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Diagnosis confirmed...new here

Mizz&ShizzMizz&Shizz
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Hi Everyone,

I was just diagnosed with PPD yesterday by my therapist.  I was diagnosed with PP anxiety shortly after DS was born.  A few weeks before Christmas things started to spiral down, and I hit "rock bottom"  about 10 days ago.  I have been seeing this therapist since fall 2009 after I had a miscarriage.

I've been on Zoloft since November 2009, and my dosage is slowly creeping up.  I started on 50 mg, now I'm on 100 mg, and at the suggestion of my therapist and hopefully in concert with my OB, I'll go up to 150 mg. 

Right now we are doing CBT for some body image issues that I'm having with regards to my PP body, and also lots of talking about some guilt that I have regarding some thoughts around DS's birth (I can't even still really bring myself to talk about it openly). 

Although I always knew that I was at risk for PPD due to prior depression and the mild PTSD I had after my m/c, I have to say that I am upset with myself that I have PPD.  I know this is unrealistic, but I feel like a failure and I am embarrassed.  I am hoping that with the increase in meds and more frequent therapy that I won't feel like this anymore...right now I hate my body, I am upset with myself regarding those guilty feelings, I feel like a failure and I am embarrassed.

TY for reading if you got this far!!!

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    jaime5121jaime5121
    Feels strange to say it, but welcome.  You will find a lot of support here.  I hope that the increased zoloft will do the trick for you! 
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    junebug02junebug02
    Hi there, I'm new too.  Our babies were born on the same day :-) 
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    alamo10alamo10

    I'm new here also. You aren't a failure and you shouldn't feel embarrassed, A LOT of people have PPD. It's good you can talk about it openly. It took me awhile to admit that I was depressed. As for the body image issues, it is totally normal to not be happy with your body after having a baby. I don't know very many people who are happy with how they look postpartum, so know you're not alone.

    I hope the increase of meds works out for you.

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    astroMomastroMom member
    I agree.  We should all try to not be embarrassed.  I think I read 1 in 10 women get it!

    DS born 8/2010 - preliminary stages of SN int'l adoption - fur mama to 2 shelter dogs;  cloth diapering, babywearing, EBFing mama

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