This has taken me a week to write because I cried the entire time I wrote it.
https://yelizah.blogspot.com/2011/01/day-my-world-came-crashing-down.html
5/9/2013 = Our rainbow was born!!
08/18/2012 - BFP (Hoping this is our rainbow!)
06/24/2012 - Loss confirmed at 12 weeks
12/14/2010 - Loss baby girl at 20 weeks due to Turner Syndrome
01/2009 - Chemical Pregnancy
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Re: Finally Had The Strength To Write My Story
DC #1 10/2008 TTC #2 since 1/2010
Natural miscarriage @ 5w3d 1/2011 Chemical pregnancy 4/2011
Yan...what a heartbreaking thing you are going through! and i completely relate to the guilt of not knowing something was wrong!!! but i hope writing your story does help with your healing!!
{{big hugs}}
DD #1 born 10/21/03
DD #2 born 2/8/06
DS no hb 11/17/10 at 21w1d, d&e 11/24,demise due to fetal hydrops, from congestive heart failure, probably caused by structural malformation
Our Rango....BFP 2/6/11...hb on 2/23...perfectly healthy, but no hb on 6/9/11 d & e 6/15/2011
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DC#2 born silent at 22 weeks 1.11.11
Dc#3 born vbac 1/2012 <bra DC#4 born VBAC 3/2014
5/9/2013 = Our rainbow was born!!
08/18/2012 - BFP (Hoping this is our rainbow!)
06/24/2012 - Loss confirmed at 12 weeks
12/14/2010 - Loss baby girl at 20 weeks due to Turner Syndrome
01/2009 - Chemical Pregnancy
My Blog
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I hope that you have some healing with writing all of this down. It is great that you had such a great doctor with you in this process.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. ~bigs hugs~ I am so sorry honey.
I'm so sorry for your loss. My D&E was at 21 weeks for severe heart defects (with no related chromosomal abnormalities), that were discovered at the mid-pregnancy anatomy scan. I totally know how it feels to be the 1 in a gazillion that something like that happens to. The heart defect that our baby had was incredibly rare, and then we were in the worst 10% of that particular defect, where it couldn't be "fixed" with open heart surgery. I remember signing all the forms for the D&E and they said that 1 in 50,000 people die from anesthesia - before we lost our baby, I never would have thought twice about being the 1 in 50,000, but now that something even less likely happened to us, I do.
The phrase that my doctor used that has stuck with me is "You and your husband were struck by lightning, but I don't think you're lightning rods." Meaning that what happened to us was so incredibly unlikely, but he doesn't think it's likely to happen again.
Have you visiting the babycenter.com "Termination for Medical Reasons" board? I recommend it. It has helped me to talk with people that had to make such an awful decision like we did. Hang in there.