I feel like the worst mother ever. I had a terrible night last night. DH was working his second job, so he left the house at 7:30am and didn't come home until after 10:30pm. I didn't have any daycare kids because of the weather, and thought it would be a nice easy day with just me and DS. DS, however, had other plans and was incredibly active and defiant ALL DAY. He has figured out that I can't keep up with him anymore, so he runs away from me when I want him to do something (like change his diaper). I can't even get him to sit in front of the TV for 5 mintues so I can pee! I found myself yelling A LOT. He only napped for a little over an hour, so he was really cranky in the late afternoon/early evening while I was trying to get diner ready. I completely lost it and screamed at him. Then I collapsed on the floor hysterical crying. And what did he do? My amazing little man, that I had just lost my temper with BIG TIME, came running over and hugged and kissed me. I should have been the one consoling him!
Part of me can't wait for the baby to get here so that I can actually move around more easily again and not get so frustrated that I can't do anything. The other part of me is terrified of having #2 here and not being able to handle it! I come from a long line of yellers, and really don't want to be like that. Last night was a real low point for me. After DS was finally down for the night, I just laid in my bed a cried.
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(((hugs))) Raising a toddler while being pregnant is exhausting - mentally & physically. I have definitely had my moments, too. The fact that he came to comfort you shows just what a great mom you are! He learned that empathy & compassion from you, mama.
All I've got so far is that I called a recycling dumpster a b@sterd. Give me some time and I'm sure I can think of something more flame worthy. lol
Ditto - I've had my moments this pg, too. I'm generally pretty dern patient, but at this point, once it's gone, it's GONE.... I won't mention my rant from a week or two ago...
Anyhoo - confession... I think my MIL is crazy for continuing to go get shots in her back without being willing to see a chiropractor. I also am >< this close to rationalizing my increased paper towel use. Probably not totally flame worthy, but...
I wanted a grapefruit so bad last night i was crying, so DH went out in the snow to get it for me. and i'm kind of upset that he only bought 1.
i ate almost a whole box of shells & cheese by myself the other night. i purposely waited until DS was in bed to ask DH to make it for me, so I wouldn't have to share.
*craves...*
I love this!! I would have done the same thing.
Thanks, ladies. I'm just having a bad couple of days, but I hate myself for taking it out on DS. He's just being 17 months old.
Adding (((hugs))), and I love Dobie's thought about empathy.
I can't think of anything to confess, even not flameworthy.
Mother's Day, 2011
(((hugs))) I've been there!!! I really think it does get better once the second baby is here. I bet you'll do better than you think if you have an inhome DC because you've gotten some training with that.
Evan is afraid of riding in a cart. I feel really guilty about that. #1 it's because going on errands is my "me" time. I usually wait until I can leave at least one of them home with DH and usually it's both. Plus, when I have taken Evan on errands I wear him in the ergo (which is harder with the winter coat situation this time of year) so he's just not used to carts. I feel like this makes me a horrible mother
Today we had to go to walmart for a few things so I took both boys and am trying to get him adjusted. He cried a little bit but adjusted after some hugs and walking around. The whole time he kept at least one hand on the cart, clutching it for dear life. So now I have a mission to get him over this and take him on a lot more errands, especially once spring is here.
I tried to learn to cast on last night and it didn't go well which made me really resentful that my mom won't make time to teach me...instead she's too busy helping out my brother and sister. I hate feeling like that.
Big E (6) & Little E (2.5)
First, I have two whole trees full of grapefruit and pomelo, and as much as I usually love citrus, I just find them too sour and to have a weird texture. (Maybe I don't know enough about how to take care of my inherited fruit trees?) Only DH eats them. They're all going to rot and be wasted.
Second, I always eat a whole box. Is it me, or is it small? ; )