Well, title says it all. Even though I tested and got a bfn, I still had a glimmer of hope that is now crushed. No 2011 baby for me. IF we decided to do a FET the transfer would not be till April. We meet with the RE on 2/11 and need to make a decision by then. This goes to show that you can have a perfect embie, perfect lining and have nothing to show for it. In the mean time, I get to wait on AF-go for baseline.
My heart is just aching. I have no words-it just plain hurts! And yes-like my mom says-we have IF coverage, a house, a car, etc-but none of that fills the void of not having a baby. I am thankful for the things that I have, but am just sad/mad.
Anyway-congrats to Mrs. Mo & I wish all of you girls the best of luck!!!!!! I would not want this feeling on any of you! I will be thinking of you all!
Heather
Re: IVF#1=BFFN
I am so sorry hun. I know exactly how you feel but know that will not bring you any comfort right now.
Send me a PM if you need to chat.
IVF#3 brought us our miracle baby girl on June 26, 2012
Dx: PCOS and MFI
3 IUIs, 4 IVFs = BFFN
3rd RE: IVF #5/FET = BFP
14dp5dt=1170 16dp5dt=2573
1st u/s=TWINS!
It's a Boy and a Girl!
Born at 34w3d!
Diagnosed PCOS 2/07, TTC #1 since 8/09
11/10 - Clomid Round 1 = BFN
12/10 - Clomid Round 2 = BFN
1/11 - Voluntary Break = BFN (duh)
2/11 - Clomid Round 3 = BFN
3/11 - Femara + IUI = BFP * Beta#1=56 * Beta#2=266
*Cautiously expecting baby girls on November 28, 2011*
I'm so sorry. *hugs* I hope it's okay for me to respond. I'm not trying to make you feel worse, I just wanted to tell you I know how you feel. I don't think I've ever felt worse than when my cycle failed. The cycling was hard on me and I also couldn't understand how it couldn't work with "perfect" embryos at transfer. But I took a month off. I did a FET cycle, which was like a breath of fresh air. And I got my BFP.
I'm thinking of you - take care of yourself. If you need to talk, send a PM.
It took 5 failed IUIs and a failed IVF, but our FET worked!
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Our baby girl was born on April 27, 2011!
Heather I am so sorry. I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel better but wanted to send you HUGE ((((hugs)))))
Totally agree...so very sorry. You & your dh will be in my T & P's. (((Huge Hugs)))
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Oh my. I am so very sorry, dear.
TTC Since 2/2009
2/2010 - 5/2010 Testing with OBGYN
8/2010 First RE Appointment
11/2010 Second Opinion RE Appointment
12/2010 Clomid + IUI #1 = BFN
1/2011 Clomid + IUI #2 = BFN
2/2011 Clomid + IUI #3 = BFN
5/2011 IVF #1, ET 6/2, Beta 6/15 = BFN
8/2011 FET ET 9/12 = BFN :0(
On a break to save money.
1/2012 IVF #2 ER 1/12, ET 1/15, Beta 1/27 = BFFN
4/2012 FET ET ??/?? =
p/saif welcome
TTC since 1/2008
I'm so sorry.
(((HUGS)))
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Dx=Severe MFI IVF#1 with ICSI=BFP!
Lots of love and luck to my TTGP IVF Buddy Kathy4678!
Love & luck to my 3TC girls. Congrats to Omega-The boys are here!
If there's one thing I've learned while waiting my turn,
it's that in each life some rain falls but you also get some sun.
After 2 years & 2 losses, our little man arrived 8-2011.
1/11: IUI #2 = 5mg Femara + trigger + IUI = BFN
2/11: IUI #3 = injectibles + trigger + IUI = BFN
IVF #1 April 2011 ER 4/23 w/16 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 11 fert., 4 blasts to freeze, 5dt of 2 blasts on 4/28, beta #1 5/7 = 243... beta #2 5/9 = 491....beta #3 5/11 = 1113!!
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I'm so sorry. I wish you the best of luck and hope April comes quickly for you.
June/July 2011 - IVF #1 - Transfer cancelled due to OHSS
23 perfect embryos. All 23 made it to freezing!
September/October - FET #1 - October 12th - 2 Grade A embies
October 20th - BFP??! EDD - July 1, 2012
Beta #1 = 154, Beta #2 = 352 Beta #3 = 3,800
U/S #2 - November 14th = 133 bpm! U/S #3 & 4 - November 30th and December 7th = 163 bpm! U/S#5 - January 30th - TEAM PINK!!!
Baby Sweets born on her due date!
Septated uterus, pcos (on metformin), MTHFR
Clomid # 1- July 2010 = BFN / #2 Sept 2010= BFN
IVF#1 - 1/2011 = BFN (Severe AF started 7dpo)
IVF#2 - 3/2011 = Ectopic
Aug 2011- FE - Thaw all - cancelled - embryos didn't make it!
Oct 2011 - IVF#3 = BFP!! ~ TWINS!!
Said goodbye to Twin B @ 9w5d
Hudson Edward ~ Pprom 18 wks 2/16/12 - We love you forever. You have our hearts.
8/15/12 5dFET = BFP! ~ Said goodbye at 7wks gestation
11/9/12 5dFET = BFP! ~ Said goodbye at 5wks gestation
12/28/12 - Septated Uterus Found (was misdiagnosed as bicornuate!)
Mrs. Little Drew 10/25/08
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TTC since 1/2010 - Dx with Stage IV Endo
11/10 - 100mg Clomid + trigger + IUI + Estradiol + Progesterone = BFN
12/10 - Unmedicated cycle due to RE not doing treatments in December = BFN
1/11 - 100mg Clomid + trigger + IUI + Estradiol + Progesterone = BFN
2/11 - Same sh!t, different month = IUI cancelled due to no response = BFN
IVF #1 - Start stims (Follistim) 5/10, add in Ganirelix 5/14
ER 5/21 - 13 retrieved, 7 mature, 5 fertilized; ET 5/26 - transferred one perfect 1AA blast. 3 snowbabies.
Beta 6/3 - 15.8; Beta 6/7 - 21.8; Beta 6/10 - 7
FET - Transferred 1 AA blast 7/11. Beta 7/20 - 311! Beta 7/22 - 784!! First u/s 8/10
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Me: 38 DH:36
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Me= 37 and DH = 41
Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)
IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN
IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.
IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132. Lil is here!
TTC#2: Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.
IVF #4: BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN
IVF #5: MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN
IVF #6: (New RE): Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN
FET#1: BFN
Big hugs. Unfortunately, I feel your pain. I hope you get a super sticky BFP very soon.
IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer
Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
**P/SAIF and P/SAL always welcome!**
After 2 1/2 years TTC, 3 IUI's, endo, and a lap, a surprise BFP brought us Alexandra Marie!