8wks 1 day -> miss m/c discovered on 5/27/10 at 8wks 3 days ( measured 8wks ) m/c on 6/15/10 -> natural m/c on 1/27/11 at 10wks 3days -> natural m/c on 3/12/12 at 7wks ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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  • SweetBaby2004SweetBaby2004
    I am so sorry for your loss.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and your DH.
    DD#1 11/7/04 DS#1 6/24/06 Chemical Pregnancy 6/08 DD#2 1/28/10 after secondary infertility, Clomid, & acupuncture missed m/c 6/2010 at 8 weeks (baby stopped growing @ 5.5) DS born sleeping 1/13/2011 due to cord accident at 22 weeks. DD#3 3/10/2012
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  • jerseygirl-37jerseygirl-37
    I'm so sorry for your loss. I sent you a PM. 
    TTC since May 2007 - 12/20/07 Angel Baby - 03/27/08 Angel Baby - 06/08 Diagnosed with MTHFR (1 copy) - 07/08 Uterine Polyp removed - 9/5/08 Chemical Pregnancy - 10/08 started researching adoption agencies - 12/08 Found new RE - 2/09 had 3 large Fibroids removed - 10/15/09 Adoption Home Study Approved & waiting - 12/22/10 Angel Baby - 6/11 State Licensed as Foster Parents - 7/5/2012 Angel Baby 10/26/2012 - diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome
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